Username: TheBrighterSideOfMe

Date posted: 2y ago

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So I am 32 weeks pregnant, and am thinking about checking myself into the physch ward, as my intrusive thoughts and false memories have gotten uncontrollable. I checked myself into the physch ward I believe when I was 22 weeks, and thought the medications were helping but I'm in another spiral now. I have a 7 year old daughter at home who deserves so much more from as well as my husband, but I feel as my husband has gotten so tired of trying to help me through this that our marriage is now failing. Any advice to keep me in good spirits would be great, because I am scared of being alone but I am now scared of my own mind.

Username: NicaNica

Date posted: 2y ago

I don’t see how a psych ward would help you at this point. You need to find an OCD specialist on here and do ERP therapy at least once a week.

Username: TheBrighterSideOfMeTheBrighterS...

Date posted: 2y ago

What is ERP?

Username: awful humanawful human

Date posted: 2y ago

@Miserable The only ocd treatment, it's great

Username: Yeehaww Yeehaww

Date posted: 2y ago

I pray for you. I don’t want you to do compulsive behaviors through prayer but I hope you have faith in our God, that Jesus will help guide you through this time. You are not alone

Username: Anna,hi! Anna,hi!

Date posted: 2y ago

Keep how much you love your daughter and your husband in mind. Also, that every person has intrusive thoughts. Thoughts are just thoughts, not good or bad. Think of this, we have thoughts and live with uncertainty everyday but they do not cause distress. The same mentality should be applied to intrusive thoughts, of course easier said than done. I got that from the nocd video on YouTube.

Username: Stardust777Stardust777

Date posted: 2y ago

I’m in a similar situation. I have false memories I’m married and I have a daughter. I have memories that I might have done something to my daughter. Sometimes it’s vivid and sometimes it isn’t. I can’t get help around here. I signed up for therapy on this app. The ward isn’t gonna do much besides drug you up and then send you out in a week. Or at least that’s what they do around here. You need help from people that know what ocd is. A lot of doctors out there just want you to take a couple of pills that will eventually not help you in the long run. Try for you and your family please. I will be praying for both of us.

Username: TheBrighterSideOfMeTheBrighterS...

Date posted: 2y ago

Sadly, I am going through the same with said memories. I'm afraid to be alone, and everything is just getting worse. I have called everywhere to see if my medicine could be changed because I am pregnant and I really don't want to go back to the physch ward if possible, but I can't do this alone.

Username: TheBrighterSideOfMeTheBrighterS...

Date posted: 2y ago

Yes the nurses checked in on us every 15-20 mins, and we seen the doctor once a day. I also attended group therapy everyday, which seemed to help while I was there but everything went back to the way it was once I got home unfortunately.

Username: Stacy QuickStacy Quick

User type: Therapist

Date posted: 2y ago

I am so sorry that you are going through this. When I was pregnant with my first child I had a terrible bout of OCD. I think that with so many chemical/hormonal changes and stressors this is quite common. Are you able to get OCD-specific treatment- have you done ERP? What about an inpatient OCD treatment center like Rogers? Please just know that you are not alone and you can get to a place where things are so much better. I know in the midst of it, it may not feel that way but OCD can be manageable. Try and give yourself compassion- you didn't choose this disorder. You are not at fault and you are not alone.

Username: awful humanawful human

Date posted: 2y ago

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Username: ARTnotOCDARTnotOCD

Date posted: 2y ago

While you can keep your family members in your heart as inspiration to heal so you can be the mom you want to be, know that if you don’t take the time and resources to help you be the you you want to be, you aren’t as likely to get out of feeling the guilt for not being what you want for them. It’s seems counterintuitive, but to be good for them, you’ve gotta be good to yourself. While I haven’t been in your shoes, so many pieces resonate with me. I’m so sorry you’re struggling. If you can, please seek some OCD specific treatment. I’m hoping for you that that putting in the work to heal reignites your husband’s role in your support system. I know when I shared more actual literature made for family/support team of those of us with OCD, (and not just sharing with him when I was spiraling, if possible), he knew better how to support me. He still gets frustrated and overwhelmed with me and my struggles at times, but we can at least recognize and be more effective in supporting each other now. Sending you so much strength and comfort. 💪🏼💜

Username: Dance24/7Dance24/7

Date posted: 2y ago

I just had my second baby a few days ago. My harm OCD is bad right now, similar to how it was with my first. Tell your therapist and maybe even add a session or two a week until your symptoms decrease. You may be able to get through this without having to go inpatient

Username: TheBrighterSideOfMeTheBrighterS...

Date posted: 2y ago

I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow, and an appointment with my nurse practitioner the next day to see if my meds can be changed to maybe help me somehow. I really feel like a monster right now, and I keep telling myself I'm not gonna get through the night because of these horrible thoughts of me doing something so horrible are just spinning in my head. I feel so helpless right now. I try to sleep but when I wake up the thoughts are still there and 100x worse.

Username: OCDkickrocksOCDkickrocks

Date posted: 2y ago

Remember you are pregnant so your hormones are playing a big role in how you feel. This could be making your OCD worse. Self care is very important.

Username: laurlpn

Date posted: 5y ago

Ok.. so another one of my fears is the fear of being schizophrenic or psychotic. I’m 9 weeks post partum and I read about psychosis and it freaked me out!! I’m 29 years old and I know schizophrenia happens in your teens or early 20s. My therapist told me that as long as I don’t have a voice telling me to act on my intrusive images or thoughts that it’s not psychotic. Once she said that later that day the words “do it” kept repeating in my mind. I have 0 desire to harm anyone and I’ve never been a violent person. If anyone has experienced something similar please share! I feel like my mind loves to switch things up and play tricks on me.

Username: Cavlaine

Date posted: 4y ago

I began struggling with pocd about 3 months ago. I’m the mom of two boys ages 3 and 7. Soon after that theme started for me, I discovered I was pregnant which was a surprise. At some point I latched on the the “what if I acted on my pocd fears and that is how this pregnancy came to be.” This led to me exerting all my energy to figure out if that was true, checking my memories ect. I began feeling like I had a “memory” even though that memory is very vague and details of it sometimes change when I try to recall it. Anyway, I’m struggling a great deal by now thinking I’ve acted on my pocd fears and now I’m carrying a child of incest. I get thoughts such as “what if I was half asleep?” Ect. And maybe that’s why I can’t remember it clearly. I’ve even gotten to the point of contemplating terminating this pregnancy because I just don’t know how to make it through with these thoughts. I feel like I will have the baby and something will be majorly wrong with it. Eventually tests will be run ect and all of my fears will turn out to be true. Then I will be separated from everyone and everything that I love and have to live out the rest of my life in a prison cell.

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Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

Anonymous

Hi all. I opened up to my psychiatrist today (my therapist and ocd therapist know) about the intrusive thoughts I've been having. The one thought would pop up over and over "child porn" and it made me so sick to my stomach because I can't believe I would think of such a thing. Then the thoughts were more dark like thinking of touching my son and even images of that happening..then came urges...and i felt so guilty and disgusted with myself :( after I told my psychiatrist ( who is currently treating me for bipolar 1) he was so concerned and told me I need to stay with my mom to make sure my son is safe. To not trust myself and have someone watch me. Well that made me feel a whole lot worse! The thoughts were actually subsiding this week and talking about it with him made the "child porn" thought pop up again. I just feel like I'm failing at life and as a mother. My immediate family think I should turn myself into a mental health facility and have intensive treatment. They think because I have those thoughts that I want to act on them or to let it go. I don't want to act on them and would never! Im scared of my thoughts and thats the problem. This is so frustrating.

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