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Does anyone wanna rant?
Rant about anything! I’ve had more than half the subtypes you could think of so chances are I can relate, and maybe share how I got better…
Rant about anything! I’ve had more than half the subtypes you could think of so chances are I can relate, and maybe share how I got better…
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@swyd7 !!you can’t reason with ocd cause it’s a bully You need to accept uncertainty and the anxiety that comes with it! This doesn’t mean accepting that you cheated it just means accepting that there is no arguing with ocd and you must go on with your life. Focusing on the present and on things you value
@Makingocdmybitch Also I want to say that it sucks that you are going through this! False memory can be so fucking scary and exhausting
Oh God, I'm going through false memory too. It's the worst.
@Meg Johnson It really is!
With false memory, it always feels like whatever your afraid of has already come true
I recently learned I have OCD a few weeks ago and I am having a hard time knowing who I am without it. It turns out most of the things I do/think are OCD. Who am I if I am not my thoughts? who am I without them?
@hunny4sale Not every single thought you have is OCD generated, OCD thoughts are unwanted thoughts things you dont want and go against your values, thoughts that are bad and cause you distress, because you dont want them, everything else the good feelings you have the emotions you share with people the hopes n dreams n goals are all you, OCD is just a small part and unwanted one that your brain is fighting every single day, the only way you can beat OCD is by not fighting it, just let it be there cause it’s not you, you’re what you choose to do in the present not what you think to do
Retroactive Jealousy is such a bitch.
My false memory is not related to harm or anything like that and I know with harm related themes there is chronic guilt with false memories. With other themes and false memories, is there still some chronic feeling? Cause it's felt different after the false memory.
I’m new to NOCD but feel like I have many sub-types. I have my first therapy session tomorrow. Wish it was right now. Looking back, I’ve probably had OCD for a long long time but didn’t realize it. I’ve had years where it wasn’t a problem but over the past 6 weeks, it’s become so intrusive in my life. I just want to stay locked in my room until it passes but I have to work full time. I’m scared to death!
Idek know if it’s false memory or hit and run ocd, but I’ve been thinking about it nonstop for a week now. I was driving home last week and took my eyes off the road road to change the radio for a moment and then when I looked up and kept driving my mind had convinced me that I had hit and killer someone…. I was going to go back and check but then I was like nooo ur being silly….. I ended up going 40 minutes later and saw nothing but then my mind was convinced the person had already been taken away… No marks on my car, I’ve checked the news, I’ve checked neighborhood sites seeing if anyone said something about a hit and run in the area…. I know I didn’t hurt anyone… but my mind really believe it’s real, I’ve suffered through guilt, shame and my future feels so bleak because I feel like cops are gonna show up and take me away for something I didn’t do. It’s made this last week hell. I’ll get peace occasionally but that’s only cause I mentally reassure myself or I see a similar story on here about someone saying it’s fine and then I’m ok till the thought comes back… my mind has created false images and it’s so disturbing to me. I could never harm someone, let alone run away from a accident when there’s a chance that I could’ve hurt them and could get them help. I am trying so hard to sit with my thoughts but it’s just super hard, this thought specifically would ruin my life, take everything away and not to mention I couldn’t live with the thought of taking another’s life that would break me… sorry for ranting I’m just stuck in limbo and therapy isn’t a option at the present moment so I’m tryna deal with this alone. I’ve suffered from SOOCD/POCD/ROCD/ Health OCD and generally have been able to pull myself out most times, this feels completely different because my mind makes me feel like it’s real!!! I hate driving anymore and I’m hyper vigilant when driving now and have even had the same thought a couple other times when I see people Walking down the road and stuff, but for someone reason the initial thought keeps coming back stronger 😭 ok sorry rant over lol
@kndkown Im so sorry you are feeling this!! It sounds terrifying and exhausting. You already know that ruminating mental reviews and self reassurance isn’t helpful in the long run! But I understand that it can feel torturous to not do the compulsions!! I know you can do it! When you realize the only danger you are in, is made up by ocd. The fear becomes easier to accept. You can allow it and uncertainty and continue with your life. It takes time and practice and willingness to except uncertainty and the fear that comes with. But I promise it will all be worth it! And usually the spike of anxiety will slowly go down and you will feel relief.
@Makingocdmybitch Thank you for this, it’s just crazy that ocd makes it feel so real, guilt and all, it’s frustrating and extremely scary that my mind is capable of making me feel this way
@Themechanger Hey!!! Do you fancy a chat? I’m in the exact same boat and I am so freaking scared. I also have false memory’s about every single theme but I’ve never had a hit and run that’s scared me as much as this!! :( I’m here if you need a chat honestly
I have a lot of thoughts about the universe, and they’re overwhelming—like being caught in a rip current, except it’s all inside my head. Most of the time, they’re about how small we are, how there really isn’t a “we” because our bodies aren’t truly ours—we’re just bacteria, cells, and microbes. The thoughts spiral, deeper and deeper, smaller and smaller, coiling until suddenly, I’m pulled under, drowning in a whirlpool. I’ve never felt like this before, and I’m convinced I’ve been faking it somehow. For the past few weeks, my OCD has been worse than it’s ever been in my 20 years of life. Or maybe I’m just more aware of it now. Has anyone else had their OCD suddenly get really bad? Does it ever end—if it even can? I’ve convinced myself that my intrusive thoughts aren’t actually intrusive, that my OCD is a choice, and that everything I do is intentional. As for compulsions, I don’t have the typical “If I don’t do ____ then ____ will happen” kind of thoughts. Instead, my brain simply commands, “Do ____,” and I always give in. It’s so loud in my head, and I can’t shake the feeling that I’m an imposter. Like I don’t belong here—like my presence on this app is an intrusion, invalidating everyone else’s struggles just by downloading it and daring to post. If anyone feels that way, if you think I’m intruding, I’m sorry. I only came here because I have no one to share my diagnosis with. Pouring my thoughts out, hoping someone might understand, feels less suffocating than journaling. Journaling is like letting a wound fester—each word burying the thoughts deeper, leaving them to decay in silence, for nobody to ever read but myself.
Hi everyone! My name is Tara, I’m a therapist here at NOCD. Before becoming a therapist, I worked various jobs in arts, textiles, prop styling, I worked in restaurants... I basically did what I could do with an undergrad in art living in Brooklyn, with a secret hope that I might someday pursue a career in mental health. Fun fact, I held onto that hope for 10 whole years before I decided to take a risk and apply to grad school! I wanted to become a therapist because I just knew that this was a field where my mind could work at its best and do the most good. Anyone else here with ADHD may understand. I simply cannot retain long term focus on something if I don’t absolutely love it, and I absolutely love this work. Having a job where my sole purpose is to connect with others and help them tap into their inner strength is an actual dream come true. I specifically love working with Exposure and Response Prevention and treating OCD, since the whole point of ERP is to show you you’re braver than you think you are. And it works so, so well. If you have a fear, and you think you “can’t” approach it, know that you most likely can. It might take some time to prove that to yourself, but with time and a steady dose of discomfort, you’ll get there. I’m sure that “discomfort” part didn’t sound appealing but let me ask you this - does OCD make you feel uncomfortable? Why not put some of that discomfort to work, in your favor? If you’re struggling with OCD, or you think you might be, know that you probably already have what it takes to thrive in ERP. You’re here. You recognized that you were struggling, you decided to find help, you downloaded the app, and you started reading through posts. I’m sure somewhere along the line, you felt at least a little uncomfortable, and you decided to take the next step anyway. That’s ERP in a nutshell :) Please ask me anything about OCD, your current symptoms or ERP. I’ll be responding over the next 2 days to questions.
Lately, my mood shifts so frequently. A couple of minutes ago, I got triggered and decided that instead of doing a compulsion, I'd write in my journal (since I haven't done that in a while). But after writing not even half a page... I'm okay? Well, sorta! 😭 I'm experiencing a resurgence in old obsessions, which is disappointing. A couple of weeks back, I was doing a lot better, but now it's just one thing after another. Really wish therapy was more affordable. I'm already seeing my psychiatrist, but she wants me to see a specialist as well. When I think about living with this for the rest of my life, I can get a little emotional. I know it'll get easier to manage as time passes, and it might not even affect me in the future, but right now...? It's a lot of work I'll need to do to overcome this. I'm willing to do it, but I get discouraged at times... But that's enough of my little vent! I hope anyone who reads this is doing okay. Hang in there 🤍
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