I’ve been suffering since childhood with undiagnosed OCD and I wonder if I’ll ever get the time I’ve lost back. I’m almost 30 and I can’t even do half the things most adults my age can do. I feel like a failure. I can’t even drive a car yet. Does Ocd make anyone else feel like a loser?
i can totally understand how you feel. ocd makes many people feel that way... i cancel plans because i'm worried about someone breaking into my appartment while i'm gone, i miss out on opportunities because of it. i often think i'm sabotaging myself or that i am losing life time but i remind myself that it's not MY FAULT! ocd is like that. we aren't to blame for having ocd! when i feel like that, i try to remind myself that i am living life on my own pace. comparing myself to my friends without ocd won't fix anything, it will just make me feel miserable. i try to compare myself to old me instead! 2 years ago, i wasn't sure how i would survive with ocd. but i'm still here :) instead of feeling like i failed, i feel proud for still fighting. i think you should be proud of yourself for still fighting as well, and for reaching out on here. keep fighting :) i hope you can find relief and happiness despite ocd! we are all in this together
I hear you. I’m literally grieving the life I wanted. The career I wanted. The freedom I wanted because I know how difficult it will be to get and maintain with my OCD and mental health. It hurts… I try not to compare but it literally hurts but we can still achieve and do amazing things. I’ve stopped planning extensively now. I have some goals but I’m trying to live presently and day to day. Some days are good and others are terrible but I just need to focus on getting better and doing the best I can with the cards I’ve been dealt. The past is the past. It’s gone… you take the lessons and any good skills forward. You’re almost ONLY 30… don’t hold yourself to others or societies standards. You now can start treating the OCD through therapy, self help etc and can start pushing to live a happy, fulfilling life. I have my days… the hours of my days when I’m sat thinking wtf but I just ride the waves and try to look for positives. You’ll always find that you’ve achieved something you never thought you would even if it’s going against your OCD and compulsions.. that’s an achievement. I hope you’re able to get help and achieve some of the things you want!
I’m a 20 yr old female, I think I’ve always had ocd but the symptoms didn’t become apparent to me until I was about 17. I feel like that’s where life went downhill for me. OCD attacks everything that is important to me, my sexuality, my morals, even my health. Sometimes I wish I could be a kid again and not have this vicious disease in my head constantly bullying me. But I know I will overcome it one day.
This isn’t OCD related so I’m sorry, but I don’t know another platform like this where I can talk to other people and actually get responses. OCD has been a huge fucking setback for me in life. I had to drop classes, wasn’t able to do things, and just felt so shitty all the time because of it. I feel like I blame OCD for everything I’m not. I constantly feel like I’m not good enough. Just today I saw someone I once knew and felt all of those feelings I used to have that made me miserable. Anyways, I tried taking my driver’s test a couple days ago but I wasn’t able to. The DMV only accepted cash. I felt upset but it was whatever. I’m almost 19, and I don’t have a driver’s license. So passing it would mean a lot to me. I compare myself to others my age; they have cars, hobbies, friends, go to college, etc… I don’t have any of that. Maybe comparing myself and all of that is my fault. My family says it’s my fault I’m sad because I just wallow in it. Hearing them say that makes me frustrated and hurt, but maybe they’re right. My mom texted a couple of my siblings in a group chat I wasn’t a part of, “He wants to wallow and be depressed. And woe is me, wah wah wah.” That made me really angry because my siblings were agreeing with her. Maybe they are right. Maybe I am selfish and think the world revolves around me. My sister tells me I need to advocate for myself more, I just don’t want to be a burden. I’ve only been a burden my whole life. My OCD created this whole issue in my family and I hate that. I don’t know what to do anymore. I just want an answer. Am I really a loser? Do I really wallow in it? Am I not trying like my family says? I just want to talk to someone.
I dont know what to do anymore. I think Ive had the 'pure O' version of OCD for more than ten years. I feel like so much of my life has been wasted from this disease. For the longest time I just tried to ignore the intrusive thoughts, and push them off as anxiety, and basically dissociated for years of my life. Feels like Ive just been on autopilot and a shell of myself for nearly 15 years. Its actually hard to even imagine of all the experiences, emotions, connections with others, and personal growth that Ive missed out on- if I do, I think it would be too much to handle. I think Ive even forgot and dont even know at this point what it is to live a normal life and experience positive emotions. Now that I sought treatment for it specifically, it feels like it's gotten worse. Like by acknowledging that part of myself, suddenly added focus just makes it more real and in the forefront now. I wonder if I am actually going insane. Will not go into details for reassurance but the thoughts just rip my soul out. Its so difficult as well because I will get random 'clarity moments' throughout the day where I feel like Ive solved something, then get completely derailed by another OCD thought stream and forget everything. It feels like Im just on a merry-go-round of hell, not going anywhere thinking I am at times.
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