Concern over disclosing pocd in therapy and seeking recovery without help.

I want you to know that I hear you, I know that you are hurting and feel all alone, please know that this is VERY treatable. Many people have this form of OCD. The very reason it torments you is that it is what we call ego-dystonic- it goes against your nature and who you are. Thinking something doesn't equal doing it- and a thought is just a thought. A OCD specialist will know that this is a very common theme. At NOCD we treat this every single day and very successfully. Check out Chrissie Hodges videos on YouTube, she has some great video geared at this specific fear. It can get better, I have seen so many people get better from this debilitating illness. You can do this. If you are in the U.S and struggling with thoughts of hurting yourself, please, please reach out for help and don't allow this disorder to keep you a prisoner You can call 911. You can also reach out to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline #988 The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is a national network of local crisis centers that provides free and confidential emotional support to people in suicidal crisis or emotional distress 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. National Crisis Text Line Text "HOME" from anywhere in the U.S. to 741741 for free, 24/7 crisis support from a trained Crisis Counselor. Rogers Behavioral Health If you’re struggling with your mental health and would like to seek treatment within the U.S., one option is to call Rogers Behavioral Health at 800-767-4411 to request a free, confidential screening. The screening will help determine what level of care at Rogers could be right for you.

I struggle with pocd. I would highly advise you seek therapy and even a psychiatrist for medication that can help with your anxiety. I’m currently in a bit of a loop at the moment and I irresponsibly ended my therapy and meds a few months back thinking I had a handle on things and fooling myself into believing I didn’t have ocd that it was a freak thing that happened to me and would never happen again. You can talk to therapist on here or find one in your area. It’s important to find one that uses ERP and one that has had experience with clients that have pocd specifically. What I did was google ocd therapist near me and I called and asked questions without giving any personal details identifying myself. Once I knew they knew what pocd was and that they had otnwr clients with it. I felt not great but knowing what a dark place I was in better about starting therapy. What I’ve done is started with therapy then later realized I needed medication to help with my anxiety so I could focus and put into practice the exposure responses the therapist was teaching me. Rather than explaining to yet another person your pocd and risking that psychiatrist not really knowing about it (although they probably do) the therapist can communicate with the psychiatrist with your permission that way you know it gets communicated correctly and you can feel safer talking to a psychiatrist and getting the right medication. Medication may not be the answer for you. I was skeptical at first but my anxiety was too much for me to handle and I got to the point of suicidal thoughts. So I knew I needed help. Suicidal thoughts need to be taken very seriously. Please seek help!

Hi, I hope you are ok. Trust me you are not alone. I also deal with these two themes plus a real event. I am constanrly bombared by false memories of me doing things to people younger than me. I'll read a story online and I'll get scared cause "what if I did that to someone too ? I don't remember much of my past and I was so reckless, maybe I did do that :(" and then I'll have moments of it feeling real and a whole scenario playing out in my head as if its something that really happened ! (but it didn't) is that what happens to you ? I seriously can't do anything without my mind seeing a story, random objects, random people younger and going "you've done this to someone so heres either a whole scenario or a feeling that you have done it"

https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/5-taboo-and-very-common-ocd-obsessions

My ocd has me convinced that I’m a pedo in disguise and everyone is going to find out basically - has me feeling like I’m going to ‘slip up’ and makes me question if I have actually done something bad subconsciously because I’m on autopilot obsessing over my thoughts and not being present