Makingocdmybitch
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- 2y
Does anyone wanna rant?
Rant about anything! I’ve had more than half the subtypes you could think of so chances are I can relate, and maybe share how I got better…
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MakingocdmybitchMakingocdmyb...
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@swyd7 !!you can’t reason with ocd cause it’s a bully You need to accept uncertainty and the anxiety that comes with it! This doesn’t mean accepting that you cheated it just means accepting that there is no arguing with ocd and you must go on with your life. Focusing on the present and on things you value
MakingocdmybitchMakingocdmyb...
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- 2y
@Makingocdmybitch Also I want to say that it sucks that you are going through this! False memory can be so fucking scary and exhausting
Meg JohnsonMeg Johnson
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- 2y
Oh God, I'm going through false memory too. It's the worst.
MakingocdmybitchMakingocdmyb...
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- 2y
@Meg Johnson It really is!
Meg JohnsonMeg Johnson
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- 2y
With false memory, it always feels like whatever your afraid of has already come true
hunny4salehunny4sale
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- 2y
I recently learned I have OCD a few weeks ago and I am having a hard time knowing who I am without it. It turns out most of the things I do/think are OCD. Who am I if I am not my thoughts? who am I without them?
soumya soumya
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- 2y
@hunny4sale Not every single thought you have is OCD generated, OCD thoughts are unwanted thoughts things you dont want and go against your values, thoughts that are bad and cause you distress, because you dont want them, everything else the good feelings you have the emotions you share with people the hopes n dreams n goals are all you, OCD is just a small part and unwanted one that your brain is fighting every single day, the only way you can beat OCD is by not fighting it, just let it be there cause it’s not you, you’re what you choose to do in the present not what you think to do
Kain366Kain366
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- 2y
Retroactive Jealousy is such a bitch.
Meg JohnsonMeg Johnson
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- 2y
My false memory is not related to harm or anything like that and I know with harm related themes there is chronic guilt with false memories. With other themes and false memories, is there still some chronic feeling? Cause it's felt different after the false memory.
VolballgirlVolballgirl
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- 2y
I’m new to NOCD but feel like I have many sub-types. I have my first therapy session tomorrow. Wish it was right now. Looking back, I’ve probably had OCD for a long long time but didn’t realize it. I’ve had years where it wasn’t a problem but over the past 6 weeks, it’s become so intrusive in my life. I just want to stay locked in my room until it passes but I have to work full time. I’m scared to death!
Themechanger Themechanger
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- 2y
Idek know if it’s false memory or hit and run ocd, but I’ve been thinking about it nonstop for a week now. I was driving home last week and took my eyes off the road road to change the radio for a moment and then when I looked up and kept driving my mind had convinced me that I had hit and killer someone…. I was going to go back and check but then I was like nooo ur being silly….. I ended up going 40 minutes later and saw nothing but then my mind was convinced the person had already been taken away… No marks on my car, I’ve checked the news, I’ve checked neighborhood sites seeing if anyone said something about a hit and run in the area…. I know I didn’t hurt anyone… but my mind really believe it’s real, I’ve suffered through guilt, shame and my future feels so bleak because I feel like cops are gonna show up and take me away for something I didn’t do. It’s made this last week hell. I’ll get peace occasionally but that’s only cause I mentally reassure myself or I see a similar story on here about someone saying it’s fine and then I’m ok till the thought comes back… my mind has created false images and it’s so disturbing to me. I could never harm someone, let alone run away from a accident when there’s a chance that I could’ve hurt them and could get them help. I am trying so hard to sit with my thoughts but it’s just super hard, this thought specifically would ruin my life, take everything away and not to mention I couldn’t live with the thought of taking another’s life that would break me… sorry for ranting I’m just stuck in limbo and therapy isn’t a option at the present moment so I’m tryna deal with this alone. I’ve suffered from SOOCD/POCD/ROCD/ Health OCD and generally have been able to pull myself out most times, this feels completely different because my mind makes me feel like it’s real!!! I hate driving anymore and I’m hyper vigilant when driving now and have even had the same thought a couple other times when I see people Walking down the road and stuff, but for someone reason the initial thought keeps coming back stronger 😭 ok sorry rant over lol
MakingocdmybitchMakingocdmyb...
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- 2y
@kndkown Im so sorry you are feeling this!! It sounds terrifying and exhausting. You already know that ruminating mental reviews and self reassurance isn’t helpful in the long run! But I understand that it can feel torturous to not do the compulsions!! I know you can do it! When you realize the only danger you are in, is made up by ocd. The fear becomes easier to accept. You can allow it and uncertainty and continue with your life. It takes time and practice and willingness to except uncertainty and the fear that comes with. But I promise it will all be worth it! And usually the spike of anxiety will slowly go down and you will feel relief.
Themechanger Themechanger
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- 2y
@Makingocdmybitch Thank you for this, it’s just crazy that ocd makes it feel so real, guilt and all, it’s frustrating and extremely scary that my mind is capable of making me feel this way
Ilovedylan20@Ilovedylan20@
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- 2y
@Themechanger Hey!!! Do you fancy a chat? I’m in the exact same boat and I am so freaking scared. I also have false memory’s about every single theme but I’ve never had a hit and run that’s scared me as much as this!! :( I’m here if you need a chat honestly
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- Date posted
- 24w
a quietly loud vent about ocd join in if you need
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sofiaraaah7
- Date posted
- 15w
I wish so badly I could have someone to talk to
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