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- 7y
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- 7y
I’m sorry. It’s so difficult to deal with.
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- 7y
Thank you so much everyone. It’s incredible how much care there is on this app. You all deserve so much happiness :)
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- 7y
I understand. I am having such a hard time. I’m sorry Phie.
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- 7y
I think the same thing all the time but the truth is that it doesn’t matter how much longer I think I can cope with this. I HAVE TO. It’s not a choice. I have to be here for my husband and my family. You also have people who love and care about you. Trust me I’ve been there. I’ve attempted suicide twice and last year I promised my husband I would never do that again. It’s ok to not be ok. It’s ok to cry. It’s ok to have a panic attack. It is NOT ok to give up. @phie please go talk to someone who loves you a friend or family member. Notice the small things in life that you love or you used to love before this condition took over. Last year something as simple as a green mint chip ice cream cone distracted me enough to think things through a little more rationally. Do something you love. Watch a movie play with a pet ask someone for a hug and cry if you need too. I’m here if you need help. I understand what you’re going through. I think all of us on here do.
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- 7y
Thank you too @phie you also deserve so much happiness. Don’t forget that!!
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- 7y
I’ve had this exact same thought so many time and look at me still living and even enjoying myself at times. I went through a period where I couldn’t even remember the last time I genuinely smiled. I swore I would be that way forever, but that wasn’t the case. I have good days now and even though I have more rough than good, there is hope. This doesn’t last. And make sure you’re putting in the work to get better. Healing can be uncomfortable sometimes.
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- 7y
You’re not alone in that feeling, but we’ve got this! ????
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- 23w
For how long do I need to depend on someone to divert and change my mental state and mood and bring me back to the normal state. Few days I remain normal then again problem begins. This feels like a never ending cycle. Will I ever recover from this.
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- 22w
i want to get this out of the way; i’m not suicidal. i’m a 17 y/o guy whose been living with OCD for what i assume is most of my life despite only getting the diagnoses last year. i’ve been hustling on despite my mental health really consuming my life to moments in time where i question my sanity and self control. it’s the lack of control that really kills me with this disorder. each day i wake up, it’s the same persistent reminders; it’s the same meaningless conversations replaying; it’s the same small rituals that just barely let me breathe before the thoughts return. nothing i do is gonna stop that unbearable monogamy where i have to sit back and let my eyes be peeled open; i don’t know how to live with that. no pill has worked on me, and any response i give the thoughts just make them worse. right now i’m trying to just sit through it and not care. don’t let it effect me emotionally; try not to feel the discomfort. then it starts to manifest into physical pain where i feel the bones of my chest have this pressure—like staples entering them at the rhythm of a heart beat. i’m getting though this, but i’m not enjoying my life when doing so. i don’t know if i have a future where it isn’t just this repeating through the process of each day. i don’t want to spend the rest of my life avoiding the one thing i’m supposed to have control over. i also don’t want to drown my days in self medicating or get addicted doing so—like i already am. i don’t see the way to make this life of mine work, especially given how much i don’t have to do deal with at my age. of course that will come to. look, i’m not at risk; i really don’t want in anyway to die despite being basically hopeless. i’m numb to the pain of it, i don’t feel anything in my desire to escape these cycles, i just need an out. i’m not seeing a way to move forward. i’m willing to hear anything.
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- 21w
I don't really know much I just know I'm suffering everyday
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