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I’m tired
How do you get up and live life after you had an ocd episode? I need to clean but all I want to do is hide and sleep.
How do you get up and live life after you had an ocd episode? I need to clean but all I want to do is hide and sleep.
Start with one thing at a time, for example, if you need to clean maybe start with putting dishes in the dishwasher, just that one task, then little by little start doing your other things. It also can help to put on some music in the background or a funny show that you can listen to while you clean. I know it seems hard to do anything productive when your OCD makes you feel so sad but it will make it better to do activities and focus your attention on that activity rather than ruminating about OCD and intrusive thoughts
It is so difficult to live with a mental illness. The exhaustion can feel so overwhelming at times. Take it day by day and step by step. Give yourself permission to just be. It's okay if you need more time than others to rest and recharge. Everyone is different- give yourself self-compassion. You can only do what you can only do- and this may look different from day to day and that's okay. Try not to compare your journey to anyone else's. You and you alone know what your path has looked like.
@NOCD Therapist - Stacy Q. Thank you! I know it’s not my post, but I needed to hear this too!
I had a full on OCD episode and I have a cleaning type of OCD heavy but my RoCD had me shook for 3 months and during that time I was stressed because I wasn't cleaning as I should and I had a lot of blame in me. It was a rough patch for sure. I got back to it after my medical reaction to the medication subsided. I went back to being me. I still have my old OCD which is intrusive but I'm not feeling 51/50 anymore. Hang in there. Your not alone in this.
Donc your ocd episodes last 3 months?
@amel I was on the medication for three months it caused me to have high blood pressure and my OCD really took off into the RocD.
@amel My OCD has been around since I can remember. All my siblings have it and so does my mom and dad.
@Wexel OK because mine comes like waves of 3/4 months.
@amel Have you gotten your seratonin levels checked during your strongest episodes? My psychiatrist is working on a testing regiment for me because she thinks I might have a seratonin issue.
This is a repost, only because the last post had no responses lol. Please if you have any advice share. I’ve been trying hard to sit with the feeling of anxiety. Actually that’s the problem, recently I’ve been trying to sit with the thought (and I’m able to for a few hours or until the next morning) and then my anxiety comes back so strong and it’s like I need to clean everything off. I see images of gross laundry getting on everything or my hand and then I need to clean everything off to un contaminate it. Sometimes the thought happens later at night so I just sleep through and the next morning I will wake up with intense anxiety about contamination. That happened yesterday and I had to clean everything off and since then I’ve been traumatized so I’ve been doing compulsions like avoiding the bathroom and being around people so I know I couldn’t have done anything wrong. Actually recently my biggest compulsion has been recording every time I get up to go eat, etc so that I know I couldn’t have done anything. Any advice or help???
I know I keep talking about This but I’m too tired :( I’m really struggling and I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I might be the only person who experiences this in the way I do. It’s gotten so bad that during intimacy or self-pleasure, I feel like I’m acting on a thought — like my body is moving because of it. It’s terrifying and deeply hurtful. The moment it happens, I immediately panic, try to rewind everything in my head, and ruminate to figure out what I was thinking at that exact second… but I can never remember. That makes it even worse. feel so lost and hopeless, like I’ll never be able to heal or move on from this. People tell me “it’s just OCD,” but it doesn’t feel like OCD to me. It feels like I’m the exception — like no one else truly experiences it like this, especially the part where it feels like I physically responded to a thought. I know people say “others go through this too,” but my mind keeps saying, “not like this, not this specific thing.”Sometimes I just wish I could go back and relive those moments so I could be sure what happened, but I know that’s not possible. I feel so stuck in guilt and doubt that I don’t even know who I am anymore. I’m scared I’m a bad person and that I’ll always feel this way. I’ll never be free or be the same again everyday I live with deep depression
(Long post warning) Hi, I’ve been struggling with severe OCD for six years now. it started in 2019 with my theme being getting sick/emetophobia. it devastated my life. I almost didn’t graduate high school from it. I remember washing my hands for three hours one day until they were nearly bloody while crying and asking why I could not stop doing it. I remember id have to write and rewrite sentences when I did my English homework and that’s why I nearly failed that class. I remember how I would spend up to thirty minutes to an hour pacing the halls of my apartment while my mom was asleep until I neutralized the thoughts about throwing up and I could finally go to bed. I don’t know when it happened, but my theme switched. Sometimes in late 2020 or early 2021, it switched to POCD. It started with a single thought, and I focused on it and it’s been my theme since then for four years. It has been absolutely destroying me. I feel so disgusted and lost and just tired. My compulsions are severe now. I thought they were bad before, but now they’re ten times worse. I can’t eat, drink, change my clothes, walk, or even do things on my phone normally. I’ve developed so many mental compulsions that it’s so intricate and complicated yet at the same time I’ve done them so much that they’ve become normal. An example I have is if im putting on a shirt and I have a “bad” thought, I have to take it off and put it back on two more times (that’ll make it 3 times I put the shirt back on - odd numbers are my safe number). I have to have a good thought on the third time otherwise I have to take it off and put it on two more times to make it five times I put on that shirt. If not that then I just put on a different shirt because the original is now tainted with my bad thought. I can’t open apps on my phone. It’s with the numbers again. If I open TikTok once while having a bad thought - I have to close it and open it two more times and so on. Sometimes I do it up to 30 times. So I just don’t do things usually. I don’t turn on the TV because I know I’ll redo it. I don’t open a book or grab it off my shelf because I’ll have to repeat the action. I can’t even lay in bed without getting up and redoing it even if im exhausted. I just feel so helpless. I don’t know what to do. I feel disgusting and even now my minds screaming at me that I am dirty and what I think is true. I just wish I was free of this, I wish I could just live my life. I’ve wasted hours and days because of my compulsions. I mask it so well around my friends. I don’t do them in front of anyone or I’ve learned to hide it well. But when im back home alone, it goes haywire. I just want to live again.
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