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i want some motivation šš im so sad i dont wanna live w ocd foreverš i just wanna be happy
i want some motivation šš im so sad i dont wanna live w ocd foreverš i just wanna be happy
So let me offer this for motivation, life does get better! When I finally committed to not doing compulsions, I started to feel better. It took awhile, I definitely felt worse initially (I wasnāt doing the compulsions which made me feel better in the moment) so I had to let some time pass where I adjusted to not doing compulsions and feeling somewhat lost while I waited for my mind to adjust to no compulsion/reassurance. I, too, felt sad. I didnāt think I was going to ever feel happy again. However I listened to this podcast where they discussed the difference between pleasure and happiness. I realized I just wanted pleasure, I just wanted to āfeel goodā. Happiness on the other hand comes from our behaviors. Are we actively pursuing things that give us a sense of satisfaction, joy, wonder? I wasnāt, I was waiting for my fear to go away, then I thought Iād be happy. So I started to do things I used to do, things that I used to enjoy, but I had stopped due to ocd fears. I started to read again (even though it stirred up some old fears), I learned a new hobby (crocheting),I started to listen to a wide variety of podcasts (non-ocd š). Initially, I didnāt feel happy with these new activities but I persevered and I started to really enjoy these things! Hang in there it does get better, make sure youāre finding things that will give you a sense of accomplishment and satisfaction. Good luck!
@VGH thank u so much!!ššš
Not much motivation but more support: you arenāt alone! I am on the same boat as you. I feel like Iām sinking and Iām just letting myself drown. I donāt care anymore but knowing that you feel the same way makes me feel a bit better. I want to be happy too or at least content. One thing for sure: just take things one day at a time! Do what you wanna do! Itās okay to make mistakes along the way. Life is not about figuring things outā¦we make it that way. Life is more about learning to live with the unknown and learning to be okay with not always trying to figure things out
@anonymous700 thanks and good luck <Š·
Don't worry, you got this! Having this app in the first place shows that you are willing and able to take back your life from OCD one step at a time, and I'm positive that you can get past this! And remember that you can always scream into the abyss known as this message board, and we will respond with all the support and advice that we have! :)
Not sure if this is motivation but you're not alone, I'm having a really hard time of it too. The feelings feel unbearable like I will never get better or be my old self again, but I know it's just OCD trying to get my attention. I feel like I just want to switch myself off or something. But we have to keep the faith that the non-engagement will work and things will get easier. Sending love and strength.
@ada110 keep fighting w me!!
@holyshhii Yes. Let's do this šŖš¼
@ada110 this comment encouraged meā¤ļø
I think like this almost everyday. But I try to remember that there are good moments and Iāve been in this place before and Iāve made it out before. I can say this all and still acknowledge that I feel sad knowing that this is how we live, but it will be okay
I know everything im dealing with is OCD. I have accepted that, but I just feel down. I donāt want to live the rest of my life like this. I just want to be free from this horrible illness. Any positive stories and recovery journeys will help. What did recovery look like for you? I used to be so happy, I miss it so much. This feels like itās taken everything from me. How do you just live your life despite how you feel? Any hope will help!
i want to get this out of the way; iām not suicidal. iām a 17 y/o guy whose been living with OCD for what i assume is most of my life despite only getting the diagnoses last year. iāve been hustling on despite my mental health really consuming my life to moments in time where i question my sanity and self control. itās the lack of control that really kills me with this disorder. each day i wake up, itās the same persistent reminders; itās the same meaningless conversations replaying; itās the same small rituals that just barely let me breathe before the thoughts return. nothing i do is gonna stop that unbearable monogamy where i have to sit back and let my eyes be peeled open; i donāt know how to live with that. no pill has worked on me, and any response i give the thoughts just make them worse. right now iām trying to just sit through it and not care. donāt let it effect me emotionally; try not to feel the discomfort. then it starts to manifest into physical pain where i feel the bones of my chest have this pressureālike staples entering them at the rhythm of a heart beat. iām getting though this, but iām not enjoying my life when doing so. i donāt know if i have a future where it isnāt just this repeating through the process of each day. i donāt want to spend the rest of my life avoiding the one thing iām supposed to have control over. i also donāt want to drown my days in self medicating or get addicted doing soālike i already am. i donāt see the way to make this life of mine work, especially given how much i donāt have to do deal with at my age. of course that will come to. look, iām not at risk; i really donāt want in anyway to die despite being basically hopeless. iām numb to the pain of it, i donāt feel anything in my desire to escape these cycles, i just need an out. iām not seeing a way to move forward. iām willing to hear anything.
iām so tired of everything i canāt take the ocd on top of school life no friends no love never will find good love. i canāt be out publicly iāll never be in the right body iāll never be happy and stable i just want to dissapear. I will never escape my ocd and my gender. i canāt do this my entire life.
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