Suicide

It crossed my mind at the very beginning of my OCD journey. I didn't know what to do until I was diagnosed. It sounded like the only way to stop the thoughts from coming. But i didn't do it. Don't give up on yourself. The road to the light may be long and tiring, but you are stronger than you think. You can overcome OCD. I believe in you. Whenever you feel darkness, think of this: every light comes with its darkness first.

It wasn’t just my OCD; it was all 5 of my mental illnesses, including childhood trauma. Honestly, the child abuse wanted was the worst and that was the reason, though My POCD definitely didn’t help. But my fiancé saved me, actually. He stayed on the phone with me for 3 days during the night (he was in another state at this time) because I was too scared to sleep, so we talked for 6 hours and he got me through a long holiday weekend—until I could get in to see a professional.

i’ve been there and i’m here for you

Everyday, if i was able to i wouldve attempted it already.

I’ve definitely thought about it even years before my OCD started, and to this day it’s a continuous battle. Although, I would say it’s getting better. So I want you to know that it’s totally possible to live a fulfilling life regardless of your OCD and anxiety. You don’t have to listen to these thoughts, do whatever you want and live your life how you want to. It’s easier said than done but you can certainly get there with time.