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does anyone else’s thoughts/compulsions get worse as it gets later in the day?
does anyone else’s thoughts/compulsions get worse as it gets later in the day?
I’m not sure, but I usually feel anxiety and depression more in the morning.
Yes at night it's the absolute hardest - I think the day can distract OCD behaviour / rumination / compulsions sometimes because there are so many things going on and then the quiet lonely evenings where my mind is just fired up...sounds like maybe similar? I am trying my best now to make evenings more social and planning even video games online withj frineds is better than being alone, wish u best!
Same, during the night my mind usually has nothing to distract itself so it ruminates again and again. (Especially in the week-end.)
Definitely. The other night I had to go for a walk, to try and clear my mind of all the negativity. And after the initial “life sucks, I’m useless, what’s the purpose of my life” phase, all my negativity and anger shifted its focus to OCD. I basically told OCD, F U OCD, you’re completely useless and I’m tired of your lies. Then I said outloud, so I could hear myself, all the good things in my life and that I’m grateful for, then I got a message in a group text, and it was a reminder that there is a purpose to my life, and that I am NOT useless. Then I came home feeling good and happy.
I do sleep well, but i have quite vivid dreams which are ocd related, which can either invoke anxiety (dreams about my kids being hurt), or arousal and subsequently guilt, shame and doubt (having sex with other women than my partner). So usually, ocd peaks for me in the morning, right after awakening.
Mine are worse first waking up starting off the day. It gets much better for me as the day goes on.
Does anyone else's OCD get worse when you haven't slept well? I haven't been sleeping well since this weekend and my OCD and anxiety is just making me feel super down. Does anyone else have this problem?
Does anyone else find that their compulsions actually make their OCD/obsession worse? I don’t mean in the obvious way, like that it strengthens the OCD cycle, I mean in the way that when I perform my compulsions, they make my anxiety so much worse in the moment. My main compulsions are ruminating, arguing with my thoughts, and memory reviewing, but they all just end up giving me more intrusive thoughts/questions, making my anxiety more intense, and making me think my intrusive thoughts are real. I’ve always read that you perform compulsions because they bring you relief, and I suppose for me, they more make me feel like I’m working towards “solving the issue” or “answering my question”, so then is that my version of “relief”? In reality, it just makes my anxiety worse because the more I ruminate/memory review, the more jumbled together and foggy my thoughts/memories become, which in turn makes me think that if I ruminate/memory review just a little more, I’ll be able to “push through that fog” and find my answer, which then also causes me anxiety because my brain feels foggy and hence makes completing my compulsions/figuring out my obsession impossible (which I guess is good because I’m not supposed to complete my compulsions). All of this is making me believe that I don’t have OCD and that my intrusive thoughts are true and that’s why I can’t shake them and that’s why I feel the need to figure them out and why I feel so foggy… Or is this just meta OCD playing it’s devious tricks on me? Has anyone else experienced this or is this not OCD and I should be concerned that my obsession is true?
Any one else deal with this? Like from the moment they wake up to the second they fall asleep, the intrusive thoughts are there?
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