My fam says my fears are not their problems and that they can’t help me anymore. Mom just said she’s done and that I need to leave the house. I know they’re right. But now I feel like I have no one.
Thank you everyone for being so kind and loving. My parents are extremely understand of ocd, but have always taken a “tough love” approach in trying to help me, and this time, it just was too much. However, she felt very bad about it and has apologized profusely. I just don’t want to ruin our good relationship and ocd is really trying to get in between us
I’m so sorry, while it’s horrible that your family said that honestly the best thing you can do is leave the house, i know what its like for your fears to keep you trapped in your house but remember avoidance is a compulsion and will only make your fears more prominent xx
@Abbie. Sorry just btw I’m assuming by “leave the house” your mum isn’t kicking you out just wanting you to get out more
@Abbie. She was telling me to leave bc I’m in college and was home for the weekend and was excited to spend some time with her but she said I have made her weekend miserable and exhausting from talking about something I’m worried about.
@iamworthy I’m sorry that you’ve been made to feel like that. Are you seeing anybody about your OCD? - you need to see a professional, family and friends can offer support but it takes an emotional toll and does affect your relationship with them sadly.
@iamworthy Oh my god that’s terrible im sorry, ocd is such strange disorder because it’s so hard for those who don’t have it to fully understand it, if you need to let out your worry’s I’m happy to listen x
Your mum sounds like she’s being really horrible
I’m also her to help and listen :) have you tried talking to a therapist at you college
While it can be hard to deal with a family member with OCD, it is NEVER an excuse to make them feel like a burden or that they are a problem. Your family shouldn’t have made you feel like that period. It doesn’t matter. Love and support shouldn’t be conditional. It is okay for your mom to feel frustrated and overwhelmed but it was not okay to tell you to leave. She could’ve expressed her need to take a break in a way that was more productive and less abandoning. Do you have anyone else that supports you? Have you seen someone on-campus for your OCD?
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I’m sorry to hear that you’re having trouble with your family understanding and accepting you. Just know that you are not alone! OCD is taxing on personal relationships. I don’t know anything about your mom, but even the most loving people will have off days and not be able to support! The best thing you can do is try and get the help you need from professionals and support groups like this one! I know I that I’ve burdened a lot of loved ones with my OCD behaviors. It feels good to get help!
Today my mom broke down crying because of how much stress she feels having to take care of me, she said I can’t do anything in terms of being able to take care of myself and she’s right I can’t, she breaks down constantly because of me, I don’t know what to do, it’s been like this for years, part of me feels like the only way to save her is to kill myself, I don’t want to die, but it feels like the only way to set her free, I don’t think anyone but her would miss me anyways, I feel utterly hopeless. I’m not going to do anything to myself the voices are just SCREAMING that I need to. I can’t work, I can’t go to school, I’m trying desperately to get therapy, I don’t know what else to do, I wish I was a child again and I felt like I had a chance to be okay. I love my mom so much and she loves me and I’m killing her, I’m actually killing her, with how fuckinh worthless and pathetic I am, it’s too much, I miss being a kid.
Yesterday I had a panic attack from OCD fears. I live alone, so in my panic I called my mum just to get some emotional support. It did not go well. I was asking for reassurnce to much and basically she got annoyed with me and started to chastise me. She said I was being ridiculous and accused me of just making up my symptoms to emotionally manipulate her. She even went as far as threatening to call the police on me to have me sectioned. I feel so humiliated. I know that I can be annoying during my panic attacks, and that my OCD puts a massive toll on my familiy. But I don't want to manipulate people. Now, I feel like an abuser. In these moments, seeing how much my weakness makes my family suffer makes me just want to not be here anymore.
Feeling like I am a burden on my parents as well on me. No my parents never said anything like this. I just want to end this life which is full of mental suffering which can't be explained. Feeling like I will never be able to do anything in my life. I so want to go far away from these things where there will be only peace.
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