Ocd and being drunk

Can an OCD thought like "this time something must have happened" arise while totally drunk? I remember having that thought while drunk and since then I am totally in panic mode

Calove

Date posted: 3y

I also had a dream that I can’t tell if it was a dream or not about that night and that is freaking me out and although if it was a dream I don’t think I was doing anything wrong, but maybe I did. I’ve been having really vivid dreams lately so that’s also playing into this what if situation. Have you had any experience with this ?

Mayla123

Date posted: 3y

Yup, I had this very realistic dreams, too. And then I question what has been details of the dream and what was the real scenario. But I cant answer that question because its not clear for me. Sometimes my mom can because I told her the story right away after it happened... but this is reassurance seeking.. so it will make things worse. It seems like your friends know what happened on that evening... I know its making since worse.. but maybw you can meet up and write down the story of the evening..so your dreams cant create daöse memories anymore? Otherwise then ypu have your own paper for always checking and gettin reassurance.. I donr know if that is helpful. I got a suggestion on a book that helped a lot of sufferers. When I am done reading and it kinda helped me I'm gonna let you know. The first pages were awesome and more than relatable.

Calove

Date posted: 3y

That is a really scary thought, but recognizing you are having a thought about being a bad person shows that you aren’t. Although I don’t know you, I don’t think bad people question whether they are a good person or not. Versus good people are always worried about things they might have done wrong, or they are judging their character. I’m sure your a good person, and I think OCD has tried to convince you otherwise, but just look deep within your self!

Mayla123

Date posted: 3y

Yes, it is :( and for me its kind of okay on wednesday till saturday evening and Im here thibking something changed to the good. And the my thoughts kick extremly sunday morning till tuesday. Thank you for reminding me of that, that totally makes sense.

Calove

Date posted: 3y

Going through this right now

Mayla123

Date posted: 3y

Really ?? How are you coping? What is this thought about?

Calove

Date posted: 3y

@Mayla123 well I went to a Friendsgiving the other night. It was mellow we had a bit to drink and at I was totally fine. My friend even told me I was completely fine, Got home, called my boyfriend, totally normal. What triggered it for me is I had woken up in the middle of the night having an awful feeling. I don’t remember the thought I had, but my mind automatically goes to what if you thought you cheated and that’s why it bothered you so much. i don’t know if any of that makes sense. When I really think about it, I can totally remember the night, but because I can’t remember the thought that made me feel so awful, my mind goes there. I think that drinking and OCD is a really bad combo. Not being able to remember certain parts of the night and having ocd is terrifying

Mayla123

Date posted: 3y

Wow, I havent thought that someone is possible to experience almost the same.. Exept that I cab not recall every scene of the night, just the chronological things that kind of happend. Believe me, your story makea more than just sense to me. I am really sorry that we both have to struggle with this. Even though I am not even sure if its OCD..

Mayla123

Date posted: 3y

My night was not always with a good feeling because Ive lost my friends troughout the night. And the bad feeling of not finding them also leads me to my thinking.

Calove

Date posted: 3y

@Mayla123 Ugh I’m sorry your going through this too!!!! It makes sense your feeling this way because that is scary. I was with my friends the whole night and at a Friendsgiving and I’m still going back and forth with the what ifs. What’s helped me is trying to remember that I am a good person and I wouldn’t never do something like that and ocd attaches so things that matter the most to us relationships,etc!

Mayla123

Date posted: 3y

I feel that really! And all this "going through memories" is in imagines and my images has changed so badly in contrast to the ones I had in the begining. But the worst is questioning the thoughts you might have or might havent had. Because I had an similar event 5 years ago.. I've been questioning me being a good person or just playing the role of a good person for a longer time but not that exessively. So please don't ever let your thoughts tell you otherwise! Once you think you are bad, you wont have that argument anymore.

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