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HOCD BUT reversed?..
im asexual but i have images in my head u know about what and thoughts like "what if u like that image and u are not asexual?", i have groinal responses too its hocd or smth else?
im asexual but i have images in my head u know about what and thoughts like "what if u like that image and u are not asexual?", i have groinal responses too its hocd or smth else?
Yeah, could be sexual orientation OCD. I used to have it too, I'm gay and I had groinal responses to girls. Being asexual doesn't mean having no libido though. You can still like sex and be asexual, it doesnt contradict itself.
@M4ks i don't want to have sexš
@holyshhii No one said you have to, OCD is messing with you probably
Wow Iām asexual too and I relate so much. SO-OCD isnāt just for straight people!
@Cassie - Advocate oh, im not alone!! what do you do when that thoughts and feelings appears?
@holyshhii I think you can treat it just like any other OCD thought. Practice noticing oh thatās a thought and then rather than ruminating you can say maybe maybe not and mindfully shift your attention to something more meaningful to you
@Cassie - Advocate can i go sarcastically? like "oh OF COURSE how else"
@holyshhii Haha yes humor can be very helpful in distancing ourselves from the thoughts
@Cassie - Advocate its so hard to disregard that, but i hope, we will get better and exactly know who we are
@holyshhii Yes it definitely is. It takes a ton of practice. You got this!
that can 100% be an intrusive thought
OCD can be about literally anything :( it sucks
Yeah Iām aroace and I get the same thoughts
@FightingOCD do u have feelings? what do you do with that?
@holyshhii Same! I had the feelings a lot especially before I came out
@Cassie - Advocate feelings like you want this thoughts?
@holyshhii I worry Iām actually just in denial or my being aroace is just my ocd
@holyshhii Yeah I get feelings too! So nice knowing Iām not alone
Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now theyāre just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself itās two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself itās alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if itās just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but itās confusing. On top of that Iāve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like Iād be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk Iāve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that Iām straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
Like I canāt think straight. This is making me doubt everything Iāve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I donāt. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go āoh so you like it you must be gayā or the other one where Iām not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that Iāve had my whole life and my mind goes āsee now youāre not into them youāre gayā like itās so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or āa thing of the pastā. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and itās so weird. Today Iāve spent my whole day thinking about it like Iāve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just wonāt let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
I really dont know if it is ocd anymore I dont want certain sexual things with my bf anymore that i used to like When i envision it with a girl it is so easy to envision and it feels like i want that , that will give me the satisfaction This feeling is making me really question if i am still into men , desire men sexually Is this still ocd , i really dont know anymore , as it is a feeling it is too real
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