Why does OCD make things that aren't bad into something bad and sinister? I feel like I need to confess to everything. I'm so exhausted. Idk what is actually bad and what is just my moral OCD trying to tell me is bad and I want to confess. I'm so tired!!!!
I’ve gone through this so many times in my journey through OCD recovery. There were times where I literally touched an object and felt I had done something wrong. The thing that helped me the most was just trying to accept that whether or not it’s wrong or immoral, I’m going to live with the potential consequences. Ie sitting with that uncomfortable feeling produced when I felt I’d done something wrong, and not performing subsequent compulsions. Over time, I’ve found that a natural balance occurred and I was able to see things not through the OCD lens as much anymore.
The worst thing is I always feel like they're things that are bad and unfair to my boyfriend and I have to confess. Even if it isnt anything bad. My OCD convincss me it is.
@bablti Since your confession is self admittedly a compulsion, just try a simple uncertainty statement, “I’m feeling anxious because I feel I did something wrong to my boyfriend and need to confess, I can’t be 100% certain that that isn’t true, and I’m willing to live with that uncertainty HAPPILY.” And just sit with the feeling it produces. This simple statement has helped me with all of my OCD subtypes, and I use it frequently when I feel them flaring up!
@Anon. Thank you very much. Very helpful
I go through this a lot, I never feel any better after confession compulsions or reassurance seeking so I know it’s all in my mind.
Feel guilty for not giving into compulsions like rumination and confessing? I feel guilt for having an intrusive thought, trying to shrug it off or just giving it a few seconds of thought and moving along. This sounds like improvement but I still struggle with the anxiety and the guilt. The shame. I’ll be okay and then I’ll remember I have OCD and my stomach will drop and I just want to curl up and cry.
I don’t know how to stop confessing. It’s driving me insane. I confess every little thing to my boyfriend. I confessed that I liked attention (this is so obviously human), that I liked it when people found me pretty (also very human??) I confessed about a million other things and I feel out of control. I felt so safe with him last night that it just started pouring out of me. I felt guilty and awful and I just needed release, I couldn’t breathe I felt like I was dying. I’m stuck in a confessing loop and I know I’m only making things worse. Has anyone experienced this and been able to overcome it? It feels absolutely horrible and impossible. I tried to ERP this and I genuinely feel like I am suffocating if I hold off. I feel so disappointed in myself, but I can’t seem to stop. I even had a dream where I confessed to him and woke up needed to confess that. I’m scared I’ll start sharing my worst intrusive thoughts I’ve had if I feel too safe around my bf. Help please :(
When OCD latches onto your morals, it can make you question whether you're a good person, even over small things. Have you ever felt overwhelming guilt over something others would brush off?
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