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I donāt think I can talk to my therapist today and Iām so sad. I really needed to talk to her today. My meetings are online so ughhh
I donāt think I can talk to my therapist today and Iām so sad. I really needed to talk to her today. My meetings are online so ughhh
Is it scheduling? Maybe you can move it to a later appointment?
Iām feeling kind of sad cause today was not a really good day in terms of my ocd. I was feeling kind of foggy/numb and that send me to spiraling. Iām 21 years old currently studying but my family has been having trouble with money for the last couple years(weāre just me and my mom) and I kinda want to get a job but everything is far from my home and I wouldnāt be able to return back at night, also itās either way more expensive to move or the schedule wouldnāt let me take my classes. The point is that because of that every time my mom is stress tends to treat me bad, she speaks to me like Iām stupid or she just screams to nothing cursing all life and everything and that actually makes me feel soo bad and guilty for not doing anything, I know itās hard for me to get a job that actually helps us without quitting school but that doesnāt stop me from feeling like Iām a burden. I want to help, I want to maybe hug her or something but I know she will be angrier and probably will reject it. So thatās it, I just feel like she punishes me for the stress sheās carrying and I get it but one day is happy and it feels like all love and the next is treating me like that, Idk itās hard (also I feel like I shouldnāt be saying this cause itās all my fault) š«¤
My name is Abbey and Iām a 14 year old girl struggling with OCD, I donāt like to say my OCD is severe but itās the truth. I havenāt been officially diagnosed but Iām still being treated for it kinda via medication by my doctor. The reason Iām nervous about starting my therapy journey is Iām worried the therapist wonāt understand what im saying or take it the wrong way and think Iām a bad person even though I know Iām a good hearted person. If you have any tips to overcome my fear of therapy please share! āļøš§”
Today I had my first appointment with my new therapist in a clinic and she told me that my thoughts could be because of my past trauma and that itās what makes most people pedos. Iām so in distress right now, I donāt want to hurt people but she made me feel like Iām disgusting
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