One time I think that I should live and everhthing is actually okay, but then I start to think again that I am so weird, crazy and I should end my life. :) and it's so weird and I have a feelings of derealization often, it's like I am not completely there and because of that I can't think about the things I need to work on and I am scared that I will be always like that.
i relate…
I am so sorry for that
Please, please know that you are not alone! I know OCD makes you feel like this, isolated and like no one could possibly understand, but know that that is just on of its tricks. You can get better, OCD is very treatable and manageable. It will not always feel this way💛
Also if you are in the US you can utilize these resources: National Suicide Prevention Lifeline #988 The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is a national network of local crisis centers that provides free and confidential emotional support to people in suicidal crisis or emotional distress 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. National Crisis Text Line Text "HOME" from anywhere in the U.S. to 741741 for free, 24/7 crisis support from a trained Crisis Counselor.
I’m so sorry you’re going through this. It is so scary to feel disconnected from the world around you. I’ve been there. It may be comforting to know that a lot of people experience derealization like this, and you’re absolutely not alone. Like Stacy said, this will pass. We can’t know exactly when, but we can work to accept it so that we’re not spending a lot of mental energy checking our bodily sensations and trying to make it go away. Something I learned from Nathan Peterson’s YouTube channel is that we can respond to these feelings of being disconnected/like you’re not there or “going crazy” just like we would to other obsessions. By not trying to push the feelings or thoughts away, but embracing them and allowing them to be there while we go about our life anyway. Are you interested in seeking OCD treatment? NOCD is always available for a free call to discuss your options. I am sending you so much care and solidarity 💜 And here is the video I mentioned, in case you want to check it out: https://www.ocdandanxietycounseling.com/videos/how-to-stop-derealization
I can't tell if my derealization got worst.. I feel different like things feel fake or is this how it feels to feel normal? Everything just looks and feels weird I'm scared I think Ima start having an anxiety attack.
Some days I just feel weird. Life feels weird. I think it happens when I over think what I’m doing too much. It feels like I’m on the brink of a panic attack but I don’t know why. It’s a very weird feeling.
Does anyone else just start thinking about life, and how it may not be real? I’ve always found myself stuck in my head just going down a rabbit hole of thoughts such as existential thoughts. I don’t know how to distract myself and I just feel very depressed over this. It makes every day difficult to live. I also find myself worrying about death a lot, I’m still very young, 14, yet still feel like I have only a few years left.. as if I’m a grandma.
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