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That if you’re in denial you can push the thought away and not think about it. If you have ocd you think about it a lot (more then 1 hour a day). What if I am in denial my whole life? What if I didn’t think about my whole life because is was in denial? What if this is the time I realise I’m a lesbian? I’m so anxious and feel so extremely numb at the same time. I love my boyfriend so much. 7 months ago is was so happy. It was the easiest yes when he asked me to be his girlfriend..

elaidocarol

Date posted: 2y

If you dont fear it just mean that you don’t care because it is not true

soumya

Date posted: 2y

That’s a very common OCD tactic to bring you distress thinking your whole life was a lie and OCD is bringing you light and opening your eyes. Dont fall for that trap it’ll only lead you to do a series of decisions that are solely in hopes of bringing you relief from anxiety and uncertainty which are all compulsions, and you will never reach your goal like that, it’s gonna turn into an endless cycle filled with impulsiveness and regrets, don’t do anything your OCD tells you to do, just sit there let your doubts and thoughts flow dont argue or fight dont engage with them just answer them with “maybe, maybe not” “that would suck if it is true but we’ll never know” its gonna bring you a lot of anxiety and distress but you’re teaching your brain that anxiety will go away eventually without needing to make big life decisions . Just be patient , i truly feel your pain

Anonyrhi

Date posted: 2y

This post needs a trigger warning especially for people who are maybe in this stage of ocd thinking it is denial. Or just getting out of a bad spiral.

elaidocarol

Date posted: 2y

@Anonyrhi I always think im in denial

Anonyrhi

Date posted: 2y

@elaidocarol This is your ocd, you need to sit with the uncertainty of whether you are or not. When you learn to sit with that feeling and uncomfortableness it is then your brain lets go off this thoughts , as they are not important to you. You are assigning importance to them because you are always trying to ruminate the reason you’re thinking thr thoughts. The best way to deal with these thoughts is non engagement.

Volballgirl

Date posted: 2y

@Anonyrhi Tell me how not to engage when my brain is saying the most awful things to me…please tell me how.

elaidocarol

Date posted: 2y

@Anonyrhi Thank you. It is so hard to try, I always think that Im liying to myself…. And this rumminatings stay all day long. im exhausted

Anonyrhi

Date posted: 2y

@elaidocarol I was in the same position around a month ago constantly ruminating and getting nowhere from it. What I do is, when an intrusive thought comes into my head, and I get that overwhelming anxious panicky feeling I write the thought down. Then I just say out loud “I am not engaging with this thought” it is really difficult at first but the more you do it and practise non engagement, the more your brain is used to you not focusing on the thought. I have noticed my intrusive thoughts have reduced significantly, and if I do get a random intrusive thought I just say to myself “ok the thought is there, but it’s not important to me” and try and just move on with whatever I am doing!

Dothewalkofl...

Date posted: 2y

I understand and feel the same. I’m scared that if I did not fear the thoughts/feelings then I would like it or enjoy them. I hope I’m not alone with that

Volballgirl

Date posted: 2y

Idk how to stop ruminating about past events. It’s like I go from intrusive thoughts to ruminating about past mistakes. Nothing I can change but I want to beat myself up over them. I keep trying to say to myself what a comforting friend would say but…idk why my OCD is trolling but it is. Searching for something to make me feel awful!

Anonymous123

Date posted: 24w

Can anyone tell me if this is normwl

Hi so I've been having a recent theme of soocd hocd. At the start I was all panicked and couldn't leave my house. Now all my emotions feel like they have turned off. It feels real now like I'm just in denial. It's bringing up memories from the past of shows I've watched or people I was friends with to try and prove the point or people I thought were pretty. It's saying you've only realised now cause you are comfortable as I had a difficult childhood. I feel no attraction towards men and can't remember if I ever have now even though I know I did. It's saying its all fake. I really am. Starting to believe it's real and I just feel depressed now. Am I going to have to leave my boyfriend who I planned my life with. It feels like life is going by and I'm stuck. I have no energy at all.

Anonymous123

Date posted: 23w

I'm so convinced it's just denial

I feel sick to my stomach, a few days ago I knew I was straight and could picture my life with my bf again. The anxiety has really lessend and Im more depressed now. I'm 100% convinced I am lesbian even tho I have never had sexual attraction to women, found them pretty but never wanted to be with them. My mind is only picturing me being with women now and it feels like a pit in my stomach. I don't feel emotion now, I'm also on my period. I don't want to be lesbian. I want to be with my boyfriend and have the life I pictured with him. My memory is so dissorted right now. I don't think there's anything wrong with being lesbian, it's just not for me and now that makes me feel like I'm homophobic.

Masc4lesb

Date posted: 16w

LESBIAN WITH SO-OCD

I have been doing okay for the past week or so and was really happy i felt that i was getting back on track, but today i went on tiktok and i saw something triggering which was “i thought i was a lesbian for 4 years until i met my now boyfriend” and it triggered me very badly, i have been crying all day and i can’t seem to make myself feel okay. i feel like im lying to myself that im not lesbian and i truly want men, but when i get any thought about men it feels disgusting and wrong and not me, i don’t want men i feel so sick i want to get out of this. i always felt so happy as a lesbian im so stuck i don’t want to be with a man. i have a loving girlfriend i just want to be happy with her.

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