Fightingocd
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- 2y
So weird
I’ve had an ocd episode where I had thoughts like « it’s not ocd I’m just crazy » I couldn’t feel anxiety and guilt anymore it was so scary.. can anyone relate ? I feel so lost thank you..
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- Therapist
- Date posted
- 2y
Hi emnav! So many of our members have the intrusive thought "it's not ocd I'm just crazy." Remember, OCD is the doubting disease and it causes you to doubt everything you thought you knew. Can you share why you are feeling lost?
Fightingocd Fightingocd
- Date posted
- 2y
@NOCD Therapist - Ursula W. Hey ! Thank you so much for your answer, it’s helping me so much. I’m feeling lost because ocd gave me the feeling that I liked my thoughts once and it was literally against my values.. and then I got false memories from this event and I have so much trouble to move on with this event.. false memory of something I knew was impossible and I feel so hopeless now that I imagined the worst case possible.. I started erp with one of the therapist which is helping but have still a bit of trouble sometimes 😢😢
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- Therapist
- Date posted
- 2y
@emnav - Hey! So first of all, don't forget you can always reach out to your therapist for guidance in the member app. That is what we are here for! So lets talk ERP for a moment. Sounds like you're stuck in a bout of rumination right now, so first, I want you to be sure you recognize this spiral you've gotten into today. Then, if OCD is giving you the feeling that you liked your thoughts once then just tell it "yeah, I probably did" and then STOP, sit with the anxiety, and let your anxiety dissipate by at least half, if not to a lower 0-3 level if you can. In therapy, sometimes we have our members imagine the worst outcome possible to help them process with ERP; however, this is not the easiest thing to do on your own because it does make you feel hopeless. OCD is so good at making us feel hopeless, but remember, you cannot stop intrusive thoughts - everyone has them, even those without OCD. They just choose to respond to them differently than those of us with OCD do - me included. Once we (those with OCD) learn that the OCD is trying to panic us and we choose NOT to let it happen and not to ruminate any more and move on... then we find healing. You're going to get there! I promise. Reach out to your therapist for more guidance! I wish you joy!
Fightingocd Fightingocd
- Date posted
- 2y
@NOCD Therapist - Ursula W. Thank you so much! I really appreciate all of your advices!! It’s helping me so much to see I’m not alone in that. Thank you a lot. I wish you a very good day 😊
crazyfeelings crazyfeelings
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- 2y
i actually had that happen to me at the end of my recovery from sexual orientation ocd. i felt like i was lying because i wasn’t so upset about it. but not being upset about it means you’re getting stronger and you’re realizing these feelings are ocd. keep pushing and when doubts come up always tell yourself it’s just your ocd!!
KMOR KMOR
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
Yes a lot of ocd members struggle with this often actually , intrusive thought thinking it’s schizophrenia.
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- Therapist
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- 2y
kaymart, yes! I have many members who come to me and say "I'm afraid I'm going crazy or may have schizophrenia and don't know it!" OCD is so predictable in the way it makes us believe that what it is saying is truth. It does many of the same things to so many people.
Fightingocd Fightingocd
- Date posted
- 2y
@kaymart I’ve had this exact thing !! I thought I was going through schizophrenia when it happened it was a hell 😢
KMOR KMOR
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 2y
@NOCD Therapist - Ursula W. I’m so scared to start my new job because my anxiety is off the chain and I’m not medicated because I’m trying to do this therapy first. My ocd tells me I’m gonna fail at it and lose my job and be a failure as a provider and mom.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 2y
@kaymart That’s exactly how I feel ! Especially the mom part and being a provider
KMOR KMOR
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@Anonymous How do you handle it? What career do you do?
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 2y
@kaymart Honestly Im still trying to figure out how to handle it I just signed for therapy so hopefully that helps. And auto insurance very stressful as well
KMOR KMOR
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@Anonymous I wish you the best. Do you take any medicine?
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 2y
@kaymart Thank you ! When my son was first born, I was on Zoloft. And then I stopped and got off medicine for a while and then had a little rough patch and I get these every few years of intrusive thoughts I’m honestly scared of taking meds but if I need it then I guess I will
KMOR KMOR
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@Anonymous I have a hard time finding the right medicine . My doc wants me to try Buspirone but I’m scared to.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 2y
@kaymart Yes me too. I signed up for gene sight it basically tests your DNA for the medication that cause side effects
KMOR KMOR
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@Anonymous Well get this , I did that test and my PSYCH doc put me on 3 of the ones I’m supposedly allergic to and it’s been a nightmare coming off all the ones he tried back to back on me. So now that I pointed that out he wants me to try buspar . Which is why I’m so scared to try it because everything else he wanted me on damn near killed me
geraltgeralt
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- 2y
You are not alone.
Fightingocd Fightingocd
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- 2y
@geralt It is just so weird I’m so afraid I’ve lost control and it’s like this for almost 2 months now..
geraltgeralt
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@emnav I am struggling with harm OCD and other themes since two months too. Is part of the OCD, part of its illusions.
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Fightingocd Fightingocd
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@MushroomStew It’s so hard.. I have the same
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Fightingocd Fightingocd
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@Liz2464 It was horrible I’ve had the feeling that I liked it or something I felt so terrible
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