Are there ebbs and flows to OCD or anxiety. Last week there were periods of times I was feeling better. Moments. Times where the intrusive thoughts didn’t bother me and I didn’t had riddling anxiety. Now it’s back and I need help

It’s baaaaaack....just looking for some support. It’s been a pretty good run for the past few months, and that has been nice. It never really goes away, but it just gets to a low level and the anxiety wanes too. But, I know this disorder cycles and for me it is back. It hit last weekend, and now the anxiety has increased as have the urgency of the intrusive thoughts. I have been here many many many times before and I know it always passes, but when you feel terrible there can be this urgency to making it go away now, and to also wonder why it gets worse from time to time. I know that I just have to feel the feelings and wait for it to calm down, but as we all know it can be hard on our mind when it returns. So, just seeing if others experience these ups and downs. And, just had to write about the hard feelings. Thanks all!

So I’m 33 diagnosed with ocd at 20 but had it since about 17 or 18.. I’m older now a little wiser of my disorder but I’ve always wondered after going weeks or days feeling fine completely forgetting about the waves or spikes were even there and the obsessive fear or doubts existed . Why is it they always randomly come back.. if we’re fine for those few days or weeks not even worrying not even freaked out not even realizing we have this disorder why do the waves or intrusive thoughts that get us in our spirals in the first place come back randomly? I’ve always wondered why that is ? For example I suffer from harm ocd soocd.. and relationship ocd.. when I’m not obsessing I know who I am what I love what I cherish what I like.. for those couple weeks I feel my absolute self not a care in the world for the shit I went through weeks ago or even days ago when dealing with the disorder.. so why does it always come back when things are great for that certain amount of time ?

I feel like over a week ago I had about 4 really GOOD days in a row which I’ve never had before! I was able to concentrate a lot more I still had the thoughts but it was usually just the same one that popped up every now and again, no new ones and I really felt like this was the start of getting better. Well fast forward to now im on day 3 of really bad days!!! My awful intrusive thoughts are on loop again I can’t seem to concentrate, im constantly ruminating!!! I feel like I’m constantly creating new thoughts in my head that are awful!! I’ve started mindfulness again which I feel just have been what helped me have the good days because that’s the only thing I’ve stopped really. Anyone who else gone through this??????