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harm ocd
can ocd compulsions be violent? cause i have this feeling like i NEED to do it but i’m getting really anxious
can ocd compulsions be violent? cause i have this feeling like i NEED to do it but i’m getting really anxious
Do you have someone that you trust that you can talk with? This sounds super hard. When I'm struggling I talk with my family and sometimes I text my therapist.
@Jesse M. I talk to my mum about it, but it’s not really helping that much anymore
@S<3 Do you have a doctor, therapist, counsellor, or another professional that you're working with?
You are not alone! You will get through this.
What do you mean
@68273 like i have this very strong urge to do it :( i’m so scared
@68273 the fact you said what do you mean makes me feel like this isn’t a normal ocd symptom and i might actually act out :(
@S<3 I'm not a therapist but if you're scared it sounds like how I experience OCD. My OCD can have urges as thoughts.
@Jesse M. but what if i’m not scared ? what if i’m just using my anxiety as an excuse for these urges, how can i know if i actually want to do these things or not. i just wanna end it all
@S<3 I understand how hard it is. I really truly do. Do you have any coping mechanisms you can practice right now? Like distracting your mind from the anxiety or worry. I’m not sure what works for you but Maybe you could practice breathing or mindfulness or mindful coloring/piano/pet animals. This could definitely be harm OCD where you have the urge to harm yourself. It also could be maybe a spin-off of OCD to depression, since they go hand in hand. I would definitely talk with your therapist
@S<3 If you're in crisis you gotta reach out for help to professionals. Thinking something doesn't make it real. How you choose to act is what matters. You're a person. You deserve love and kindness. If you can't give that to yourself right now it's ok. I'm a person who wants to give you love and kindness. We all gotta take care of ourselves first, so if you need help right now, it's ok, you can get help.
@sydneylhill I’ve had POCD before and i’m fully over that but now i’ve switch to Harm OCD where i’m scared i will harm others, it’s like a i have this urge to do so except i start to get really scared and my hands start to sweat . i’m scared that the only way i won’t hurt someone is if i’m locked up. I’m undiagnosed and have no therapist as i’m a broke uni student who can’t afford anything rn so i think i’m just gonna go crazy
@S<3 I’m so sorry. I went to Rogers, behavioral health for my OCD and if you want, I can share very helpful ways to “get rid of” intrusive thoughts. It just takes a lot of work on our part but it does work.
@S<3 For what it's worth, I thought about harming myself and my partner dozens of times today, and I chose to not engage with that, and just let the thoughts exist. They came and went. It's not fun but I'm living proof that a person can live with these thoughts and feel happy sometimes.
I’m sorry I didn’t mean it like how you are interpreting. I’ve actually had the same where someone said what do you mean and I spiraled thinking my thoughts are urges were real. I just didn’t understand what you meant, I had harm ocd before and it was very very scary. Sounds like that’s what you are experiencing
but is it OCD if when i get a thought that makes me anxious i have to hit my head a certain number of times to get it out of my head to relive my brain that everything is fine now (doesn’t always help though). or am i just being dramatic?
i haven’t been diagnosed with ocd but I have anxiety about harming other people/family members and it’s like urges and im scared I actually want to do it? I don’t think I’ve ever been violent as a kid (im 21 now) and the intrusive thoughts don’t go away so im just stuck all day everyday for the past few weeks just thinking and being scared about it and im having all these weird emotions like being irritated and angry I don’t want to hurt people I don’t think idk why my mind is making me think I do I’ve had intrusive thoughts before that I could brush away sure it took like a day or two but this one is different it doesn’t go away and leaves me with the worst fear imaginable and nothing I look up that should be giving me relief is giving me relief + I feel like im not in control of my body and that im just gonna lose it and act on these thoughts it’s just all on a loop and im not sure how im supposed to live the rest of my life when im in constant fear of my self
Resisting compulsions feels so wrong and dangerous, I’m trying my best but the anxiety of doing so is immense. Especially because my brain is still not allowing myself to believe that my obsession is OCD, it wants me to believe it is a threat, so even calling my compulsions “compulsions” is making me anxious because that is me calling this whole thing OCD and not real if that makes sense?
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