Curious

You chose to obsess over these thoughts to seek certainty but can’t. So it keeps messing with you.

Well I believe the brain gives out thoughts either we reject or accept.. when we get a bad or goodthought we speak out loud

I think its a bit of both. I think a non ocd brain can dismiss many of the thoughts as background noise. Our brains get stuck on the thoughts, possibly due to lower serotonin, and have a harder time dismissing the thoughts and tend to have a flight or fight response to them. The more we react to and bite on the thoughts , the more likely we are to train our brains to give false value to them, and keep reacting.

I don’t remember having these thoughts before I had ocd I have a memory of when I was younger and just could do things normally without having these thoughts that’s why I think my ocd has sort of warped my brain into being scared all the time and I have made a habit of having these thoughts. I believe there is no way I used to have these thoughts when I didn’t have ocd. But maybe I’m wrong because I am so reactive to them now they have a whole different meaning