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Yes, there was a period of about 3 months where I got 0-5 hrs sleep on weekdays and then would completely crash on weekends bc I was up doing compulsions. It was terrible ? I wonder if I’m bipolar bc of that, too. But then again, think of the name - compulsions. We’re compelled to do them - not suggested to do them, not encouraged to do them - but compulsively driven. Rain or shine, sleep or no, we OCDers HAVE to do them OR ELSE we’re going to harm ourselves or others, going to have our sexual identity taken out from under us, going to become gravely ill or contaminate everyone we come in contact with, going to have panic attack after panic attack, etc. etc. It’s really only the nights where I can’t sleep (and don’t know why) which make me fear that maybe I’m bipolar.
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- 5y ago
As someone with bipolar disorder, it confuses me, too, which is great for the OCD, because damn will that shit latch onto whether or not I /really/ have bipolar disorder. It doesn't help that I also have ADHD, and GAD, as well as some hormone balance issues. It's a veritable feast for the OCD to dig into, but I have been working on gunning that down, granted it has been taking some time. I guess what I am saying is that I know EXACTLY what you mean, and it confuses me, as well. The stress that OCD can conjure up is probably enough to tip the scales, given a rather stressful spot in one's life outside of the OCD, to put one at the edge of an episode. That is my theory, though.
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Yup
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- 5y ago
Bless you all, thanks for all the replies, love you guys, we aren't alone! Xx
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