I am trying to see how to handle I have loved my horses and I went to the barn and anxiety automatically triggered thinking I don’t wanna be here I don’t feel comfortable and anxiety hit. The barn is usually my favorite place to be. When I am feeling like I wanna escape and it’s all I think about while I am there should I leave my anxiety is so bad I can’t feel relaxed anymore. It gets worse when Holidays are around the corner.
OCD is a jerk who attacks the things we love most. Keep pushing through. We can’t let the OCD win. I have been feeling similarly about my normal “safe place.” The holidays are difficult and OCD latches on hardest during stressful times. Take deep breathes and allow yourself to feel all the hard feelings. As hard as it is, sit in the crappy feelings and let them pass. Then move on the the next task. I know at a barn the tasks are never ending!
How do you guys get past the anxiety? I feel like my thoughts are the only thing that control my mind. So often I feel like I should just leave my partner even tho I love them so much because I just feel like these thoughts are too much. I over analyze everything. I feel so stuck and defeated. I just want to be normal. I feel so toxic for the thoughts that I have
I'm wondering if this is a common OCD experience: does anyone else find that when you have idle time, your mind just spirals into endless rumination on negative "what ifs" & intrusive thoughts? It's been happening to me for the past three years, which coincides with starting a really high-stress job. Weekends used to be my time to relax, but now I dread weekends...I only feel relief when I'm sleeping because it's the only time my mind seems to quiet down. It's honestly so depressing to lose that enjoyment. Does anyone else relate to this, and if so, what helps you cope?
Today is Easter and it was supposed to be low key for me and my family but my mom invited a family member that bothers my ocd alot and now they are on their way here and I'm freaking out I already had a panic attack (still having it) and my family is not helping either they keep making comments about how they just want one holiday with no problems and some other comments and it's like I'm sorry I'm not normal like my siblings I didn't ask to be like this now I'm just hurt, upset and I locked myself in my room for the rest of day. (And I was doing so good with erp and this is like making me have a ocd relapse)
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