Apple2244
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- 2y
Derealization
Does anyone struggle with derealization mixed with existential ocd which just gets so bad I feel like I paralyzed because I can’t understand the world I’ll looking at. Absolutely terrible
Beebee7Beebee7
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- 2y
I did I am free now… I have been free for a good while now. I knew the ccd thoughts where wrong but they came so strong. I am a believer and a scripture that helped me through was “ casting down every imagination and everything that exults itself against the knowledge of God.” And in a plsalms “OH how I hate vain thoughts” plasms 119 ad some strong helps. I would confess the scripture, do erp and pray and I can say I am better. There is hope. Just the other day I read in a plsalms Gods testimonies are my heritage forever. This is how I was set free thank God, if your not religious this isn’t ment to be preachy or judgementl just a glimmer a hope 🙂 and I almost suffered for 3 years so keep fight my friend.
Yeehaww Yeehaww
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- 2y
@Beebee7 This is beautiful. Scripture has helped me too. I’m struggling with really knowing the Lord and about the reality of Jesus which is something I’m not happy with. Like it’s taking a lot for me to believe. But when I read scripture it is all so useful. Where in my mind I’m like listen, the events of Jesus Christ coming down and dying may seem a bit exaggerated (again not saying that’s true, but something that had crossed my mind) but scripture is so insightful how could I NOT believe God’s word… idk if that makes any sense. But it all just makes sense to me. Why would something with anxiety be something good for me? Why would a lifestyle that isn’t Godly be sustainable? It all makes sense. I’m not indicating that the way one chooses to live a life is the way to heaven or hell, but God plan makes perfect sense for the way one shall live. I choose to live in the way that God implies as it ideal for the goals I have.
Beebee7Beebee7
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- 2y
I’m so glad this has encouraged you. I know the struggle. Keep digging in the scriptures… here is another one that got me through the doughtful disputes the fleshy mind would throw at me… the one man that went to Jesus said… I believe but help me with my unbelief… even John the Baptist sent his disciples to ask if He was the Savior. So don’t feel bad about your questions just ask God to help you 😀. It was so weird when I found out ocd is called the doubting disease. It sounds like you are going through something very similar that I went through.Keep being encouraged my friend keep fighting the good fight of faith. My heart bubbles with hope for your peace for you. I want to tell you more of my testimony if you want to hear. But this I know you can be free from all this ( anxiety, ocd and what ever else is ailing you) cast your cares on him for He Carey’s for you( another scripture that helped me 😁)
Yeehaww Yeehaww
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- 2y
@Beebee7 Id love to hear it yours!!
Yeehaww Yeehaww
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- 2y
@Beebee7 I don’t know if you have social media or something that you could share with me there!
Beebee7Beebee7
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- 2y
Hello again, I’m not to active on social media, even on here I’m off and on. But I do like to encourage others because I know ocd is ruff… But Hear is my testimony 1st round with ocd before I new what it was… it was sudden and ( I’ll just say the ocd thoughts so not to give any triggers) and where bad but not to bad this was maybe about 5 years after giving my life to Jesus. During this time I prayed and sought the Lord not totally understanding what was going on… I for some reason was told about the book “Pilgrims Progress” the part about his journey through the valley of shadow of death stuck with me and he said he got out through All. Prayer
Beebee7Beebee7
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- 2y
I will tell more asap
Yeehaww Yeehaww
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- 2y
@Beebee7 Please do
Beebee7Beebee7
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- 2y
So as I read the book it lead me to the scripture about the armor of God and ALL PRayer…. The book described a picture of ocd and fear so… the whole book is a good read about a Christians journey, they have a few movies or cartoons out there too…. Now I go to a praying church we always have prayer service and I just started seeking God and praying and it just stopped the thoughts became less convincing and loud and just died out. I don’t know if you ever experienced the Joy of the Lord but I have during sing praise songs or at church it’s not everyday but this was a strength to me too… Plus the fact that I was delivered from a pot habit and depression when I first gave my life to The Lord encouraged me.
Beebee7Beebee7
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- 2y
I also witnessed people with cancer healed and Alo-Petipa (bad spelling sorry) ps I come from a smaller church it was maybe 30 to 40 with 20 faithful that would be there every service, so I know them personally… This was conflicting to me because the second fight of ocd I wasn’t sure why it was happening though especially since I seen all these good things… well I found that sometimes we must stand and fight the good fight of faith… and I never gave up seeking God… one day God did something so small to some but stuck with me till today… I was taking a walk ( Ps I love insects) and asked The Lord out loud my desire to see a cicada come out his shell.
Beebee7Beebee7
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- 2y
Not to test not to look for a sign this was just a desire and I was specific and asked to see it today! I would look at the trees a glance here and there till I got back to my car no cicadas just a few shells. I said well God thank you for the shells…
Beebee7Beebee7
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- 2y
Well a glazed at the tree by my car and what did I see a cicada white as snow emerging out it’s shell. ( I was a teacher a the time and on brake) so I gently scooped it up in my bug house and shared it with the kids and joy flooded my soul… ocd lost again I had more praise in me…. As soon as I can I will tell you more. Thank you for listening by the way I hope this encourages you and give you hope and strength to fight.
Yeehaww Yeehaww
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- 2y
@Beebee7 Thank you! That’s beautiful I’d love to hear more. I guess the “OCD” that I’ve been experience lately makes me also deny the true work of God. I was seeing someone and I was happy with things but at the same time I wanted to start growing in my relationship with God. The moment I said that I had intrusive thoughts of my feeling toward this person…. I couldn’t help feeling anxious and worried. I had to end it and maybe it was God stirring up something in me. I wasn’t willing to accept. I began to doubt myself questioning myself and then I had the HOCD episode that I’m still overcoming. I have been praying to God daily even in my hard days. I just can’t tell at this point because it was all so much so soon that I was like this evidently feels like the devil trying to attack me into who God is calling me to be. I’m just going to keep my faith strong and have hope that the desires the Lord had once put me in will come back, and be fulfilled to his Glory.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 2y
Absolutely.
Beebee7Beebee7
- Date posted
- 2y
@Yeehaww Forgive my absence I have not forgotten you. I love your post. I think I understand. Yes your ocd maybe going a different avenue and my desire is for you to be free, not only you but the whole group because ocd is terrible. I hope you are well. Here is something that help me when I found the one. I had to free myself like God gave us free will to decide things I just new that we had to be both believers and compatible. Just like a job God gave me free will I can work where I want but I personally am not going to work where I have to do immoral or ethical things. But it’s true seeking God first is always best. It is interesting when you decided to grow your relationship with God more your ocd popped up because that is what happened to me and was going to be the last testimony of my last battle with ocd…. I will tell you asap. 😁
Beebee7Beebee7
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- 2y
@Beebee7 Ps the one is the one I married forgot to add that, type in too fast.
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