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- 2y
Tired
I’m tired of being me with this brain and body it’s so hard everyday
I’m tired of being me with this brain and body it’s so hard everyday
You are both amazing human beings and you are here and you are living and that takes a lot and I’m proud of you both. Take it one day at a time. One breath at a time, one moment at a time. Be patient with yourself
Thanks For Your Kind Words ❤️ Your Also a Beautiful Soul and Kind Human Being...... But tbh i literally think and convinced that im Terrible maybe cause iam lol....
Omg this makes me so sad. I feel this way sometimes too, I always said I hope I’m happy in the next life since I’m not destined to be in this one; but this line of thinking doesn’t help :’( we can still create a wonderful life despite all of the pain and trauma we’ve endured. It’s incredibly hard to live with OCD and the fact you all are still fighting is admirable. We share the same pain so we can overcome this together. It’s not easy by any means, but it’s totally possible ❤️
So thankful to have found a community like this. I wish I'd found it sooner.
Same 😔 i just want to be someone else..... If I can't be someone else then i just don't want to live this life.....
I've always wanted to be someone else. Not just because of the ocd, but the other issues in my life and just not liking my life or who I am.
@CaitlinNZ @CaitlinNZ yea same i also don't like myself 🤧 and my shitty life 😔
Always remember that all people struggle in their own way. You have the unique opportunity to be happy in a body and mind that are uniquely and beautifully yours. No one else's would ever fulfill you. You are not defined by your body or the illnesses it carries, but you are strengthened by them. Your struggles with OCD can make you stronger and kinder than you were before. Your scars make you beautiful and valuable. I know that the pain can be hard, but pleasure only exists in contrast to it. You can't escape pain in a human body, no matter whose it is. You are you, and the world is brighter because you are here.
Same. Same. Sometimes I worry why this is so common for a lot of people…then I think is this normal for so many people to constantly feel this way? Then I get sad…
Me too. Love you
Me too. Love you
It hurts so much, so much pain, I want to give up, I feel like both conditions make each other worse, trying to fight back, trying so hard not to look for answers but this makes it so hard, I just..feel like I have very little hope, I'm so......so tired.
some days I wake up with so much dread and guilt. It makes it so hard to keep going. I open my eyes and I’m hit with a wave of nausea and terror. I feel ashamed of my compulsions and my OCD. I feel like a monster for my checking compulsions. For momentarily sexualizing things that shouldn’t be sexualized out of anxiety. I’m ashamed of a lot that I give into because of anxiety. Confessing things that are meaningless to my boyfriend. I feel so awful and unworthy of existing and of love. I feel hopeless I don’t want to keep pushing, the more I push the more meta my OCD becomes and the more guilt I feel for this mental illness. The more confusing it becomes to do ERP. If compulsions are a choice, they feel like life or death and it’s driving me insane, I beat myself up so badly over them I’m scared of compulsions, I’m scared of thoughts, I’m scared to be awake, I’m even scared of sleeping because my intrusions and compulsions haunt me there too. I spend my dreams trying to explain or justify my OCD and compulsions to people. I’m exhausted, I want this to stop so badly. My severe OCD isn’t feeling any less severe and it’s been months. I don’t want to keep questioning my every move but I’m so hyperaware of everything I do. I’m so tired. Some days I don’t even have tears to cry with. I’m just so full of despair and shame
I just can’t do this shit anymore.im tired of these “arousal” sensations that feel real but when I go check my arousal to the same gender I just get anxiety. I’m tired of feeling like I can’t like girls anymore. I’m tired of my arousal getting blocked every now and then because I’m anxious. I’m tired of not knowing who I am anymore. I’m tired of having my mind putting me into an identity I never asked for. I’m tired of this life
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