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- worryqueen
- Date posted
- 5y ago
It could be. The environment we grow up into has also a role to play in this. About the show, you know the difference between the character and the real figure. I totally understand what you're saying, you have to be the one in charge of your decisions, nobody else. Ocd is just one huge bump in the road, but can also be overcame
I'm gonna talk from experience. A few years ago I had ocd related to death/religious themes and after a while it went away. A few weeks ago I started to watch the show Lucifer that portays the devil in a very "human" way. Now I'm completely aware of yhe fact that the devil isn't like that in real life however I felt sympathetic towards the character and then thid new theme developed and I thought it was because of it. The thing is, IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THAT. While now I can't watch that show because I could be triggered, it had nothing to do with it. What you're experiencing is a classic episode of religious ocd. I know it, I've been though it. I didn't do exposure back then but believe it really does help you. The fact that ocd is making you act like a different person is enough to make you understand how you're being manipulated by this illness. Everything will be alright, you'll overcome this xx
I used to have those fears as well when I was little between 6 t o 12, then in my teen years the thoughts just got twisted with sexual images as well and other crazy thoughts that made it hard to focus or make friends. But as years went on I slowly realized those fears were just part of my brain's development. I used to think that I was living in a virtual reality and that my brain was in some lab in a glass container and my life was a dream omg? the way I broke the cycle of the religious OCD was to start picturing the universe. So now I dont think of a red devil with horns or a man on a cross. Before I go to bed I relax my body and picture the universe in my mind. So I picture creation as the universe. With no good or evil just infinite starts and darkness and I visualize myself there:). Try it out it might help you. I wish I was more open about this when I was younger. I am 28 now. It took many years for me to talk about these things :).
@notfortalk I've been watching Lucifer as well and have grown attached to the character and feel sympathy, I think the show kind of blurs my mind sometimes between real and fiction, makes me question things. I don't wanna quit watching the show though because I like it, but it does sometimes trigger me. But I've dealt with religious ocd before and it's popped up here and there. I imagine it has more to do with my very religious family instead of tv. I already feel bad enough for not believing but maybe that's why my ocd is so attatched to this theme? Idk it's so confusing to me and so much scarier than any other theme I've dealt with before (besides pocd) and whenever I try to talk to my mom about it she just says I have to be religious if I think I can get possesed etc. Makes me doubt myself even more. Ocd is really kicking my ass more than usual with this stuff.
This is actually a nice suggestion :)
The best thing I could tell you is to stop watching stuff like that
I mean like we believe in the devil and demons, then you hear that others on social media talks about ocd being a demon possession, or any mental illness being a demon, and if you believe that and it helps you, do it, but this makes me more paranoid. I just let my tiktok algoritm become more christian but then it ended up being this "we call everything a sin and a demon" type of videos which made me question if im really a good person and saved, and now im even afraid of demons, that they are attacking me and thats why im dealing with fear, and it just scares me, it became so bad that i start to get paranoid like im sure you experienced that when you think youve seen something in the corner of your eye, like something moved, and this just worsenes the fear... i know im dealing with fear but you know my mind still makes up shit... As a christian its really hard to deal with ocd, cause we do believe in demons but we cant view mental illness as possession, it just doesnt help, and i got to a point where i started questioning everything i hear about the bible and then i realized maybe its not a good thing tho, so i started to learn about things and now im back at fearing demons and that i have a demon or i can be posessed in the future. Same with sins, legalist people made me angry so i just ignored everything they said but then i realized maybe its egoistic to think everything they say its just legalism, and i went back learning about it and now im having this legalist/is this a sin or not problem. It feels like im on a spiral, i always come back to fear demons and fear that what i do is actually a sin and i live a sinful life
Does anyone else get thoughts that just seem evil? I love God & Jesus so much but recently I’ve been having Satan thoughts, devil thoughts and they bother me! Like selling soul, worshipping the enemy, enemy thoughts, thoughts about your heart and stuff. Literally blasphemous thoughts! It bugs me so much and makes me want to cry. I’ve had some thoughts like these before but recently they have gotten so much worse. Please has anyone gone through this? I pray God & Jesus stay with me!
Lately I’ve been having demonic thoughts, possession thoughts and just nasty thoughts about my soul and thoughts about my heart and the devil. Is that normal in OCD? I would never want that or say that! But recently been having false memory OCD and I’m scared what if I’ve said those thoughts out loud!! I’m always trying to say God & Jesus owns my heart & soul but I’m scared what I’ve I accidentally said the enemy instead! These thoughts cause so much discomfort! Please any advice? Does anyone else go through this?
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