cmac1339
- Date posted
- 2y
Denial or Reality
Does it ever feel like the thing you’re afraid of is unquestionably real? And if you tried to think otherwise it’s just you being in denial? How real can OCD feel? Is there even a limit?
jonathanberry73jonathanberry73
- Date posted
- 2y
It feels so real I feel like I am gaslighting myself every waking moment I just want it to stop
cmac1339cmac1339
- Date posted
- 2y
@jonathanberry73 I’m in the exact same boat
MCTMCT
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
Something I learned in ERP was that all OCD obsessions/fears could theoretically happen. They’re all technically possible. But those of us with OCD see these obsessions as more probable than they actually are. For example, I’m capable as a human being of hurting someone or myself. I could choose to do that, either on purpose or accidentally. However, I have to realize the probability likely isn’t very high of that happening. It’s not impossible, but it likely won’t happen. At least I don’t think it will right now. That’s where uncertainty comes in. I have to accept that my obsession is a real thing that people do and I could even choose to do, but I probably won’t. At least not right now at this moment, because right now I simply don’t want to. I don’t have to ensure myself that it’ll never happen because I can’t predict the future. But I can be present and realize in this moment that I don’t want to engage in my intrusive thoughts. Does that make sense?
Sam-OverOcdSam-OverOcd
- Date posted
- 2y
Same here
geraltgeralt
- Date posted
- 2y
Same.
Stardust777Stardust777
- Date posted
- 2y
Same
Bse393837Bse393837
- Date posted
- 2y
It feels so real.
Meg JohnsonMeg Johnson
- Date posted
- 2y
Yep, especially with false memories related to that fear. It makes it feel like a realization.
divyDdivyD
- Date posted
- 2y
Yep. I’m petrified my son has/will get a specific health issue. Every time something triggers me it feels so real. So real. Accepting uncertainty is so hard when it comes to this issue. It’s at a point where my compulsion really doesn’t help me, it’s actually hurting our relationship and damaging his self image, but I can’t stop myself :( I get so triggered and avoid seeing his skin. How sad is that.
cmac1339cmac1339
- Date posted
- 2y
@divyD That’s a toughie. Sorry you have to go through that it’s not your fault at all
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Conquering_OCD
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 25w
Knowing the difference
Does anyone have any advice for how to know the difference between ocd and real feelings/thoughts? Sometimes an intrusive thought will come in and I immediately know it’s ridiculous and I can just leave it alone and it won’t bother me but other times I really really don’t know. It’s when ocd hijacks and twists my real feelings and thoughts and tries to manipulate me into believing they’re something they’re not or something that doesn’t align with my true morals or intentions. But since it’s twisting and mixing with real feelings I get so confused and scared. Everything gets jumbled and I feel like I can’t trust myself or my own mind. Yet other times and other topics I can laugh off and push away just fine. Make it make sense. And then I start to think well maybe I don’t have ocd at all and I’m just in denial because I don’t want to accept that these scary/concerning things are true about myself. Or maybe that’s just the ocd talking.
Camilla.r
- Date posted
- 21w
Is it supposed to feel so real ?
Is ocd supposed to feel like a genuine belief ? I see or hear some people saying things like « I know it’s not true but …. » while I personally don’t « know that it’s not true » I feels genuinely real and I even find evidence for it
Juris
- Date posted
- 20w
It’s so scary because it feels real
I have really bed harming intrusive thoughts and sometimes feels like it’s feeling! The thoughts happening every day and the hardest part is that I’m testing my self in head all the time if that’s what I am or want!!! Also, so many times feels like I’m been tricking myself and doctor or people and maybe I don’t have OCD, just that maybe it’s me really!!!! How can I know who I am really 🥹???!!??
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