Hard to remember thoughts about things that happen

Months ago I had a job that I didn't want to do but chose to do because it would have been better than nothing and that job was working with children. I hated the intrusive thoughts I got when I was doing the job but there were actually good days where they weren't bothering me. Worst thing was getting intrusive thoughts about a child which happened and it threw me off badly. They made me sick and I remember the way I felt through all that. I also think I have a problem with staring at times and when I stare at something I don't want to I'll get intrusive thoughts about it and get stressed out. Now I'm getting thoughts that tell me I meant to look at these things for awful reasons and whenever think of it I feel disgusting. Best thing I can do is just label the thoughts as OCD and move on I guess..

EmilyCruce

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

I’m so sorry to hear your dealing with some anxiety surrounding these thoughts. Maybe these thoughts meant something and maybe not! Focusing on them and trying to analyze them will only make them come back stronger. Practicing non-engagement is the key! Keep moving forward.

Nica

Date posted: 2y

Yup, shrug ALL this off and move on. Don’t let this turn into something bigger because you know it’ll turn out for the worse.

BigGyro09

Date posted: 2y

That's the frustrating part. A part of me knows this is stupid because even if it was on purpose, looking at a specific area probably wouldn't mean what my negative self talk is saying is true. The only thing keeping this worry afloat is my constant anxiety that is consistent

Nica

Date posted: 2y

@BigGip09 The constant anxiety dies down the better you get at ERP and staying present in the moment.

Drew777

Date posted: 2y

@BigGip09 I know what you mean. I feel anxious when I see something I didn't want to see. Normally my reaction is to do a compulsion when in a situation like that, I've done the compulsion so many times now that it's just become a "normal" way for me to react to it. For someone else though it would make no sense at all. The anxiety can be consistent, it's not quite as bad for me anymore since I started taking a small dose of Zoloft again though. Do you take any medication?

Drew777

Date posted: 2y

@Nica That's true! ERP and staying present in the moment is very helpful to get the anxiety down. :)

BigGyro09

Date posted: 2y

@Nica How about if I just talk back to the negative thoughts or do the opposite of any thoughts that keep me down? For example, if I hang out with friends in a group, and I get thoughts that say I don't belong or that I'm awkward and they don't like me or want me here, do I just pay attention to the opposite instead? I hope that will work

BigGyro09

Date posted: 2y

@Drew777 No, I have not been prescribed medication. Though I have been trying not to give into compulsions or pay too close attention to OCD. Usually I just ignore any thoughts I don't like because I'm trying my best to remind myself not only that thoughts are thoughts but it's natural that I will have negative thoughts. I may as well accept them because they will be in their way out. If I fight them and try to shoo them away, I'm actually holding onto them and they will get stronger, making it seem like the thought has some kind of importance. I guess the only reason why this is a difficult thing to do is that its like the thoughts either don't stop coming up or we're hyper aware of what we think in a sense. I know I didn't feel like this one bit about my thoughts many years ago

Nica

Date posted: 2y

@BigGip09 No, don’t engage with them at all. You’re absolutely not at the point where you can talk back to them successfully. I can troll my OCD all day every day, but I’ve been recovered for a while and I know how far to push back and when to not even bother. It’s something you need to learn about yourself and gain confidence and experience in. Talking back can easily become a compulsion or fighting back and you know that’s not how things get better.

Anonymous

Date posted: 24w

Intrusive thoughts

I’ve had many types of OCD, but I gained control over them over the years, but a new one has started to arise. Do y’all ever have scary thoughts about something you might do? Recently I’ll get extremely uncomfortable no matter where I am because I can’t stop thinking about “what if I screamed really loud in my lecture class tomorrow?” And other stupid stuff like that. Also, this one is kind of funny, but sometimes when I use the bathroom I pause before because I think “what if I’m actually in class right now?” I also cannot control the thoughts about past embarrassing moments. I know everyone does, but I will become visibly uncomfortable and harp on something from years ago. This happens all throughout the day. Also, does anyone else do things that resemble tics when you get these thoughts. Like when they happen I’ll curse under my breath or like jerk my head a little bit. When I’m in public I keep it low key but when I’m alone sometimes I’ll physically get up and pace or something when those thoughts happen. Just curious if anyone has had these experiences

grellen2000

Date posted: 21w

Intrusive thoughts (21+ please)

I need advice for intrusive thoughts. I used to feel like I could handle them. They weren’t nearly as bad as the things that related to my actual life. But now, I’m suffering. I haven’t had a sexual experience in over a year that didn’t involve constant intrusive thoughts. Most are somehow related to kids and I keep chasing off the thoughts but it’s so bad. I know you’re supposed to ignore them but I don’t know how I can just ignore that and continue what I’m doing. But they’re coming on stronger. I had one earlier I could not get rid of just as things finished so the thought came on strongly just before my orgasm hit and now I feel absolutely disgusting. I hated the thought and I know it’s not me and it was not enjoyable but it still feels like I was getting off to it. I feel sick. I’m so fucking tired of these thoughts. They’re in my every day life too and it’s all the time. I just want it to stop but ignoring it feels so wrong. What should I do?

Anonymousssssss

Date posted: 21w

Help

I deal pretty heavily with this. The last couple days, I’ve had what I think are urges. Something pops into my head intrusively and then what stems from that is me WANTING to just indulge in it even though it’s gross. I get worried bc I used to struggle w thoughts about my dad for a long time until eventually I just purposely thought of him while self pleasuring and got off to it. While that’s something I did, it is NOT me. It all stemmed from my mental health declining a couple years back, I was never this way before. So I get worried that it almost happened or might happen with my pocd cuz I could never live with myself if it did.

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