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Does anyone wanna rant?
Rant about anything! I’ve had more than half the subtypes you could think of so chances are I can relate, and maybe share how I got better…
Rant about anything! I’ve had more than half the subtypes you could think of so chances are I can relate, and maybe share how I got better…
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@swyd7 !!you can’t reason with ocd cause it’s a bully You need to accept uncertainty and the anxiety that comes with it! This doesn’t mean accepting that you cheated it just means accepting that there is no arguing with ocd and you must go on with your life. Focusing on the present and on things you value
@Makingocdmybitch Also I want to say that it sucks that you are going through this! False memory can be so fucking scary and exhausting
Oh God, I'm going through false memory too. It's the worst.
@Meg Johnson It really is!
With false memory, it always feels like whatever your afraid of has already come true
I recently learned I have OCD a few weeks ago and I am having a hard time knowing who I am without it. It turns out most of the things I do/think are OCD. Who am I if I am not my thoughts? who am I without them?
@hunny4sale Not every single thought you have is OCD generated, OCD thoughts are unwanted thoughts things you dont want and go against your values, thoughts that are bad and cause you distress, because you dont want them, everything else the good feelings you have the emotions you share with people the hopes n dreams n goals are all you, OCD is just a small part and unwanted one that your brain is fighting every single day, the only way you can beat OCD is by not fighting it, just let it be there cause it’s not you, you’re what you choose to do in the present not what you think to do
Retroactive Jealousy is such a bitch.
My false memory is not related to harm or anything like that and I know with harm related themes there is chronic guilt with false memories. With other themes and false memories, is there still some chronic feeling? Cause it's felt different after the false memory.
I’m new to NOCD but feel like I have many sub-types. I have my first therapy session tomorrow. Wish it was right now. Looking back, I’ve probably had OCD for a long long time but didn’t realize it. I’ve had years where it wasn’t a problem but over the past 6 weeks, it’s become so intrusive in my life. I just want to stay locked in my room until it passes but I have to work full time. I’m scared to death!
Idek know if it’s false memory or hit and run ocd, but I’ve been thinking about it nonstop for a week now. I was driving home last week and took my eyes off the road road to change the radio for a moment and then when I looked up and kept driving my mind had convinced me that I had hit and killer someone…. I was going to go back and check but then I was like nooo ur being silly….. I ended up going 40 minutes later and saw nothing but then my mind was convinced the person had already been taken away… No marks on my car, I’ve checked the news, I’ve checked neighborhood sites seeing if anyone said something about a hit and run in the area…. I know I didn’t hurt anyone… but my mind really believe it’s real, I’ve suffered through guilt, shame and my future feels so bleak because I feel like cops are gonna show up and take me away for something I didn’t do. It’s made this last week hell. I’ll get peace occasionally but that’s only cause I mentally reassure myself or I see a similar story on here about someone saying it’s fine and then I’m ok till the thought comes back… my mind has created false images and it’s so disturbing to me. I could never harm someone, let alone run away from a accident when there’s a chance that I could’ve hurt them and could get them help. I am trying so hard to sit with my thoughts but it’s just super hard, this thought specifically would ruin my life, take everything away and not to mention I couldn’t live with the thought of taking another’s life that would break me… sorry for ranting I’m just stuck in limbo and therapy isn’t a option at the present moment so I’m tryna deal with this alone. I’ve suffered from SOOCD/POCD/ROCD/ Health OCD and generally have been able to pull myself out most times, this feels completely different because my mind makes me feel like it’s real!!! I hate driving anymore and I’m hyper vigilant when driving now and have even had the same thought a couple other times when I see people Walking down the road and stuff, but for someone reason the initial thought keeps coming back stronger 😭 ok sorry rant over lol
@kndkown Im so sorry you are feeling this!! It sounds terrifying and exhausting. You already know that ruminating mental reviews and self reassurance isn’t helpful in the long run! But I understand that it can feel torturous to not do the compulsions!! I know you can do it! When you realize the only danger you are in, is made up by ocd. The fear becomes easier to accept. You can allow it and uncertainty and continue with your life. It takes time and practice and willingness to except uncertainty and the fear that comes with. But I promise it will all be worth it! And usually the spike of anxiety will slowly go down and you will feel relief.
@Makingocdmybitch Thank you for this, it’s just crazy that ocd makes it feel so real, guilt and all, it’s frustrating and extremely scary that my mind is capable of making me feel this way
@Themechanger Hey!!! Do you fancy a chat? I’m in the exact same boat and I am so freaking scared. I also have false memory’s about every single theme but I’ve never had a hit and run that’s scared me as much as this!! :( I’m here if you need a chat honestly
Hey people! Hope you all are doing well. I used to use this app back in time, when I was dealing with many subtypes of ocd, mainly related to my sexuality. But, today, I live a life free of of obsessions, at least in terms of my sexuality. I do think that I still have a way to go to get better in terms of mental health - yet I'm not ruining my life over silly thoughts. When I have time and energy, I will write about my experience and story. But, for now, please know that what you are going through at the moment is only temporary. You will feel good inside your skin one, hopefully very soon. If you need a company or a person to vent to, please let me know! I can listen. I emphatise with you all and send you love. best, caleb
Is there a therapist or a specialist on here that I can briefly chat with? Or maybe an OCD conqueror who’s very familiar with the disorder? I need an experienced person to talk to me so bad. I just really wanna talk to somebody about what I’m going through so that I feel less alone, and so I can maybe get help managing my symptoms. Thank you in advance ♥️
i’ve been dealing with SOCD for 5 years and truly believe it has altered my life completely😀. i haven’t been properly diagnosed but the child therapist I had when i was in hs kind of hinted to me i had something more than just plain anxiety. i’ve also dealt with intrusive thoughts all throughout my childhood and as my family life got worse my anxiety got worse annnd i started getting more and more thoughts that wouldn’t leave me. I remember spending months not swallowing right and practically starving myself bc i kept thinking i was going to choke. i also rmbr spending months worrying ab death and dying EVERYDAY. it woke up with horrible anxiety and it was all i could think about. i can still rmbr sitting in my grandpas chair and just staring off and thinking “im going to die one day” “idk what’s going to happen” “is god real” “i don’t want to die” “what if there is no heaven” and so on. when the socd thoughts started i was 15. i searched around online for help and found reddit and i was like “omg yes finally people who understand and are going through EXACTLY what im going through.” finding that community and this app has helped me so much. anyway i had such a horrible time during my teenage years bc of all the intrusive thoughts about my sexuality, my relationship (glad that’s over), and some other things here and there. i was so so depressed and i felt no one around me understood how fucking awful i felt. i woke up everyday anxious, depressed, numb, and exhausted. when i started college i told my old therapist that even tho im extremely afraid of death i just didnt like living. i would cry in my car before class and just sob ab how awful i felt. although my mental health has gotten SO much better as time went on and the thoughts haven’t been as frequent im definitely not doing well. i am literally stuck. i’m still in college but i don’t know what to do with myself. those years of anxiety and depression have left me STUCK. im so much happier? and i can manage the thoughts way better but i don’t want to do anything. i only talk to 2 friends (literally lost so many great friendships), i RARELY drive bc im afraid ill die in a car crash (only to school and back), i don’t go out, i don’t ask for help at school, i avoid conversations, i avoid ppl in general, i don’t put in that much effort into school, i don’t have hobbies, i don’t want to do anything, i literally have the worst social anxiety now, im afraid of everything. i feel like the only reason im “ok” now is bc i’ve avoided literally everything. i’ve basically spent three years of my life doing nothing. i’m not happy with where i am in my life but im so scared to do anything. i miss who i was before all of this. i’ve been dealing with anxiety all my life and ik my childhood and early teen years made me like this. i didn’t know how to deal with the things i went through/saw as a little kid and i guess everything exploded in my teen years. but i want to be better i want to start LIVING. i’m definitely happier than before but im not living. what frustrates me is i refuse to do anything about it. i know a big reason why i don’t experience as many intrusive thoughts is bc i avoid everything 😭. ik what i have to do to get better and turn my life around BUT I WONT DO ANYTHING. idk how to explain this but its not laziness i feel like my body is exhausted. i think im just so traumatized from feeling so fucking horrible for so many years i just shut down ykwim?? i don’t have any libido, i don’t find ppl attractive, i can’t get myself to do the things im interested in (so many books r piled on my floor), i rot all day, i push off my responsibilities till the last minute, i can’t even get myself to go on a small walk. i don’t know where i was going w this but if someone who’s going through the same thing sees this ur not alone. i just needed to get this out. hopefully one day things will get better.
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