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Curious
My ocds pretty bad tonight. Curious if we train our brains to think this way or if I would normally have these thoughts and i just trained my brain to be afraid of them.
My ocds pretty bad tonight. Curious if we train our brains to think this way or if I would normally have these thoughts and i just trained my brain to be afraid of them.
You chose to obsess over these thoughts to seek certainty but can’t. So it keeps messing with you.
Well I believe the brain gives out thoughts either we reject or accept.. when we get a bad or goodthought we speak out loud
I think its a bit of both. I think a non ocd brain can dismiss many of the thoughts as background noise. Our brains get stuck on the thoughts, possibly due to lower serotonin, and have a harder time dismissing the thoughts and tend to have a flight or fight response to them. The more we react to and bite on the thoughts , the more likely we are to train our brains to give false value to them, and keep reacting.
I don’t remember having these thoughts before I had ocd I have a memory of when I was younger and just could do things normally without having these thoughts that’s why I think my ocd has sort of warped my brain into being scared all the time and I have made a habit of having these thoughts. I believe there is no way I used to have these thoughts when I didn’t have ocd. But maybe I’m wrong because I am so reactive to them now they have a whole different meaning
I’m 21M and i believe i’ve had ocd for a lot of my life. I started researching ocd when i was either 16 or 17 because my intrusive thoughts were starting to get really loud and wouldn’t leave me alone. And they are still loud but never louder than before. I never talked to anybody about this until i brought it up to my fiance a month ago because my stress level was at an all time high. I don’t think she really understands because i haven’t went into detail about all my thoughts. Just bits and pieces of it. Anyways, i’ve been stressing about my past intrusive thoughts. I’m concerned on why i wasn’t as stressed as i am today. I was still stressed and had anxiety but i’m guessing i handled it better then. Today though, i’m stressing constantly. Like i never knew this app existed, i never watched videos on this condition or there were different subtypes until now, or i think i didn’t know. I remember back then i would research and research about this and have mental rituals but that was it. Like i wasn’t so stressed back then. Now, i just feel like i’m sick all the time. I’m just scared that my past intrusive thoughts were my true desires. I know they ain’t but how can i tell my brain that? I just wished i would have known more about this back then. I absolutely hate this and i don’t wish this on anybody
so this all started not too long ago, for literally no reason at all. but one day i got a random intrusive thought about harming others and it freaked me out bad. since then i’ve been non stop focusing on it and im genuinely scared that i am, or gonna end up like those sick people that have documentaries about them. i’ve never had these types of thoughts before and after me and my mom looked a lot of stuff up we think i have OCD cuz a lot of the stuff it was saying was accurate to me. to anyone in here, does this sound like OCD to you? i’ve always been a nice loving person and these thoughts freak me out so bad and make me feel like i’m a bad gross person. it got to the point i don’t even like looking at myself anymore. i just wanna go back to normal man. another thing to add, when i would explain this to my mom even though i was telling the full truth on how crappy this made me feel it felt like i was lying almost? but i know i wasn’t deep down. i’m just scared that what if i act on something or get in my head too much you know?
Whenever anyone starts to feel like their thoughts are less triggering or they feel a moment of happiness/ relief OCD tells you that you want the thoughts back or you actually like having the thoughts and maybe thats just the person I really am? I feel like im going insane😢
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