I'm suffering from FALSE MEMORY. My greatest fear is to lose my husband and his family that mean the world to me. I have this false memory that I cheated in the past one night my husband was out working. My mind is creating this scenario that does not exist what keeps me calm is knowing that I wouldn't have sex with anyone else for a reason I've only been with 2 people I am 25. Even though alot of people wanted to be with me I was very picky. Anyway its creating a scenario it did not happen like mixing reality and imagination I feel so guilty for no reason and a horrible person I get urges to confess biggest mistake I did yesterday when I confessed I felt weak and I felt I was confessing to something that was nonsense I feel ashamed.

Hey, there is a thing where people with OCD (and a few other disorders) get real feelings from imaginary scenarios. Ones that a person without OCD wouldn’t have. The thought “what if I had cheated?” would occur to them and they might feel sad thinking about it, but not after the thought goes away. With OCD, we can think about imaginary past scenarios and then really, truly get emotions like the event happened. It makes reality confusing. I would suggest looking up more information from reputable sources online and starting to employ good coping techniques whether you have an official diagnosis or not.

It started with harm then suicide now this. All my fears all mixed up my husband warned me do not confess to me and I did and it got worst.

The only people that understand me is you guys and support groups online. Not my therapist either I haven't been diag. With OCD but I am more than sure this is it.

Are you seeing a therapist?

I also suffer from Borderline personality so its makes twice as hard.

Yes I am I'm suppose to do emdr but not sure if it will work. My session is Saturday he doesnt believe its OCD but he doesnt understand OCD. I've literallyself diag myself.

Find a therapist that specializes in OCD and ERP!

So expensive that's why I stay with this therapist instead. :( hes so cheap. I need to talk to my husband. Asap. This is getting out of control