What do tge first days of accepting the thoughts feel like?

nooooo omg the trick isnt to accept them as the truth but to just acknowledge them and not give them a reaction. Don't label the thoughts good, bad, normal, not normal, true or false. They're just thoughts. Everyone gets intrusive thoughts, they mean nothing. Before my anxiety hit me I remember that I had an intrusive thought about my grandma naked every time I would go to the bathroom. It just got triggered because my brain associated the scenery with the intrusive thought since I got it while I was in the bathroom. It was disgusting and I was trying so hard to not think about it which resulted in me thinking about it the next few times I went to the bathroom. Now I don't even remember the intrusive image anymore. You have to let your thoughts just pass by for you to get over them. Don't react to them in any way. I still struggle with this to this day but it's gotten to a point where I know that these intrusive thoughts are irrelevant brain farts that mean nothing and that being afraid of them is gonna power them up further. Accepting the thoughts doesnt mean that you have to accept that theyre the truth. Absolutely not at all. It's about accepting that these thoughts are automatic and that you have no control over what pops in your brain. And I know it feels real and I know that sometimes it feels like it's not an intrusive thought and that you secretly brought it upon yourself for some reason, but that is just not the case. Try with all your might to not dwell or react on these thoughts. Let them happen. They're just thoughts they can't hurt anyone. Your thoughts are separete from you.

very scary but i mean its different for everyone

@Vilmi did it feel like you were accepting the thoughts as true instead of just accepting the thoughts? Because I've been trying to accept them but I'm so scared and frustrated

Yes but when I don't react and just let them pass they feel so real and I'm tempted to give into compulsion. I know the key is don't anything, but it feels so real like it's actually true. I've had some moments of clarity but the last a few seconds. I just want to know if this is normal the first few days, I just want to go back to before I'm so tired, it's like an annoying virus. Before it was easier to deal with them but I'm going through such a difficult time right now

listen. No matter how scary and real it feels you have to resist compulsions and you have to sit with that fear. I know how overwhelming it can be but if you learn to resist compulsions and habituate the anxiety you will feel way better. Just distract yourself with something and carry on with your day. You need to stop dwelling on it and take a risk. I know you can do it and overcome this. This is fear controlling you. Fear can make anything ridiculous feel real that's just how powerful it is. Please resist confusions and embrace the anxiety.

compulsions not confusions*

The thing is I don't really feel so anxious at this point. It's just the thoughts and the uncomfortable sensations. I can't even think about something stupid without these thoughts popping in and creating thousands of questions. My head is seriously starting to hurt 24/7. I hope in a few days things will eventually get a bit easier. I want to get better but I'm sacred am screwing everything up

you have to stop creating questions. just let them happen. when u just acknowledge it and then not give it all of your attention it'll go away.