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Same, I always found these type of shows so funny and never bothered by them now if I do my mind tells me I want to act like that
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Yesss. Or that I was like that
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- 5y ago
Yes. I'm having a double feeling of this. I used to not be bothered by anything like this. Then it got to a point where it was surreal like you guys are saying. As I am getting better again now, it feels weird to be getting better. Last night I wore a dress for a comedy skit at an open mic bar and did Chris Farley's lunch lady land dance. Today I went to a gay man's birthday party and gave him a big hug. Then I went to a massage parlor and had halfway through they switched me to a man. The massage part was actually very distressing, but I got through it. The dance and birthday party were fine. I spent a decade in doubt, so now it feels weird to be able to do these things again. We can get better guys. We just need to accept what we have and stop ruminating and start doing treatment. Good luck!
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- 5y ago
@icandothis, you’re so inspiring holy crap
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@scorpio I have this clear memory from when I was a kid. I was at a pool party. I jumped in the pool and I forgot I had no life vest on. I swore I was screaming for help but for some reason they couldn't hear me over the music or something. I kept struggling and I thought I was going to die. I somehow made it to the edge of the pool and grabbed the side. I tried to tell everyone what happened and they were all like... Ya you're fine. It felt like I almost died, but no one saw it, so they didn't understand. That's what this feels like. We're fucking drowning but nobody notices, but they don't understand cause they can't see it. If they saw us checking the locks over and over or scrubbing our hands raw they could. For this... It's the lonliest drowning feeling. But we can make it to the edge, and we can go live again, even though no one will understand what we went through. And that's okay. At least we can share with each other here
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- 5y ago
Yes. I always used to watch rupauls drag race and now it’s making me feel like I watched that because deep down “I always knew”
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Has anyone ever just felt weird? It’s hard to explain but I just feel weird lately. I usually suffer with harm OCD and I feel like lately I’m not reacting to things I normally would. There’s certain things that will trigger me a little but then other times (like over the last few days) it’s like I feel nothing. I’ll get thoughts and because I don’t feel the physical sensation in my chest or get very emotional like I normally would it’s weird to me. Does this mean I’m liking the thoughts now? Or like I’m comfortable with those actions happening? I’m so confused. Has anyone ever gone through this?
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- 16w ago
It feels like I’m lying to myself constantly and everyone. There feels like there is a weight on my heart from the moment I wake up till I go to sleep. I don’t want to be gay. Idk why it doesn’t register. Now everyone I see I have to see if I’m attracted to them. I see good looking men and I feel like I’m lying to myself that they are good looking, I see women and I see if im attracted to them. I look at everyone and I feel jealous. I want my fucking life back. But now my OCD (if this is even OCD) is telling me I was never happy and I was always suppressing my feelings of being gay. Why is this happening? Can OCD do this? I can’t enjoy anything ever.
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I know the truth deep down but I am just doing compulsions to try and convince myself that I have OCD. I try to look up and find things exactly the same and me in experiences how I feel and everything else and it becomes worse when I can’t find the same person as me. I know people do compulsions to make sure they love there partner but I feel like I do compulsions to CONVINCE ME it is ocd
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