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- 3y
ROCD
Does anyone else suffer from rocd but in the way that like you are worried your partner has sexually assaulted you or pushed you into something even though you know they haven’t? I know it makes no sense.
Does anyone else suffer from rocd but in the way that like you are worried your partner has sexually assaulted you or pushed you into something even though you know they haven’t? I know it makes no sense.
IM STRUGGLING WITH THIS SAME TOPIC
@arp1014 Seriously know it’s my ocd but it’s wild Bc I keep doubting
@OCDewewew I feel the exact same way. Mine is more of a “real event” that my ocd has latched onto and captured a mental picture and that’s all that keeps replaying in my head. Everything before and after that was completely consensual and this happened two years ago but for come reason it’s circled back to me along with other weird crazy past situations and has caused me so much misery. I’m slowly but surely starting to be mindful but sometimes that picture will pop up and it feels so real.
Yeah I had been sexually assaulted years ago. And now it’s attaching itself to my new relationship. So I think it’s a mix of rocd and real event
@OCDewewew I couldn’t relate more to that. It’s hard to find someone who will understand. I’ve been so afraid to talk to anyone besides my therapist about this bc i know what it sounds like and i know the first thing people will assume is SA. This has been haunting me for a while and I’ve had the hardest time with it but then i remember that my ocd will make me doubt just about anything. I’ve been in worse situations where I’ve truly been pressured or used (i was drunk and don’t remember giving consent) so i think my ocd is using that against my bf. Especially bc my boyfriend is a big guy and I’ve always had a fear of not being able to defend myself or get away in a situation like that. Idk if that makes any sense lol
Yupppp I’m there w you. I know that my bf would never do that to me. And I’m sure yours wouldn’t either. But ocd holds onto little things. Like not verbally saying yes or being technical with stuff if you get what I’m saying. I know it’s not true and that my bf did not SA me, but ocd is so very convincing.
@OCDewewew 100% get it. I even talked to him about what i was feeling and he was so understanding and even felt horrible for making me feel that way. He said he had no intentions of ever pressuring me or making me feel uncomfortable and i think for me it’s always the “what ifs” like “what if i were to say no?” “What if he kept going knowing i didn’t want to” and so on. He said he would never do that and understands what NO means. It’s given me reassurance for sure but of course my ocd will go back to that mental picture and it makes me doubt all over again. This disorder is so exhausting and has caused me to lose out on so much bc of how fearful i am. I just have to keep telling myself “this isn’t real” like they do in movies lmao it’s helped some for sure and i know that if we continue to understand the tricks ocd plays, we will be able to manage it and grab it by the horns. I know we can overcome this. I truly hope you are able to defeat it. I know how debilitating it all can be.
@arp1014 Struggling with this rn
I suffer with a constant worry of what if I’ve cheated. You name it I’ve thought I’ve done it. I’m quite flirty at nature and also insecure. Sometimes hand in hand I don’t think they balance each other out as the constant need for attention to validate myself can backfire. Although I have the best partner ever and she makes me feel nothing less than beautiful I still crave validation from others. That being said someone I used to work with left over half a year ago and when they worked at my current place of work we were very close. Text everyday, phone calls you name it. However looking back I was extra flirty as I wanted him to fancy me. I wanted the power to turn him down to make myself feel better. Awful I know. Now all I can think about is what if I’ve done something. What if I kissed him. What if I’ve slept with him etc. I’ve kept our whole conversations from the minute I got his personal number. I constantly search key words to see if my intrusive thoughts are real. I can except the uncertainty my therapist tells me about as if I have done the worst and cheated I would loose my partner and our 10 year relationship. I love her so much she is my life but I can’t stop thinking what if I’ve cheated. Does anyone else suffer with the same theme? If so how do you cope?
Hi everyone, I’ve already been diagnosed with OCD, and I strongly suspect that I’ve developed a ROCD pattern. I wanted to share a specific situation that just won’t leave me alone – even though it’s objectively been cleared up. I’m in a relationship with a man who is, by nature, a very transparent, honest, and loyal person. Rationally, I know I can trust him. Recently, he got a phone call while I was with him. I asked him to check who it was. He hesitated briefly and then checked kind of slowly – the number wasn’t saved. To me, the whole thing just felt a bit strange. It didn’t seem like “open behavior,” even though he told me afterward that he simply didn’t have the energy to deal with it, since he had generally had a bad day. The problem is: Even after this explanation – which makes sense – the thoughts won’t go away. I keep replaying the situation in my head, analyzing his reaction, wondering if that hesitation meant something – even though I know he didn’t do anything wrong. I feel like I need to bring it up again to feel at ease. But I also know that would only bring temporary relief, and then the cycle would start all over again. It feels just like other OCD loops – only this time, it’s centered around my relationship. Have any of you experienced something like this? How do you stop yourself from falling into the reassurance trap over and over again? I don’t want to overwhelm or hurt my partner unnecessarily – I just want to learn how to manage this inner tension better. did it sound like ocd?? Rocd?? the situation happened a day ago and it still bothers me Thanks for reading. It really helps to know I’m not alone.
I’m in a really low place with my ROCD. I feel like I have feelings for someone else & like someone else because of the feelings I have around/about/for this other person I guess. I’m only around this other person when in group settings with friends. I dont want this. I feel nauseous, guilty, all the things as I love my partner so much. I know I struggle with ROCD terribly and I need advice from someone who’s been in my shoes. Is this common in ROCD? Idek
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