Hi all! I’ve been doing really well with my OCD, but I’ve been in a flair up the last few days and it’s so uncomfortable and distressing. It’s so hard to remember that I’m strong when OCD is so loud.
Remember what you just said. It’s uncomfortable. Not life threatening, not fatal, not life altering but uncomfortable. That it is. It sucks. It takes our safety, space, and comfort. But it thrives to be front and center, a hearty fire with plenty of self supplied fuel. Starve that fire, but never think you can extinguish it. A brain is like a hard drive - you need to allocate space to let it hum in the background. Let the voices fight: the worried, the condescending, and the rational. Have at it. Easier said then done. Have had OCD for over 50 years. New thoughts take over old ones - they’re all yammering for a platform. Turn the what ifs into so what’s. Trust me - my fears over 5 decades never, NEVER came to fruition. It takes on new thoughts, new dimensions that get a physical reaction and when it does OCD says YES, I got her. I’m somatic and pure O. All the torture is in my head, not in my physical world. Is it scary? Yes! Is it terrifying? Yes! Is it uncomfortable? Yes! Is it fatal? No. Is it life threatening? No. Is it REAL? NO! It’s a lying, deceiving disease. Does it suck? Hell yes! But it’s a part of you, and the more you deny it the space to let it chatter away, the more you unintentionally feed it.
Since I've started facing the OCD and fighting back my themes and intrusive thoughts (i have pure 0)...ocd has been louder.. I've gotten physically exhausted although mine is in my mind. Yesterday was tough for me.. I was driving and a lot of pedestrians were passing close to me car and jaywalking etc.. I got anxious throughout... Even when I reached home.. Anxiety went up for at least an hour (before this would take me days and weeks) I decided not to give in to OCD from the learnings of my therapist and literally said.. I don't care OCD.. Going to watch my movie.. I can't think about it right now and im not worrying about this... It's been difficult but every time I worry i just feel making ocd stronger.. So Im trying to fight back against ocd with the help of my therapist
Thank you so much for your responses. You reminded me of the strength that I do have in me. I want my strength to overcome my fear. I’m doing my exposures and I’m determined to turn my OCD down so I can get back to me.
Today i went back driving again... Still anxious from the day before.. But i went out of my way to unfamiliar roads to get home... Because I knew that would bug my OCD... Sure enough the familiar anxiety... People crossing close to my car.. I knew it would come .. I. Said yes.. There's a chance I could hit someone but im a good driver But anything can happen and leaned into that uncomfortable uncertainty... But guess what? The anxiety took less time to disappear tonight... Also i have social anxiety and i mingled freely this evening refusing to acknowledge OCD this evening.. Turned out to be a good evening :)
hey guys I’m going through a pretty bad ocd flare up right now and it really sucks :( I haven’t been sleeping properly as my anxiety wakes me up at night. A lot of new things are happening in my life + I recently got triggered by something. I know it will eventually pass but it’s just exhausting right now
I haven’t posted in a while mainly because my ocd has been better to manage. However I am experiencing what I call a “spiral week” which I haven’t had in a while. I have multiple ocd themes that come and go, but by far HARM ocd has always seems to stay and not let go. It feels as though I am trying to fight a monster inside and it so desperately enjoys to torment me. It’s hard when it grabs a hold of the ones you love in my case my children and sometimes family members😭❤️ I just need to remain positive and continue pushing!
Hey everyone, I haven't been on here in about 6 months because Ive been doing pretty well with my ocd. I still had flare ups but I managed them well. But now my health ocd is back and it feels like there's no hope. I can't be sure I don't have every single illness I'm afraid of, I can't stop checking my body for weird symptoms and sensations. I've been through this before but never this bad. My mind is spiraling 24/7 and I don't know how to calm down. Nothing helps. Most of the time I try to distract myself and do something but this time I can't. My brain won't shut off. It feels like Im living in a cage and it's slowly drowning. What helps you calm down quickly because I'm so tired and scared?
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