Seeing that no one responded to my previous post about soMatic ocd makes me think that it’s very rare which doesn’t give me hope when it comes to recovery and I’ve already been dealing with this for about 3 months now
Not rare at all. Somatic sufferer for over 35 + years. Won't talk about what because with OCD we have "sticky" brains and I don't want anyone to pick up my symptoms and make them yours. I am a "Watcher." I can spend minutes, hours, days, months, and years. It sucks. For me, good meds have made all the difference, plus your mindset and thinking. It's two fold. Think of your brain and OCD as a computer hard drive. Most people boot up one program a day (if that). For OCD, you open the desktop and there are 40 windows running. Give ONE to your OCD. Let it hum in the background. It needs its own space. But never let it take over your entire hard drive. Peace be to you.
@Scotchann Thank you! What medications do you take that help with the somatic ocd? I’m on 50mg of Zoloft but not feeling much of an improvement with the ocd
What was the question? I will try my best to answer it.
@Anonymous It’s a little bit down it says where my ocd people at
I answered
@Saraa Thank you! I don’t see it tho
I used to struggle with the blinking and breathing obsessions, through natural exposure they went away, I confess I did apply ERP methods such as voluntarily focusing on both processes (I was already doing that) which really helped
@bababeto How long did it take? Cuz it’s been 3 months and I’m trying not to get anxious or frustrated when ghe thoughts pop up like I try to be neutral about it yet it still won’t go away, I’ve never obsessed about anything like this in my life not even a guy lol
@Anonymous I also new to somatic ocd I’ve never had any other ocd before and no compulsions just hyper focused on body stuff sometimes but it’s never been to this extent
It is not rare and you are not crazy, there are just a lot of comments on this app. I know it’s hard not to use this app as reassurance, which just makes ocd worse in the long run.
@Anonymous You’re right lol. It’s just really hard when I’m so confused about this i never dealt with any other ocd before in my life, I don’t even think my therapist diagnosed me as ocd she just says she sees some tendencies but I guess not severe so idk why I’m so hung up on my breathing then
@Anonymous For reference I’m 28 and usually people develop ocd much younger I know
@Anonymous That’s why part of me still thinks it’s a physics problem and not mental
@Anonymous *physical
@Anonymous I’m 40 and just dealing with this now, but after talking to my therapist she showed me where it’s been there all along. It def started in childhood. I want to encourage you that we both can get thru this, that you are loved unconditionally by God no matter what your mind says.
It’s not rare. I’ve struggled with it. OCD is making you think you’re isolated in this experience. Don’t let it fool you with the dirty tricks
I’m on 225 Effexor/30 Remeron. Known as California Rocket Fuel. I’m from So Cal so. Taking 10 Inderal while I transition back to my usual combo. Slows your heart/bodily functions that react to anxiety.
Sometimes I feel like nobody really gets me. Nobody knows what’s going on in my head. I try to explain in vivid detail, but my ocd immediately reads the other persons face and registers that they don’t get it. It’s a very isolating experience. Anyone else have something like this?
I feel so horrible and sad right now. I’ve been posting about what I’m going through on my other account but no one comments or reacts. I’ve posted many times yet no one bothers to respond. I feel so terrible. I want to cry because I feel like I’m already too far gone, beyond forgiveness. I want to delete this app, but if I do, I’ll have no one to share with when I'm really having a hard time to deal with my ocd. I have no one who understands my ocd except the people on this app but it hurts me that no one replies anymore. I’m so sorry for posting something like this. I’m just sharing what I really feel. I don’t know what to do with my life anymore. I feel like I'm about to go insane. Sometimes I feel like it's not my ocd anymore because no one responds to my posts. Honestly, I really feel like I don't have ocd anymore especially because I'm undiagnosed. It makes me feel like I’m the most cruel person in the world, someone who doesn’t deserve love or forgiveness. I’m not trying to guilt trip anyone. I know that you are all struggling too. I truly hope you all get better. 💗
I just want to know how long other ppl have been dealing with SOOCD. Prior to having SOOCD I have had other themes throughout my life but I didn’t know it was OCD bc after a month/months it would go away. These small episodes would always pop up when my home/personal life was terrible. However SOOCD has stuck the longest. It’s been 6 years and it’s really bothering me that it’s been haunting me for this long. Past therapists would always tell me I had GAD and I’ve barely started proper treatment so that’s prob why it’s stuck around for so long. I have also dealt with a lot of anxiety and depression issues as well. What’s bothering me is that I can go into “remission” but still be plagued with numbness, lack of attraction/emotions, no libido and still deal with the groinal response, checking compulsion, and get triggered from time to time. I’ve also dealt with horrible depression from 15-19 (21 now) so maybe that’s why i’m so numb. I was feeling better but felt numb like I was a rock or just a floating leaf. For the past couple years I haven’t been tormented by SOOCD but those small things always would bother me. ESPECIALLY the lack of attraction and numbness. TMI!!!!!!! but I have not had any sort of sexual desires for years and had trouble being intimate in my past relationship esp because of the constant checking. I would want to do those things so badly but my body wouldn’t react and ofc that fed my OCD. No matter what OCD tells me I know prior to ocd I was a very healthy growing girl and I would always day dream about men, read fan fiction, fantasize, yk all that. TMI AGAIN!!! But I have/haven’t had a desire to do anything like that even TMI mast*bation and when I do it’s like “well…alright i’m done.” Sorry if that was too much. I was feeling a LOT better a couple months ago, I felt motivated to get my life back after many years and OCD was kind of leaving me alone (still dealing with the occasional groinal response, occasional triggers, and checking (only when triggered)). The numbness and all that still bugged me but I ended up developing a crush (on my now bf). But as soon as I start to feel real genuine attraction and happiness OCD starts to poke at my brain. It didn’t start with SOOCD thoughts at first, it was mostly just fear about WHAT IF my numbness and loss of attraction ruin the relationship or my feelings for him. I was finding him cute without even checking but when he confessed to me it gave me anxiety and I started checking my feelings and attraction. I would be scared of being affectionate bc again I was afraid I would feel nothing. But when I redirected myself and focused on him I would feel normal again and enjoy everything. I haven’t felt that middle school giddiness and excitement over a boy in so long. I couldn’t wait to talk to him. I loved waking up and having him call me or call before bed bc he always calmed me. The attraction and excitement just made all the worries go away. There’s one date we where I wasn’t doing my checking compulsion and I felt so amazing and free. Holding his hand and being with him felt so good and sweet. Ofc the checking compulsion and anxiety ruined a lot of things at first but once I redirected myself MY GOD I felt like a normal human again and I felt like I could finally start enjoying my life. I was in such a good headspace but then the rumination started bugging me again, which triggered the anxiety, which triggered the groinal response for some reason, and then I started checking again and getting triggered by ppl on social media, and then now I’m here in another SOOCD spiral. I think my SOOCD is mixing with real event OCD and it’s all just so exhausting. I can’t even fully enjoy being with him in person now it’s a constant battle w my brain. If you check my posts you can see how i’ve been just going insaaaaane lately. I don’t even feel like I know myself anymore. I have my small moments of peace but then it all comes back to get me. I’m even getting triggered rn by a movie that my mom insists on watching but yeah that’s all. Just needed to get that out.
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