I want to be with my boyfriend. I love my boyfriend. I want to be with him so much. He makes me happy. I wish ROCD would stop trying to mess with me. “But you feel so much anxiety do you really love him or does this mean you want out deep down?” I want to be with him but say whatever you want ocd cause at the end of the day I’m still going to choose him.
I’m so happy and relieved someone else posted about this. I’ve been dealing with rocd for many months (close to a year now) and have been fighting off the same conflicting deep down thoughts about my partner. I’m not sure what the long term future holds but I’m brand new here and just relieved I’m not alone dealing with that
I love the idea of OCD being able to say whatever it wants and yet you still get to choose in the end! Your choice is what matters.
So happy you are choosing your happiness and not letting ocd get you down! You got this!! You can do this, even when it’s hard :)
Keep it up girl! We got this!
@brandifleury I will never give up. He means to much to me 💪🏻 ROCD can be so painful but he’s my best friend. Even if ROCD is right I still choose him no matter what! Let ROCD say what it wants ya know.
@Dj-is-trying I feel 100% the same. It’s so fucking hard when our brains fight us but you’re so right! Love is a choice! more than anything!!
How do you manage to spend time together when your thoughts are so loud? Like i feel so convinced of not loving him, or not seeing a future together. It makes me really anxious.
@Anonimo05 Honestly at first before I was diagnosed and got the tools to use when feeling it strong, I didn’t want to come home, I didn’t want to be anywhere and I just wanted to sleep. Now after weeks of erp and medication, I am okay. I look forward to hanging out with him. In fact I don’t want to be without him. My thoughts have reverted to when I’m alone instead of when I’m with him. Just do your exposures. Let the thoughts be there but DONT engage with them. You can respond without engaging. Trust me I know it’s WAY easier said then done and I still have a LONG way to go. But practice does make perfect. Re wire your brain 🧠
@Dj-is-trying Thanks, i think maybe that’s why i’m feeling so bad because I’m not in therapy.
@Anonimo05 I had never been in therapy in my life before NOCD and I’m 25. It really does help. I also started taking medication to help cushion the blow of the debilitating symptoms. I take Zoloft 100mg. Medication works differently on everyone though, just because it’s the med for me doesn’t mean it could be the same for you. I do suggest some form of payment plan if you don’t have insurance to start your therapy with NOCD so you can learn the tools. They also have support groups and work shops to assist you. You can do this!
@Dj-is-trying Thanks
@Anonimo05 I will get in contact to start, i definitely need it
@Anonimo05 For sure! It’s scary but it’s worth it.
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