My fam says my fears are not their problems and that they can’t help me anymore. Mom just said she’s done and that I need to leave the house. I know they’re right. But now I feel like I have no one.
Thank you everyone for being so kind and loving. My parents are extremely understand of ocd, but have always taken a “tough love” approach in trying to help me, and this time, it just was too much. However, she felt very bad about it and has apologized profusely. I just don’t want to ruin our good relationship and ocd is really trying to get in between us
I’m so sorry, while it’s horrible that your family said that honestly the best thing you can do is leave the house, i know what its like for your fears to keep you trapped in your house but remember avoidance is a compulsion and will only make your fears more prominent xx
@Abbie. Sorry just btw I’m assuming by “leave the house” your mum isn’t kicking you out just wanting you to get out more
@Abbie. She was telling me to leave bc I’m in college and was home for the weekend and was excited to spend some time with her but she said I have made her weekend miserable and exhausting from talking about something I’m worried about.
@iamworthy I’m sorry that you’ve been made to feel like that. Are you seeing anybody about your OCD? - you need to see a professional, family and friends can offer support but it takes an emotional toll and does affect your relationship with them sadly.
@iamworthy Oh my god that’s terrible im sorry, ocd is such strange disorder because it’s so hard for those who don’t have it to fully understand it, if you need to let out your worry’s I’m happy to listen x
Your mum sounds like she’s being really horrible
I’m also her to help and listen :) have you tried talking to a therapist at you college
While it can be hard to deal with a family member with OCD, it is NEVER an excuse to make them feel like a burden or that they are a problem. Your family shouldn’t have made you feel like that period. It doesn’t matter. Love and support shouldn’t be conditional. It is okay for your mom to feel frustrated and overwhelmed but it was not okay to tell you to leave. She could’ve expressed her need to take a break in a way that was more productive and less abandoning. Do you have anyone else that supports you? Have you seen someone on-campus for your OCD?
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I’m sorry to hear that you’re having trouble with your family understanding and accepting you. Just know that you are not alone! OCD is taxing on personal relationships. I don’t know anything about your mom, but even the most loving people will have off days and not be able to support! The best thing you can do is try and get the help you need from professionals and support groups like this one! I know I that I’ve burdened a lot of loved ones with my OCD behaviors. It feels good to get help!
Everyday just gets worse and worse and there’s no way to escape the cycle. This constant feeling of dread and guilt I can’t stand it. I have no one to talk to about any of this because I have a fear of them thinking of me different and I don’t like putting my problems on people it just makes me feel like I want attention or something like even when I’m writing this paragraph. I’m stuck in a constant loop. Constant aggressive thoughts and compulsions. I’m 18 and I don’t know about any of my insurance or anything so I can’t get a therapist on here and I really don’t wanna talk to my mom about any of this. I dread having to wake up everyone morning and continue with this shit all day every day. I hate complaining but I just can’t stand this. I don’t know what to do. I’m slowly losing every inch of my mind.
I feel so freaking scared. I know I’ll have an intrusive thought/urge and whatever I know I’m going to fight off another compulsion until I eventually give in bc I’m still so new to this. I am petrified and I feel like I cannot for the life of me relax. I’m sleep deprived, in a terrible place hormonally, withdrawing from meds, and being treated like a burden by people around me. I literally feel like I can’t do this. I keep thinking about those posts where people talk about the hypothetical scenarios where you learn your death date. I feel like if someone told me I’d die soon, I would cry of relief. I would never hurt myself but boy do I not want to experience this anymore.
It's been a year since I've been able to stay home alone. I don't know how to fight this. I feel like the world will collapse on me. That the house will cave in. Or I'll just lose my mind and scream and run outside screaming and saying the world is falling type thing. I don't know how to help myself. I'm to scared to even try to be alone. I have to have my son 18 stay home with me or my aunt stay with me when my son does leave. It's horrible. I feel like I'm holding my son back from so much. I don't know how to beat this. Please help
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