Curious. Some people obsess and worry about things that they believe to be unique. What is your theme? What are some of the things you’ve obsessed about?
This is a hard question to answer. I think harm/fear of psychosis is the weirdest for me. The harm thoughts are absolutely ego dystonic but my brain latches on to them.
I was always able to easily let go of previous obsessions but my latest has been the hardest, because my brain convinces me that it’s real and it’s something I should truly be concerned about. I obsess about people’s brains and why we think and do things the way we do. It makes me feel like we are all so predictable and I question what is the point of everything, what are we even doing. I hyper focus on things that don’t have answers and solutions. Life, people, etc. existential stuff. It’s so scary. Sometimes I convince myself that everything is meaningless and pointless and that is when I get depressed. Sometimes I’ll think about the human brain and how scary it can be. We are capable of believing anything and our true reality is how we see the world.. so then I obsess about perspectives, like how do we all have our own beliefs and perspectives? And how do we know what is actually true? If we are all believing different things not knowing what is actually true, what is even the point? I also question my own feelings. Which sucks. It goes on, but it’s all existential stuff. And I noticed these thoughts and feelings didn’t even happen until I experienced complex trauma and abuse. But I just don’t see the world the way I used to. And it makes me feel broken. Like everyone around me is blissfully unaware, living their lives on autopilot and I see the “truth” so I just feel alone. How crazy is that? It’s ridiculous. I don’t even know what my problem is. My brain wants me to think that I’m alone in this. ERP has definitely helped and I’m so glad I’ve discovered it. I’ve been better most days but the last few days have been ROUGH.
@Taylor10 Thank you for sharing. That truly sounds terrifying and lonely 😞 praying for you ❤️
@Taylor10 I have frequent thoughts such as this. Especially at night before bed. Existentialism is both fascinating and terrifying. You are not alone in questioning everything. I think deep down, we all do. The human experience is truly a beautiful disaster. I think it’s incredible when you think of how old the earth is versus what short amount of time humans have been here.
@LavenderGreyhound There is definitely a positive way to look at it. Some of the mysteriousness can be a beautiful thing. I guess I’m just frustrated with the fact that I used to be happy, excited about life, naturally optimistic, etc. and now it’s just…different. Like why? How does this even happen? It’s just maddening.
@Taylor10 I think it is a normal side effect of getting older. Even though I experienced a very chaotic and traumatic household growing up, I definitely had rose colored glasses on. I think it is easier to feel happy and joyful when you’re younger, you don’t have near as many responsibilities or daily stresses like you do as an adult. As we grow older we experience a lot more and become more aware of the horrors that take place on this earth. Which then affects our perspective on a lot of things. I am trying to work on being more positive myself but it is especially difficult to do having OCD, which is literally known as the doubting disorder. Because it will make you doubt everything. I am currently working with a therapist but I also need to get back on meds through a psychiatrist. I’m sorry you are also going through a difficult time right now.
@LavenderGreyhound Thanks💗 yes I’ve noticed that I doubt everything. I constantly come up with stuff in my head that just worries me and brings me down. I didn’t used to do that. Everything used to make sense. Everything had an answer and I was satisfied with those answers. Now it’s the opposite. Nothing has an answer and if it does, I doubt it. Then I become frustrated with the fact that our minds as humans are all different and I find it hard to accept. Idk what happened to my poor brain but I want my old brain back that’s for sure.
Lol idk, it varies…I had different themes. I think reading other peoples different themes affected me…because I would try to think like them….or like the details of their post would stay in my mind if that makes sense…. I’ve had obsessions and weird thoughts that I was gay lol….which I’m not. Harm ocd, religious ocd…I was completely convinced that I was schizophrenic like two weeks ago…. And now I have a false memory that I did something morally wrong to a family member…..so it’s been pretty much all over the place.
I’ve had the whole gamut 😂😂😩🫠😩 Weirdest one for me recently was obsessing that I had adhd. Now it doesn’t bother me in the least bit. Now I mainly struggle with harm/false memory themes
I used to be obsessed with tornados. Anytime the sky went a tiny bit dark, or if it rained a little (or even if one funny looking cloud popped up in a clear blue sky), I was immediately on tornado lookout.
It has varied through my life. Always manifesting in different ways so it was hard to spot. Started when i was young i thought our house would burn down. Then it changed to a fear of throwing up. Then i was afraid i had appendicitis. The current one is fear that i am not truly saved. This one i have struggled with the longest (over 13 years). I’m learning about ERP and how it is the best way to deal with it though. It’s scary when it’s not something physical that you can check and assure yourself of 😳
@Am I? I agree. So scary when it’s not something you can truly check
I used to convince myself that if I went swimming or had a bath I was going to get pregnant 😂 I used to ask my mum for reassurance at least 100 times before going anywhere near water and search on Google if it was possible that I would get pregnant. I don't know why but that's probably the weirdest obsession I've had. 😭
Hi! Just got this app. I don't have an OCD diagnosis, but I have some traits, such as a constant obsession over a topic that causes me distress. Like, fears. It's been pedophilia, racism, global warming, death, secrets I've kept, suicide... Basically everything I don't like the idea of. Now, it's the obsession of my dad passing away. I've come to the realization that if my dad died right now - I'd have to move in with my mom, 2,000 miles away from home. Not only would I lose my district scholarship, which would ruin my plans of going to college, but the room at my mom's house would not be big enough to house all of my belongings, so I'd have to get rid of most my stuff. All of my dad's belongings (books, video games, clothes) wouldn't fit either. Not that my mom would be pleased with me showing up with all of my dad's stuff (they're divorced and not on speaking terms.) I try to counteract these thoughts with things like "dad is not under an active threat" or "even if dad died, I'd figure it out." But I'm still plagued with little jabs from my brain about it. Yesterday, my dad expressed his excitement for this year. He's gotten a new job, we're making more money, we're happy - having the last few years be ruined by my mom running away and other fun things along those lines; we deserve to be excited about this new opportunity. But then he said: "I think this year is gonna be our year." As his daughter, I should be thinking "yeah!" or "right on!", but the only thing that came to my mind was in season 4 of Stranger Things when Eddie Munson says "It's my year, '86, baby!" Before getting eaten by demobats in the upside down. This morning, while driving to school, my dad expressed his happiness about the VaultBoy bobblehead on the dash standing up (there's a magnet on the dashboard that helps him stand, and in our old car, it always fell over.) I just said normal things like "yeah, that's cool, I'm glad." But my mind told me "if dad died right now, would you have time to grab the bobblehead to keep to remember him?" which led to "if dad died right now, would you have time to say goodbye?" I try to push the thoughts away because I tell myself I'm gonna jinx it, and thinking about it manifests it. I try journaling and justifying why none of this would happen, but the thing is; if my dad died, I really would have to move in with my mom, wether I like it or not. I would lose my scholarship, wether I like it or not. Another thought process I have is: "I'd never expect it if my dad died, because in all the stories, it happens when you least expect it." It's like I'm playing a game with my brain, just waiting for the timing of circumstances to lead my dad to his death. I think about it - I manifest it, I don't think about it - it's gonna happen because I'm not prepared. How can I cope with this?
for the past few years i have been struggling with a certain theme of ocd as well as most of the other themes. but this one i have not figured out a good way to do my own form of erp or non-engaging responses. basically i will be daydreaming or thinking and have a very random thought. i wouldn’t call these thoughts intrusive thoughts because it’s not necessarily fear of the thoughts coming true, its just fear that my thoughts are too unique. my ocd will latch on to random or weird thoughts and may also add in that i was doing something weird while doing the thought. let’s say for example i thought of something random while i was rubbing my feet. then my ocd would be like “why are u having such a unique thought while doing something weird? nobody has ever thought about that specific thought while rubbing their feet before” (just an example). but basically it’s like my ocd bullies me for having thoughts that are too random and things i’ve never heard people talk about before if that makes sense. i am just trying to see if anyone relates even a little and how i can accept that everyone has unique thoughts.
I think it's important to be able to make fun of yourself and joke about these things, so, just for fun, what's the silliness obsession you've had? Here's mine: when I was six I convinced myself that my overdue library books would create a butterfly effect that would end the world
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