Anonymous
- Date posted
- 2y
I just feel dirty and guilty
Intrusive thoughts ruined me
cheeseburger puppetcheeseburger...
- Date posted
- 2y
Same here 😔 I wish I never had them
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y
@cheeseburger puppet Same wanted to do a lot in my life but I feel like it destroyed me mentally and my self esteem
Lisa LeeLou Lisa LeeLou
- User type
- NOCD Alumni
- Date posted
- 2y
Thank you for sharing what you are going through. I am sorry to hear you are struggling. Try to remember that thoughts are just thoughts not facts; and they do not define who you are. Often trying to avoid the thoughts makes it worse. Accepting the uncomfortable thoughts/feelings is often more effective. Then try to redirect to doing a new task. I know easier said than done, but with time and practice it does get easier. ERP (Exposure Response Prevention) therapy has helped me address my OCD. Recovery is possible. Be kind and patient with yourself. If not in therapy, please consider reaching out to the nocd care team for a free consultation.
AnonymousAnonymous
- User type
- Staff
- Date posted
- 2y
I am so sorry that you are feeling like this. I know I say this on here all the time, but the truth is I cannot say it enough, you are not alone, it will not always feel this way. It can get better. Thoughts, when you have OCD, are ego-dystonic- meaning they go against who you are- against your values, your goals, your true nature. https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/feeling-like-a-monster-when-you-have-ocd https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/how-to-deal-with-guilt-and-shame-from-ocd
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