- Username
- Martin1
- Date posted
- 2y ago
Please help me rationalise is this OCD
I found myself looking at a girls legs most days for a while. She's 15, I'm 36 now, maybe I was 35 then as it was a few months ago or less. It started 1 day as I thought nice legs, then went on and on. However I felt bad about it as she's 15! It kind of latched onto me and I remember thinking I won't look today but then I did anyway? Now my problem is why. Did I think they are a good set of legs and is that normal regardless if she's 15 but then that's that or am I a perv or is it OCD making it an obsession, as I used to feel bad about it! Then came looking at her butt one day as she was wearing tight leggings, I even said to myself how could a male not find that attractive (as a way to rationalise maybe it's a normal biological thing?)as I think it was an attractive image? but felt bad again because of her age! Then 2 different days came the feelings of arousal (which I tried to halt straight away) and a few sexual thoughts which I also did not want and was feeling crap about straight away. This is something that is bothering me considerably now and I even remember feeling bad and thinking I never want to see her again (not in a bad way, just a normal way) cos I'm feeling guilty about this! I do have OCD and it's latching onto all sorts of stuff, so is my anxiety and ocd on this girl making this all seem out of proportion?