HOCD

Does it ever get any better? Every day is a waking nightmare I can’t speak to anyone of my same gender I am going to lose my girl friend I can’t sleep eat or do anything, I’m half the person I used to be. Just tell me there’s hope please I resist all my compulsions and yet I don’t see improvement my mind races with the same thoughts all day it’s so frustrating because I don’t want to do any of the things my mind tells me. I just agree with the thoughts and my anxiety builds I go to sleep and do it the next day. I’m on an SSRI I’ve been dealing with this for a month right after I had major head trauma. I thought once I got my head better I was going to be ok and be able to get past that part of my life. Now every time I look at someone of my same gender I get images and thoughts of me having sex with them. Literally everyone it’s so distressing and I feel trapped In my own mind. Has anyone gotten past this it’s so overwhelming and it feels like there’s no way out of this. I get immense anxiety even speaking to anyone and I know at 19 years old my sexuality didn’t switch literally overnight. I remember the day my mind snapped and sense that day there has been zero happiness in my life not a single moment of life I enjoy. It’s a compulsion seeking reassurance from anyone I just want to know that if anyone else has dealt with this have they been able to move forward with life because I can’t fucking take this shit anymore.

itsme

Date posted: 3y

I understand what you are going through! I too deal with this same theme and it’s exhausting and distressing. I try to remind myself a thought is just a thought not an action. It’s really hard, but there will be a light at the end of this dark tunnel!!!

Nannaz

Date posted: 3y

Hi friend, I just read your post. I am sorry you have to go through this. It is very hard. I do feel that I live in my head sometimes. For example, I had intrusive sexual thoughts about a co-worker. The thoughts occupied %90 of my brain. So I did feel I was trapped in my mind like you. But for me, it took three months, so I gradually started to regain control of my brain.

I can do this

Date posted: 3y

There’s hope man

TapDrumRoll

Date posted: 3y

I don’t have this type of ocd, but, when the thoughts come in, tell the thoughts, ‘Thank you thoughts.’ Don’t label the thoughts, try to occupy yourself, engage yourself with a task, hobby, cleaning, exercise and breath work if possible. My past therapist had me put signs up all over my house that said FOR NOW. Because we will learn how to live with this and deal with it better as we get through therapy and have the right meds and remain in support groups and read books to educate ourselves. We may have different types of OCD and probably won’t extinguish it completely, but FOR NOW isn’t FOREVER will we feel held hostage by these thoughts, FOR NOW we are in the process of learning to meet these thoughts and slowly not having our brains and bodies go in to FEAR mode. We will learn these are just thoughts, these thoughts don’t define us as human beings. I hope that helps, it helps me and I just started with NOCD only my 4th appointment. I’m learning too. We are in this together, you are not alone.

Stefanie280

Date posted: 3y

Im sorry did u mean the SSRI gave u head trauma?? Or is that separate issue ? Has meds helped at all? I just started meds im hoping for some relief too its such hell i know😢

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