- Username
- snva
- Date posted
- 2y ago
Feeling overwhelmed by past decisions and unsure how to move forward.
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///////// I’ve lived my life so badly. I’ve made such horrible decisions as the result of the first bad decision that I still feel guilty about and I haven’t realized the real weight of them until now. I feel I’m sinking further and further and further and I’m too much a coward to amend any of this. I don’t even know how. I never imagined that this would be the kind of person I would end up being. I’m so ashamed. I don’t know what to do. I have to fix this but I don’t even know if I can even take the first steps. I guess I have to try and forgive myself first but I don’t know if I should. I don’t know anything. And I don’t want or need sympathy. I know I don’t deserve that. I don’t even know why I’m posting here