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- 3y
Tired
I’m tired of being me with this brain and body it’s so hard everyday
I’m tired of being me with this brain and body it’s so hard everyday
You are both amazing human beings and you are here and you are living and that takes a lot and I’m proud of you both. Take it one day at a time. One breath at a time, one moment at a time. Be patient with yourself
Thanks For Your Kind Words ❤️ Your Also a Beautiful Soul and Kind Human Being...... But tbh i literally think and convinced that im Terrible maybe cause iam lol....
Omg this makes me so sad. I feel this way sometimes too, I always said I hope I’m happy in the next life since I’m not destined to be in this one; but this line of thinking doesn’t help :’( we can still create a wonderful life despite all of the pain and trauma we’ve endured. It’s incredibly hard to live with OCD and the fact you all are still fighting is admirable. We share the same pain so we can overcome this together. It’s not easy by any means, but it’s totally possible ❤️
So thankful to have found a community like this. I wish I'd found it sooner.
Same 😔 i just want to be someone else..... If I can't be someone else then i just don't want to live this life.....
I've always wanted to be someone else. Not just because of the ocd, but the other issues in my life and just not liking my life or who I am.
@CaitlinNZ @CaitlinNZ yea same i also don't like myself 🤧 and my shitty life 😔
Always remember that all people struggle in their own way. You have the unique opportunity to be happy in a body and mind that are uniquely and beautifully yours. No one else's would ever fulfill you. You are not defined by your body or the illnesses it carries, but you are strengthened by them. Your struggles with OCD can make you stronger and kinder than you were before. Your scars make you beautiful and valuable. I know that the pain can be hard, but pleasure only exists in contrast to it. You can't escape pain in a human body, no matter whose it is. You are you, and the world is brighter because you are here.
Same. Same. Sometimes I worry why this is so common for a lot of people…then I think is this normal for so many people to constantly feel this way? Then I get sad…
Me too. Love you
Me too. Love you
I'm really frustrated right now because once again I feel like I can't keep up with my own brain and I just can't keep doing this. I'm so tired of doing this. My head is always going and going and going and I just want to unplug it. It makes me so stressed. It's like I have someone else in my head who won't shut up and is always pointing everything I do out. Like I'm walking on eggshells around myself so I don't trigger these thoughts. But if I walk on egg shells then it just goes on about something else and I feel like I'm going crazy.. I feel so bad because it makes me so snappy. I want to bash my head in because I'm so over it. The only thing I know that helps is anxiety meds, because I had one one time and it actually really helped me (it didn't even do it's job! Because of how bad my anxiety is!! I'm just so desperate at this point for relief) But the last time I brought up going on meds for anxiety with my mom she said I'll get addicted, like my dad, or my grandma, or whoever else in my family because everyone in my family is addicted to SOMETHING. I don't see the issue in trying though. I feel like I'm someone who could really benefit from anxiety meds. I don't talk about my feelings often BECAUSE of anxiety, so it seems like I'm just trying to go on meds for no reason. But it's like..my body hurts. All the time. And my brain never stops. My brain is so messed up. I feel like I could do so much more if I wasn't like this. It's never going away, I've tried and I've tried and I'm still a mess. I just want it to stop. I'm not asking for much. I just want the fear to stop and the intrusive thoughts to stop and the racing thoughts and the feelings of doom and the nervousness and and I actually want to feel okay in my own skin for fucking once. I've tried everything nothing works im losing patience and I'm losing hope. I feel like there's something wrong with me. I feel like my brain is broken and that makes me sad to be honest. I feel like everyone around me can work. Why can't my stupid brain work???? I try so hard. I try so hard all the time. And it still doesn't do what it needs to do. I hate myself so much.
So over all of this. Why do periods have to make everything so much worse. I keep thinking that I can get over an intrusive thought and then the next one comes in. My brain tries to make be obsess over something that i've already obsessed about and moved on from. Wish this could be over.
I know I keep talking about This but I’m too tired :( I’m really struggling and I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I might be the only person who experiences this in the way I do. It’s gotten so bad that during intimacy or self-pleasure, I feel like I’m acting on a thought — like my body is moving because of it. It’s terrifying and deeply hurtful. The moment it happens, I immediately panic, try to rewind everything in my head, and ruminate to figure out what I was thinking at that exact second… but I can never remember. That makes it even worse. feel so lost and hopeless, like I’ll never be able to heal or move on from this. People tell me “it’s just OCD,” but it doesn’t feel like OCD to me. It feels like I’m the exception — like no one else truly experiences it like this, especially the part where it feels like I physically responded to a thought. I know people say “others go through this too,” but my mind keeps saying, “not like this, not this specific thing.”Sometimes I just wish I could go back and relive those moments so I could be sure what happened, but I know that’s not possible. I feel so stuck in guilt and doubt that I don’t even know who I am anymore. I’m scared I’m a bad person and that I’ll always feel this way. I’ll never be free or be the same again everyday I live with deep depression
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