The WORST compulsion…

Ugh this compulsion is the worst. I hate it and am so guilty of it. I have HOCD and at times I’ll go look up an adult website to make sure im still attracted to girls. The worst thing about this is OBVIOUSLY AS A MAN. I get aroused seeing the women like this. But also, I am a man who believes adult websites are TERRIBLE and have never struggled with them thank goodness. I’m just putting this out there bc i feel weak and alone at times. I know i have to hold back compulsions but geez 3+hrs of my mind just going on and on and on is so obnoxious. Still that is just an excuse.

User type: Therapist

Username: Clint Ross

Date posted: 7d ago

Just because the concept of not doing compulsions is simple, it does not mean it is easy. It will feel like you HAVE TO confirm you sexual orientation by checking your arousal to specific stimuli. Then if you are not watching porn for reassurance, which is a good first step, it is possible to still ruminate and do mental compulsions. You have taken a good step by committing to not seeking reassurance, and working with an ERP therapist can help you complete the process.

Username: mwhite1994

Date posted: 7d ago

I'm similar I keep watching lesbian porn bc it gets me off and I think now I'm a lesbian but I've always dated men always been boy crazy but not I'm doubting myself bc I find women attractive so I'll tell myself well maybe your bisexual to feel better and im starting to actually feel a little bit better rather then years ago when I had this theme I'd feel sick and throw up and get the shakes from anxiety