Anyone else feel like really small kind interactions make their day? My mind is so mean. Getting a little confirmation that not all of the world as mean as my mind feels beautiful. I get excited, almost to a point of anxiety because my ocd wants to find something wrong with these genuine and friendly moments but there isn’t. I wouldn’t appreciate them as much if I wasn’t struggling.
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@scenic I feel the exact same way. When you’re consistently haunted by a nagging feeling that nothing is right, nothing is safe, nothing is good enough, you’re not good enough, etc., there are little nuggets of beauty and compassion in daily life that feel like they are enough. Those moments feel too different to ignore, and we deserve to experience them fully. We deserve the win when this happens, not ocd.
I am naturally very shy, but I think stuff like this has helped me to realize how far things like meaningful compliments and checking in on people can go— so I do it more myself.
I saw the world and people more beautifully when I healed from OCD/depression the first time around. I just appreciated things more. It’s sad that now my OCD is telling me that was all an illusion or something, because getting back to the reality and those feelings/state of mind almost seems impossible. When I have those moments now my OCD doubts them, it sucks!
@Taylor10 Yeah or throws something in to ruin the moment
@Taylor10 I totally get this—sometimes ocd throws a major wrench in my ability to accept people actually liking/caring about me too. Been working on trying to just leave these moments alone, accept that they happened and made me happy, and that’s that. Obviously easier said than done. But you’re right that when you’re able to see with enough clarity those moments are so beautiful
@mothmanda I hope we get our clarity back
@Taylor10 I really hope you guys do too. I’m sure if you’ve felt it before you will again. And even if a person hasn’t I’m sure they could get there
Thanks for this post. Yes with this current theme, sometimes I feel my mind and body feeling safe when someone is *unexpectedly* kind and it’s such an overwhelmingly good respite I can really feel it. The texture and color of life feel different.
I’ve seen wayyyy too many negative posts on here (I totally get it)…but can someone please share some positive experiences? Doesn’t have to be so grand, it could be just that you achieved a small goal with your ocd! I don’t want to continue feeling drowned by this debilitating disorder. I want to see what has helped some of you! So we can all encourage each other! 😊
One of my biggest struggles in overcome OCD is that in moment where I feel invincible and feel really good, my mind itches back at me telling me that it’s too good to be true and I need to feel back on edge. I call this my OCD homeostasis, and my mind just needs to revert back to this. How has everyone dealt with this effectively?
cause immense guilt when receiving gifts? Or when someone is nice to you, the guilt just floods every vein of your existence. I feel so awful :( awful about my compulsions, about some of my thoughts, about who OCD has made me. My boyfriend just gifted me something, and I have such a heavy feeling in my chest. Worst part is: when I’m not feeling guilty I’m spiraling over that gift was enough, if it could’ve been “better.” I feel like an idiot. I don’t understand why I’m like this
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