anonymous7474
- Date posted
- 2y
false memory ocd with really awful topics
Does anyone know how to deal with uncertainty when the false memory is something really awful. I just feel sick and depressed all the time thinking about it :(
GregJGregJ
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
Hello! I totally went through the same thing and I understand completely what you are going through. Sadly no amount of reassurance or rumination will ever satisfy the OCD monster. The only way to beat the OCD monster is to starve it by not ruminating and not seeking reassurance. I know how hard it is at first, seems like it’s impossible. I never thought I could get better but I have with this technique and medication. Try to focus on what is going on around you. Try going 5 minutes with ruminating, where you are going to completely ignore the thoughts. After 5 minutes do all the rumination you want. Then do the same for 10,20,30, etc minutes and build up your tolerance. 1% better everyday and in 100 days you will be 100% better! You got this! Let me know if you have any questions
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y
Hi, what medicine worked for you, I know everyone is different so just wondering, thanks!
GregJGregJ
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@Anonymous Hello! I have tried almost every med lol. Right now a combo of Gabapentin, Latuda, and Prozac has been working for more for over a year. Just don’t give up if the current med isn’t working. I know how frustrating it can get when having to start a new one. You will find the right one. Make sure to keep your doctor updated and let them know how you are feeling!
Sam-OverOcdSam-OverOcd
- Date posted
- 2y
@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. Hi! Is it normal that when you first try stopping ruminating you feel sick to your stomach and like you are awful?
GregJGregJ
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@LynnOCDbattle Yeah I remember in the height of OCD I didn’t eat for like a week. Try to not overwhelm yourself as this is hard work. How much progress have you made? Try breaking your exposures into small steps that won’t overwhelm you and build yourself up from there. Do exposures that are more manageable at first then as you build a tolerance to uncertainty you can do harder more difficult and more anxiety provoking exposures.
Sam-OverOcdSam-OverOcd
- Date posted
- 2y
@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. I’ve made minimal progress as this is a new theme for me. My theme used to be HOCD. I just don’t get how this false fear could never not bother me. But I’ll keep practicing in small bits
GregJGregJ
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@LynnOCDbattle Does your old theme still bother you? Or does it not affect you that much even though you thought back then you would never get over this thought? Trust me you can and will when you put in the work. I really thought I would never recover but day by day I got closer and closer to my goal. The false fear is terrible I totally understand. But the way to beat this is accepting the uncertainty if the thought is true or not. When you get the thought simply think “Idk if that is true, it could be, Idc I’m going to move on with life” every time the OCD thought comes in
Sam-OverOcdSam-OverOcd
- Date posted
- 2y
@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. That’s a fair point you made. I am not bothered by my old theme and wasn’t sure how I would get through that. Right now, it just feels like if I accept uncertainty I’m a terrible person
GregJGregJ
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@LynnOCDbattle Yeah I get that feeling. I felt that same thing too. OCD makes you think you’ll be stuck with this theme or thought forever, but that’s completely untrue. Like you saw with your last theme the thoughts did go away and you now know the thoughts were not true. Just keep pushing and you’ll get to the same point with this theme and all future possible themes.
Sam-OverOcdSam-OverOcd
- Date posted
- 2y
@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. Thanks for all your support. Means a lot. And this was the encouragement I needed.
GregJGregJ
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@LynnOCDbattle You got this!!
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y
Yes I deal with false memory also but learned to live with uncertainty and try to enjoy every moment of life and be greatful
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