anxious

I’m not sure, but I usually feel anxiety and depression more in the morning.

Yes at night it's the absolute hardest - I think the day can distract OCD behaviour / rumination / compulsions sometimes because there are so many things going on and then the quiet lonely evenings where my mind is just fired up...sounds like maybe similar? I am trying my best now to make evenings more social and planning even video games online withj frineds is better than being alone, wish u best!

Same, during the night my mind usually has nothing to distract itself so it ruminates again and again. (Especially in the week-end.)

Definitely. The other night I had to go for a walk, to try and clear my mind of all the negativity. And after the initial “life sucks, I’m useless, what’s the purpose of my life” phase, all my negativity and anger shifted its focus to OCD. I basically told OCD, F U OCD, you’re completely useless and I’m tired of your lies. Then I said outloud, so I could hear myself, all the good things in my life and that I’m grateful for, then I got a message in a group text, and it was a reminder that there is a purpose to my life, and that I am NOT useless. Then I came home feeling good and happy.

I do sleep well, but i have quite vivid dreams which are ocd related, which can either invoke anxiety (dreams about my kids being hurt), or arousal and subsequently guilt, shame and doubt (having sex with other women than my partner). So usually, ocd peaks for me in the morning, right after awakening.

Mine are worse first waking up starting off the day. It gets much better for me as the day goes on.