False memory or real

Because if they didn’t feel real ocd wouldn’t be doing it’s job. It would loose it’s purpose. It grabs whatever scares you for the moment and takes advantage of you.

I have a false memory that felt like a realization, but I remembered it completely different before

This is how I feel, I had a thought that I hit someone with my car while glancing down at the radio for a moment, even though nobody was around and there’s no profs, but it feels real and now my mind swears I did this awful thing :( it’s hard when ur brain makes it’s so realizistic

I totally get this but then if they were real memories surely we wouldn’t be labelling them false? I mean think about a bad memory from the past, are we doubting those as real? No! I guess cos OCD hasn’t latched on to those memories. I think the extreme anxiety comes from the battle within our brains trying to prove the suggestion wrong because we know deep down they are false 🤔. Thoughts??

My mind does this everyday with real event OCD. It keeps showing me stuff from my past that feels like real memories. I always feel guilty and shame.

I have a false memory of me hurting someone I really hope it isn’t real. There’s inconsistencies in it yes. I don’t remember the exact day when I did it or where I was. It keeps saying what if I did it here in a house or a car. The location keeps changing I really don’t remember doing it like I know I don’t remember doing it because the memory is hazy but gets vivid when I focus on it and I get anxiety if I’m bad person or not it then becomes more vivid. I’m gong back in my head eremebering if I did hurt them or not saying I didn’t say these words or they didn’t react to it. I can’t remember them reacting at all or saying anything about it but it feels so real. God someone please help me but not reasssure me because that’s when I feel ok for awhile then I go back obsessing because my brain is like you sure you didn’t say this stuff? I’m like no I’m sure. Are you sure you didn’t do this? I can’t exactly remember in perfect memory if I did or when I did or where. I just have a blurry fragment of the memory and the anxiety comes in and my mind then pieces other thoughts to that thought saying you said this before and then she said this after. I debunk those comments because I don’t remember them saying it and then my memory is like what if. God idk. I’m gonna accept the uncertainty if I did or not but I really really really really want 1000000% proof I am not horrible being I need absolute certainty and the cycle continues.

I’m sorry you’re suffering, I can completely relate to this cycle. Don’t accept the uncertainty of whether it happened or not just accept that you’ll not be able to “FEEL” certain because that’s what this disorder is, doubt.

I do! I'm going through it just now and it feel horrible. I've been ruminating on that thought for an entire day (been in bed since 8 am [now 15:11 pm]). It is horrible. I'm constantly finding evidence to corraborate this memory. So I did an exam. I left feeling good. Until I relaxed on my way home in the train ride. I emailed my tutor to get reassuance as I know that would ease the anxiety. I then did the worst thing possible. Re-do the test at home to verify that I had the correct answers as I tend to have good memory. All answers seemed as I recalled them. However, there was one particualr answer I was expecting to end on .3 or .31. However, I was not of these exact figures. As a read the answer when I did it at home, it read as .484. That number was not immediately memorable, but then I thought, that's what I must have written. I got an email from my examiner yesterday to give me reassurance on my initial concern, so it turns out it's not a mistake and won't be penalised. After my releif and going to bed, I woke up with an urge to re-run the analysis again and view the outputs. And then I thought, what if I run the analysis incorrectly (which I belive it happened during the exam but I also remember fixing the mistake, because when I saw the variables in the wrong boxes, I went 'shoot' and ran the analysis again). Interstingly, when I saw the output for the wrong analysis, there it was, the .317 my brain was probably remembering. So then, this very morning, I immediately thought 'this is probably why I felt a bit off about the results when I saw them at home'. It was then that my brain created a flashbakc of me actually writing .31, but not the 7. The .3 is more vivid, the 1 not so much. So it was then that I convinced myself that I've made a mistake and feel stupid for nor properly checking whether that value belonged in my final answer. My brain also contemplates the possiblity of probably having writte .48, but the .3 seems more real. It is awful to feel like this and wish there was a drug to numb it. Am I crazy? If this memory and process is so real, I must be right, no?