I keep drinking alcohol to cope with my ocd yesterday I was so drunk at the park my friend found me an took care of me. I’m going through a lot but drinking has been helping the thoughts finally to leave after over 5 years I’m happy I kinda don’t want to let this go. I’m able to go to work after a drink a little in the morning. I’m really at a lost for words I don’t know what’s the right thing anymore.
Hello , I’m an alcoholic & I struggle with drinking to cope with my anxiety and ocd. Let me tell you this is not the best way . Drinking is only Going to make it worse and worse . I have been hospitalized trying to out drink my ocd and anxiety. Try other ways like therapy , aA meetings , idk I’m not much help but I have the same problem . All I can say is alcohol will lie to you .
I used to drink every weekend and get high every night it was the life for me then my ocd got bad and my intrusive thoughts were always that I’m going to end up in the hospital from doing it or that I’m going to go crazy and start hallucinating and hearing things that aren’t there. I completely stop and I feel scared to try it again tho I want to and enjoyed it. I don’t enjoy it anymore it paranoids me
@Ocdppd Did your intrusive thoughts and obsessions/anxiety get better ?
@OCD why me ? No it’s about the same they are still there. I’ve gotten worse.
I completely understand why you would want to get rid of the anxiety/ocd at any cost, but if the question is what is the right thing, it is to find a healthy solution to any and every problem. And those are often not easy, and not quick. Are you in therapy currently?
@Aaanonymous I’ve been with many therapists and am with a new one now I’m losing hope to be honest
@YaBoio I literally have a therapy appointment tomorrow and I just don’t see the point anymore I’m just a worthless person hanging onto a string I don’t even believe in myself I friends who say they’ll do it for me they’ll believe in me if I won’t I don’t deserve them
@YaBoio Oh I hear you 💯….one of the things I’m working on right now is to challenge the hopeless thoughts. Just b/c therapy wasn’t helpful in the past doesn’t mean it won’t be in the future. This is fact. I’d share with your therapist how you’re feeling about therapy - maybe they can help you figure out why it’s been insufficiently helpful in the past or it’s possible our negativity bias is keeping us from seeing little bits of improvement.
I get it, drinking helps lower your inhibition and helps you care less so the intrusive thoughts aren’t as powerful. It feels great for the moment! The problem is it’s a very temporary fix. You’re just numbing yourself and when you wake up in the morning sober your thoughts will still be there. Along with possibly more intrusive thoughts or guilt about what you did or said when you were drunk. It becomes easier and easier to say that’s ok I’ll just have myself a little drink and I’ll feel better again. Perpetuating the cycle and leading to alcoholism. Needing a drink to go to work is definitely a problem. You could lose your job. If you’re drinking and driving you could get a DUI but more importantly you could hurt yourself or someone else. Drinking all the time is certainly not the answer!
@rjohnson Ya boi doesn’t drive so I truly don’t drink and intent on hurting someone I’m either at home or at the park so no one else gets hurts but me I deserve it someone with this many bad thoughts deserves this treatment maybe I’ll learn my lesson and stop being a bad person if I drink enough is my thought process yes I’m drunk right now but just a little
It sounds to me like you're trying to distract from those OCD thoughts. We know that substance use may temporarily distract or numb, but does not actually help the situation and can make it worse. I'd recommend reaching out to get something scheduled with a therapist who can help you to confront those thoughts using ERP and see long term relief.
I don't know if this is because of my OCD... but my thoughts will force me to make irrational/dangerous/dumb decisions. I swim in chaos and enjoy drinking too much or smoking or doing drugs just to keep other things on my mind
I know this is probably just my ocd but i always worry that because I like drinking I am or will turn into an alcoholic. Another thing is I prefer drinking at home because I don't want to worry about finding a way home when drunk, and I don't mind drinking alone either. I literally always worry about this and now I feel guilty when I drink at all
I’m freaking out. I have relationship ocd and for the most part felt like I was doing better but yesterday was my 21st birthday party and I was already scared of drinking cause I felt like I was going to do or say something bad while being drunk. I went kind of hard on the drinking yesterday and ended up blacking out. When I woke up my boyfriend told me what happened and he told me that I called my best friends boyfriend, my boyfriend and that absolutely triggered me. I tried to go around it and he’s like “no you said he was your boyfriend” but he told me he didn’t take it too personal. But now I’m having a mental breakdown cause why the hell would I even say that. So many questions are going through my head and I just want to cry my eyes out.
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