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Suicide
Has anyone gotten to the point where they have tried to commit suicide because of OCD? It can be so dark sometimes.
Has anyone gotten to the point where they have tried to commit suicide because of OCD? It can be so dark sometimes.
It crossed my mind at the very beginning of my OCD journey. I didn't know what to do until I was diagnosed. It sounded like the only way to stop the thoughts from coming. But i didn't do it. Don't give up on yourself. The road to the light may be long and tiring, but you are stronger than you think. You can overcome OCD. I believe in you. Whenever you feel darkness, think of this: every light comes with its darkness first.
It wasn’t just my OCD; it was all 5 of my mental illnesses, including childhood trauma. Honestly, the child abuse wanted was the worst and that was the reason, though My POCD definitely didn’t help. But my fiancé saved me, actually. He stayed on the phone with me for 3 days during the night (he was in another state at this time) because I was too scared to sleep, so we talked for 6 hours and he got me through a long holiday weekend—until I could get in to see a professional.
i’ve been there and i’m here for you
Everyday, if i was able to i wouldve attempted it already.
I’ve definitely thought about it even years before my OCD started, and to this day it’s a continuous battle. Although, I would say it’s getting better. So I want you to know that it’s totally possible to live a fulfilling life regardless of your OCD and anxiety. You don’t have to listen to these thoughts, do whatever you want and live your life how you want to. It’s easier said than done but you can certainly get there with time.
WHY is it so bad?? who was gonna tell me 16 was just DREAD, my ocd has flared up worse than ever and i can’t go to therapy weekly anymore. im getting worse and i can’t do it. I just want to give up.
I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…
I’m so sad all the time and struggle with s*icidal ideation because of my ocd,I think about it all the time I’m in so much pain and therapy isn’t helping.
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