i have a job interview tmr! pls pray that it goes well!

17f I work at the restaurant as a cleaner, pot washer and a kitchen assistant. My job already made me freak out a bunch of times because couple times while cleaning I was kinda near children and my POCD is very severe just being around children makes me anxious and later I sometimes have false memory ocd that I touched the children even though I didn't And my boss said that in July I will probably be promoted to a waitress. And I'm terrified. It's a busy family restaurant in a city center and people constantly come here with little children. It's one thing to work in the kitchen and cleaning during closing shift, I still see children sometimes but I can avoid accidental physical contact for example. But as a waitress it will be hell on earth. I will need to walk between tables outside where children are constantly running around and if I have stuff in my hands I won't be able to move so fast to avoid touching them I need this job so much and its hard to get a job as a minor here but this will fucking ruin me. I can already see how I will have a mental breakdown because I accidentally touched the child while working and convinced myself I did it on purpose.

I have been seeking reassurance from other coworkers (the ones I trust) about me quitting my job. The job is quitting is so toxic it’s like you can’t run away from it. I have made comments about how I want to seek other careers and my manager makes nothing but negative comments. I put in my application to work as a cna in the nursing home months ago and I was talking to a lady who works at the nursing home and she was talking to me about cna classes and then my manager asks what we were talking about and I said “I was telling her about me putting my application in” and then here comes negativity out of the managers mouth. Out of no where I get a text on a Wednesday morning asking if I was still interested in cna class and I replied with yes ma’am. The women doesn’t text me back so I gave it a day or 2 and then I texted her back asking when the classes start and that same day she asked if I can come for an interview and I told her I couldn’t cause I’m at work so she asked if I can Monday morning (today I went and the interview was amazing). I had to let my manager know like hey I have an interview for another job,she asks “where” I said at the nursing home. She rolls her eyes and says “I don’t think your going to like it” and then two more people butt in the conversation with they’re opinions. Im anxious and feel horrible because this is alll of a sudden and I couldn’t put in two weeks notice. I’ve been wanting to quit for so long and figure out what career I want. My cousin who is a manager also said “I don’t think your going to like it”. Why is it so hard for people to just be kind. I have a few people who were kind and happy for me. I know I’m grown and not once do I expect the next job to not have any negativity. But I keep overthinking what if I made a really bad choice?? I’m so excited for what’s next for me I’m life. I’m only 22 trying to figure life out you know. The job I’m quitting from they are so negative about everyone and talk so bad about people I just don’t get it! There’s so much more I can say but it’s too much to put on here so I will let it all rest in Gods hand.

so i’m not officially diagnosed with OCD but tomorrow i have my first appointment with a therapist to hopefully get tested. im not too sure what to expect. does anyone have advice? i’m really scared if they say i dont have OCD, bc ive been set for about 3 years confident that i do. i never self diagnose though. if they say i dont have OCD i think it would set me back immensely. i’m not too sure how quick the process is either. please lmk any advice because im quite nervous. i’ve never seen a therapist in my life other than my school counselor.