harm ocd

@Jesse M. I talk to my mum about it, but it’s not really helping that much anymore

@S<3 Do you have a doctor, therapist, counsellor, or another professional that you're working with?

@68273 like i have this very strong urge to do it :( i’m so scared

@68273 the fact you said what do you mean makes me feel like this isn’t a normal ocd symptom and i might actually act out :(

@S<3 I'm not a therapist but if you're scared it sounds like how I experience OCD. My OCD can have urges as thoughts.

@Jesse M. but what if i’m not scared ? what if i’m just using my anxiety as an excuse for these urges, how can i know if i actually want to do these things or not. i just wanna end it all

@S<3 I understand how hard it is. I really truly do. Do you have any coping mechanisms you can practice right now? Like distracting your mind from the anxiety or worry. I’m not sure what works for you but Maybe you could practice breathing or mindfulness or mindful coloring/piano/pet animals. This could definitely be harm OCD where you have the urge to harm yourself. It also could be maybe a spin-off of OCD to depression, since they go hand in hand. I would definitely talk with your therapist

@S<3 If you're in crisis you gotta reach out for help to professionals. Thinking something doesn't make it real. How you choose to act is what matters. You're a person. You deserve love and kindness. If you can't give that to yourself right now it's ok. I'm a person who wants to give you love and kindness. We all gotta take care of ourselves first, so if you need help right now, it's ok, you can get help.

@sydneylhill I’ve had POCD before and i’m fully over that but now i’ve switch to Harm OCD where i’m scared i will harm others, it’s like a i have this urge to do so except i start to get really scared and my hands start to sweat . i’m scared that the only way i won’t hurt someone is if i’m locked up. I’m undiagnosed and have no therapist as i’m a broke uni student who can’t afford anything rn so i think i’m just gonna go crazy

@S<3 I’m so sorry. I went to Rogers, behavioral health for my OCD and if you want, I can share very helpful ways to “get rid of” intrusive thoughts. It just takes a lot of work on our part but it does work.

@S<3 For what it's worth, I thought about harming myself and my partner dozens of times today, and I chose to not engage with that, and just let the thoughts exist. They came and went. It's not fun but I'm living proof that a person can live with these thoughts and feel happy sometimes.