Helpp me i want out

My doctor said I have ocd but now I'm getting a therapist I haven't met with her yet but I will next week and she will tell me if I have ocd or not I'm scared she's gonna day I'm in denial and then I'm not inlove with my bf I'm so scared I don't wanna loss him if I don't have ocd then that means I have to break up eitj him and I waisted his time she's not specialized in ocd btw she just knows how to treat it I'm so scared bro what if she says that I don't wanna lose him I'm crying about it now im scared

citrusy_

Date posted: 2y

thaaaat is ocd talking. in my experience, if you’re worried about xyz being true about yourself, it usually isn’t. if you’re afraid of not being in love with your bf that shows that you care about him and probably are in love with him, if you weren’t why would you be worried about it? it’s like with p*doph*l*c obsession ocd, if you’re worried about being xyz that shoes that you most likely aren’t because most people like that know definitively they are and also don’t worry about it. i get being nervous about a therapist just doing “ermmmm no”, but trust me it probably won’t go that way. and if your therapist does just tell you that you’re wrong and doesn’t even try to explore that, they’re a bad therapist. when i got diagnosed with ocd it’s because my friend (also has ocd) told me to ask my therapist about it. at first i was super nervous and worried she’d just tell me i’m crazy and stupid for self diagnosing, but when i brought it up at my next session and she just said “oh, you didn’t know you had ocd?” and i felt really dumb for worrying. id try to go in with an open mind, until your session just keep using coping mechanisms and also it’ll probably help to track symptoms. so right now since you seem to be having a relationship ocd spike id write down what you’re worried about and what compulsions you think you’re doing.

citrusy_

Date posted: 2y

it also definitely helps that your doctor has said something, the therapist will have to take that into account. and think about the worst case scenario, if it isn’t ocd then it’s just something else that you all can worth through. just because you might not have ocd doesn’t mean you immediately have to jump to breaking up with your bf, and that anxiety is something your therapist can help you with no matter if jts caused by ocd/gad/attachment issues/_pd/etc.

Jesus Is Kin...

Date posted: 2y

But what if I am acyally in denial my bf said he thinks she's gonna say that and that's what got me all worried I asked him if he's right when she does say that what if I'm just writing this on purpose and doing all of this on purpose

Jesus Is Kin...

Date posted: 2y

@citrusy_ I haven't cried about my relationship in a while what if this is all fake what if I'm faking it my bf already told his mom I have it and she gas a friend eith rocd what if I just lied to her and him my doctor diagnosed me with ocd but not rocd but a therapist didn't because I've never been to one

citrusy_

Date posted: 2y

@11/27/21 again, it sounds like ocd/anxiety talking. it’s pretty hard to be in denial about being in denial. also, your bf saying that is really shitty. he should not be feeding your anxiety, but your relationship isn’t any of my busibess. again, think of the worst case scenario. this is gonna be blunt, but if you actually just aren’t in love with him what’s the worst that’s gonna happen? if you aren’t in love you can break up and move in. i’m not sure how old you are, but it sounds like you’re young. one relationship isn’t the end of the world, there isn’t a point in staying in a reletionship that isn’t right or isn’t working for you. and again, this is the worst case scenario, i dont think that’s how it’s going to go.

citrusy_

Date posted: 2y

@citrusy_ rocd is just a flavor of ocd, not jts own diagnosis

Jesus Is Kin...

Date posted: 2y

@citrusy_ Text on Instagram??

Jesus Is Kin...

Date posted: 2y

@citrusy_ My doctor said he's 99% sure I have ocd and he said Probably OCD, but with some ROCD symptoms only. I want you to call Mary and arrange a meeting, she is excellent and you will like her.Basically, you have compulsive thoughts that you can't get rid of it most of the time

citrusy_

Date posted: 2y

@11/27/21 rocd isn’t it’s own diagnosis, that’s like saying you have anxiety but only some symptoms of nervousness. the intensity at which you experience rocd can ebb and flow, but that doesn’t mean you don’t experience it. rocd is just a subtype of ocd, you don’t need a diagnosis for rocd because it isn’t a diagnosis. also i’m not sure if i’m comfortable messaging on instagram, just for my own mental health and privacy reasons sorry ^^;;;

Jesus Is Kin...

Date posted: 2y

@citrusy_ It's fine lol I get you

misereri

Date posted: 24w

Meeting with the local counselor -- it's worse.

As some of you might very seen from my (spam) posts about my situation I'm not diagnosed with ocd but I'm seeing a local counselor. I'm terribly scared of being secretly in love with someone else or being attracted to someone else outside my relationship, in this case S (if you want a more detailed version u can see my other posts). Long story short: The psychologist confirmed my fear and told me not to think about the thoughts until the next appointment and live in the present ( if it was that simple I would've done it already). Safe to say it sent me and still sending me into a big spiral where I had this big panick attack because I feel the world shattered and my fear is true and then I was just faking everything and not accepting it and it's making me fee so bad as I type this. I had a big panick attack while going back home and had to sit on the sidewalk because I couldnt breathe and was about to throw up. I don't know what to do and if someone has advice I'd be glad to listen.

cmax20

Date posted: 20w

Nervous about starting counseling

About the beginning to middle of February I went into the doctor and requested to see a counselor. I’m starting to see a counselor about anxiety in a few days and I’m extremely nervous. I’m nervous my counselor is going to say I have to break up with my bf otherwise I’ll be stuck with ocd for the rest of my life. I’m nervous my counselor is going to think I’m crazy and not know anything about ocd. I’m nervous my counselor is going to tell my aunt how crazy and messed up I am because my aunt works in the clinic I’m going to therapy at, and if she tells my aunt everyone in my family may find out. I’m nervous I’m going to hell because I’m going to counseling and not fully leaning on God instead to fix it all for me. I’m nervous I’m a bad Christian for going to therapy and not believing Jesus is going to fix it all. I’m nervous that my future is ruined because of my mental health. I’m worried that my boyfriend is going to break up with me because I’m too much to handle and too anxious. I’m just scared for my future because of my ocd and because I am not as passionate about my faith as I used to be so I feel like I’m gonna go to hell for that or like my sister is going to die because of her seizures because of my ocd. Idk I’m so scared.

Secretidentity

Date posted: 14w

Please help

Recently my ocd keeps asking me if I love my boyfriend enough and that if I don’t love him enough I should breakup with him. It’s really bothering me and idk what to do about it. Sitting in the uncertainty is too much and I fear sitting with it too long I’m just gonna crack and give in to a compulsion.

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