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I’m tired
How do you get up and live life after you had an ocd episode? I need to clean but all I want to do is hide and sleep.
How do you get up and live life after you had an ocd episode? I need to clean but all I want to do is hide and sleep.
Start with one thing at a time, for example, if you need to clean maybe start with putting dishes in the dishwasher, just that one task, then little by little start doing your other things. It also can help to put on some music in the background or a funny show that you can listen to while you clean. I know it seems hard to do anything productive when your OCD makes you feel so sad but it will make it better to do activities and focus your attention on that activity rather than ruminating about OCD and intrusive thoughts
It is so difficult to live with a mental illness. The exhaustion can feel so overwhelming at times. Take it day by day and step by step. Give yourself permission to just be. It's okay if you need more time than others to rest and recharge. Everyone is different- give yourself self-compassion. You can only do what you can only do- and this may look different from day to day and that's okay. Try not to compare your journey to anyone else's. You and you alone know what your path has looked like.
@NOCD Therapist - Stacy Q. Thank you! I know it’s not my post, but I needed to hear this too!
I had a full on OCD episode and I have a cleaning type of OCD heavy but my RoCD had me shook for 3 months and during that time I was stressed because I wasn't cleaning as I should and I had a lot of blame in me. It was a rough patch for sure. I got back to it after my medical reaction to the medication subsided. I went back to being me. I still have my old OCD which is intrusive but I'm not feeling 51/50 anymore. Hang in there. Your not alone in this.
Donc your ocd episodes last 3 months?
@amel I was on the medication for three months it caused me to have high blood pressure and my OCD really took off into the RocD.
@amel My OCD has been around since I can remember. All my siblings have it and so does my mom and dad.
@Wexel OK because mine comes like waves of 3/4 months.
@amel Have you gotten your seratonin levels checked during your strongest episodes? My psychiatrist is working on a testing regiment for me because she thinks I might have a seratonin issue.
I never heard about people with OCD who have messy living conditions. Maybe this is why it took so long to accept my diagnosis. Although I really dont like how OCD is percieved at by the majority of people, I feel like Im weird or something because I dont fit into that stereotype. I understand that a lot of people with OCD have this issue, but why do I feel so different? If anybody else has/had this belief, what helps with feeling more comfortable? Everytime my mom points out my room, and how its messy- Its like I feel so lazy and useless. So then I often plan out everything I was going to do, step by step, always having a reasoning behind everything, because logic always comforts me. When I start tidying up my room, I go full out (Sheets, Laundry, Clorox, Candles, Vaccuming, Then I start going through the guinea pigs cage to rearranging all of their stuff) Yet always somewhere after doing a few things, I start feeling disgusting and almost shameful of myself. 99% of the time I end up laying on my floor sobbing, noting every little thing about my room. How my furiniture doesnt match, how i would rather have solid floor like hardwood or vinyl instead of the carpet, usually things i cant change… and then barely anything gets done in my room. I start to have a meltdown and often dont take care of myself even more afterwards. A piece of me feels like my thoughts are just me being a spoiled brat and wanting everything i dont have- meanwhile others dont even have a roof over their head. The other piece of me is just tired, just emotionally exaughsted. Please comment any thoughts or recomendations to maybe improve motovation and attitude towards doing long tasks.
This is a repost, only because the last post had no responses lol. Please if you have any advice share. I’ve been trying hard to sit with the feeling of anxiety. Actually that’s the problem, recently I’ve been trying to sit with the thought (and I’m able to for a few hours or until the next morning) and then my anxiety comes back so strong and it’s like I need to clean everything off. I see images of gross laundry getting on everything or my hand and then I need to clean everything off to un contaminate it. Sometimes the thought happens later at night so I just sleep through and the next morning I will wake up with intense anxiety about contamination. That happened yesterday and I had to clean everything off and since then I’ve been traumatized so I’ve been doing compulsions like avoiding the bathroom and being around people so I know I couldn’t have done anything wrong. Actually recently my biggest compulsion has been recording every time I get up to go eat, etc so that I know I couldn’t have done anything. Any advice or help???
I know I keep talking about This but I’m too tired :( I’m really struggling and I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I might be the only person who experiences this in the way I do. It’s gotten so bad that during intimacy or self-pleasure, I feel like I’m acting on a thought — like my body is moving because of it. It’s terrifying and deeply hurtful. The moment it happens, I immediately panic, try to rewind everything in my head, and ruminate to figure out what I was thinking at that exact second… but I can never remember. That makes it even worse. feel so lost and hopeless, like I’ll never be able to heal or move on from this. People tell me “it’s just OCD,” but it doesn’t feel like OCD to me. It feels like I’m the exception — like no one else truly experiences it like this, especially the part where it feels like I physically responded to a thought. I know people say “others go through this too,” but my mind keeps saying, “not like this, not this specific thing.”Sometimes I just wish I could go back and relive those moments so I could be sure what happened, but I know that’s not possible. I feel so stuck in guilt and doubt that I don’t even know who I am anymore. I’m scared I’m a bad person and that I’ll always feel this way. I’ll never be free or be the same again everyday I live with deep depression
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