I haven’t found ANYONE with the same “tics” as me. Feels really lonely over here. Just to start with one, does anyone have to breathe in while counting and blinking while they look at something they need or want and have to breathe out while counting and blinking when they see something bad or negative? This one is so exhausting! Makes me too aware of my breathing and makes me feel like I’m going to die from not breathing right.

Hi Kalr :) I have a similar breathing compulsion. I was really reluctant to post this because it’s so triggering and I’m worried something bad will happen if I talk about it. Just know I understand completely and I’m here for you. d a i s y

I don’t have that exactly, but I did struggle with positive and negative thoughts/imagery for about five years. I simply could not perform an action while having a negative thought. Taking a bite of food, stepping over a threshold, walking up and down stairs. Anything. If I had a negative thought, I had to re-perform the action with a positive thought. And if I didn’t get it right on the first retry, I had to redo again until I hit a “good” number of retries. It was crippling.

Sometimes I worry that something is “off” with my breathing and it makes me pay EXTREMELY close attention to how I’m breathing and my compulsion is to try to regulate my breathing. It usually ends up making it worse and I get exhausted trying to “breathe right”. I have to remind myself that breathing is an automatic process and my brain knows how to do it just fine no matter what situation I’m in. I also had a similar problem with thoughts that I couldn’t control my bladder a few years back. I would compulsively hold my pee in and I’d wear bladder control pads just in case I would piss myself. I was in a lot of pain because of always holding my pee. I went to many doctors trying to find out why I always had the urge to urinate. I would avoid and fear going anywhere in public or even family functions bc I was so afraid I was going to piss myself.

i don’t have this but stay positive because i’m sure someone on here has the same compulsion as you. all the best x

When I’m in the car, I have to blink when I’m in between things like houses or trees but not when I’m directly across from them.