I can’t handle the thought of being like this for life. Like what should I even do at this point if it’s going to be with me for life? I hope that it isn’t for life, because I’m screwed of it is…
While you’ll likely have some OCD for life, keep in mind that with ERP treatment and hard work, incredible progress can be made and the severity of your OCD can decrease dramatically. You don’t have to live with this level of pain for life. When you put the work in, you may still have occasional thoughts, but you will be in a place that is much more manageable and less difficult. I watched a NOCD YouTube video with an OCD expert and someone who has completed treatment. The person who finished treatment said that on a scale of 1 to 10, 10 being where his OCD used to be, his OCD is “now about a zero point five.” The fire may not go out completely, but it can go from an enormous raging bonfire to a small candle.
Everyone has something to deal with and ocd does suck. Learning as much as you can will help soooo much in dealing with it. You become the master of ocd and you can live a full happy life. OCD is how we react to intrusive thoughts and anxiety. Everyone has both even those without ocd. We seem to be more reactive to both. Learning to tone that down is the answer. Knowing that everyone has intrusive thoughts is a big help.
yes it is a help knowing that
People’s brains aren’t very good at remembering how good their life can be when they’re going through something difficult, even if that good and happy life is attainable again (which it is with OCD). Through hard work and a treatment plan that works for you, you can get back to living your life where OCD doesn’t play a role anymore!
My ocd is going off the hinges. I can’t stop thinking God is angry at me and hates me and it’s weird. And can’t stop thinking everyone hates me. I can’t stop thinking that no matter what I try I’ll never get better. This sucks
I feel awful that I keep coming on here whenever I’m down bad but oh my gosh OCD is the most painful shit that I have EVER experienced in my life and I have a physical chronic illness…. I hate to say it but I hate living right now it’s too painful… im crying as I type to the point where my stomach is hurting, I have pretty severe ocd I do have generalized anxiety and idk if that is connected with ocd but because of that I have most of the subtypes REAL EVENT OCD,POCD,ZOCD,ROCD,SOCD HARM OCD, you name it and I got it!!! a lot of also why I have have those theme is trauma growing up and involving those things^ as of right now i’m 25 and a women with the most loving boyfriend in the entire world before my ocd hit me I NEVER questioned my love and care and attraction with the love of my life I always knew I was going to marry and be with this person the rest of my life! Now with ocd it confuses me soooo much and now I think I’m gay and didn’t realize or indenial and listen I get it “don’t look for reassurance!” “It’s not the thing ocd is attacking that is the problem ocd is the actual problem!” Here’s the thing with that if I’m in a relationship and I’m gay that would mean I would have to leave that said relationship and to say that “oh yeah that stuff happens and you’ll move on” is absolutely devastating to me this is THE LOVE OF MY LIFE and your telling me that iv been lying to myself this whole time or that I didn’t realize?!?!? And that sexuality can change (even though some say it can’t google says otherwise and some people have said it can’t idek anymore) and all this other BULLSHIT I can’t take it WHY?!?! why does this have to happen why can’t I just be with my love the rest of my life?!? and yes before anyone says anything I have been attracted to girls more so when I was younger watching lesbian porn liking the body’s and fantazing them sexually it stopped when I got older but I still don’t get disgusted with women who are pretty it just makes me uncomfortable because I’m with the love of my life and before I remember talking to my partner and discussing certain childhood things I experienced and we discussed that we both could be a little bi and for certain I’m (demi sexual so I don’t even really care about looks) and I truly didn’t care!! NOW I do care even with being bi because again I don’t like thinking about anyone else but my partner but I do also know my parents are homophobic and I do think about if I am gay they wouldn’t be okay with that and I also dont want to deal with that so now I sound like in indenial right?!???? I didn’t even care about labels before my ocd it just didn’t matter but now it’s effected my sex life and it’s hard for me to enjoy sex with being so confused I’m so confused I googled everything can you still have sexual fantasies with same gender but still be straight? Can you fantasize about same gender or imagine marrying them all of it !!! And non of that disgusts me it just makes me uncomfortable AGIAN only bc I just love the partner I’m with right now!!! I’m so fucking confused do I have to leave my partner and accept that I’m gay is that going to happen in the future if I get better with ocd and find out it’s been true all along?!???
My OCD has never been this strong, it's so real, it feels like it will never go away, it's never been this strong for me and it's very scary.
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