- Username
- OCDkickrocks
- Date posted
- 2y ago
Suicide
Has anyone gotten to the point where they have tried to commit suicide because of OCD? It can be so dark sometimes.
Has anyone gotten to the point where they have tried to commit suicide because of OCD? It can be so dark sometimes.
It crossed my mind at the very beginning of my OCD journey. I didn't know what to do until I was diagnosed. It sounded like the only way to stop the thoughts from coming. But i didn't do it. Don't give up on yourself. The road to the light may be long and tiring, but you are stronger than you think. You can overcome OCD. I believe in you. Whenever you feel darkness, think of this: every light comes with its darkness first.
It wasn’t just my OCD; it was all 5 of my mental illnesses, including childhood trauma. Honestly, the child abuse wanted was the worst and that was the reason, though My POCD definitely didn’t help. But my fiancé saved me, actually. He stayed on the phone with me for 3 days during the night (he was in another state at this time) because I was too scared to sleep, so we talked for 6 hours and he got me through a long holiday weekend—until I could get in to see a professional.
i’ve been there and i’m here for you
Everyday, if i was able to i wouldve attempted it already.
I’ve definitely thought about it even years before my OCD started, and to this day it’s a continuous battle. Although, I would say it’s getting better. So I want you to know that it’s totally possible to live a fulfilling life regardless of your OCD and anxiety. You don’t have to listen to these thoughts, do whatever you want and live your life how you want to. It’s easier said than done but you can certainly get there with time.
Is there anyone else on here that gave into one of their obsessions? I feel disgusting. I feel like if this app would have been a thing years ago I wouldn’t have. But I’m always with the what if or this would have/could have happened. It makes me question if I even have ocd and maybe I’m just a sociopath (although my previous therapist had told me I definitely do have ocd) being on this app sometimes makes me feel worse like I was such a weak person I let it eat me away until I was going to commit suicide and then decided no maybe I’m just a sociopath let me see. I’m struggling with suicidal thoughts because of it and have been for years. NOTE: please don’t flag this, I am not going to commit suicide. Suicidal thoughts don’t necessarily mean you are premeditating and in my case, I am not. Also I am TERRIBLY sorry if this makes anyones ocd reading this worse and you start to think “maybe I will do something” you most likely WON’T. I’m writing this because I have NEVER seen this side (where you gave in) of OCD written on here by anyone!
Tw: Anyone out there go through Suicidal ocd ERP? Mind mentioning some of your erp that you did with an ocd therapist ?! Anyone out there who has suicidal ocd have tips for dealing with intrusive thoughts ?
Anyone else get so deep into the OCD cycle that they can barely disprove the thoughts anymore? Compulsions don’t even help me anymore. I have no relief. I have been thinking about taking my life every day and have no will to live anymore. I can’t see my future, have no idea what life is anymore. I look in the mirror and have a panic attack because I feel like I don’t know the person looking back at me.
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