So weird

@NOCD Therapist - Ursula W. Hey ! Thank you so much for your answer, it’s helping me so much. I’m feeling lost because ocd gave me the feeling that I liked my thoughts once and it was literally against my values.. and then I got false memories from this event and I have so much trouble to move on with this event.. false memory of something I knew was impossible and I feel so hopeless now that I imagined the worst case possible.. I started erp with one of the therapist which is helping but have still a bit of trouble sometimes 😢😢

@emnav - Hey! So first of all, don't forget you can always reach out to your therapist for guidance in the member app. That is what we are here for! So lets talk ERP for a moment. Sounds like you're stuck in a bout of rumination right now, so first, I want you to be sure you recognize this spiral you've gotten into today. Then, if OCD is giving you the feeling that you liked your thoughts once then just tell it "yeah, I probably did" and then STOP, sit with the anxiety, and let your anxiety dissipate by at least half, if not to a lower 0-3 level if you can. In therapy, sometimes we have our members imagine the worst outcome possible to help them process with ERP; however, this is not the easiest thing to do on your own because it does make you feel hopeless. OCD is so good at making us feel hopeless, but remember, you cannot stop intrusive thoughts - everyone has them, even those without OCD. They just choose to respond to them differently than those of us with OCD do - me included. Once we (those with OCD) learn that the OCD is trying to panic us and we choose NOT to let it happen and not to ruminate any more and move on... then we find healing. You're going to get there! I promise. Reach out to your therapist for more guidance! I wish you joy!

@NOCD Therapist - Ursula W. Thank you so much! I really appreciate all of your advices!! It’s helping me so much to see I’m not alone in that. Thank you a lot. I wish you a very good day 😊

kaymart, yes! I have many members who come to me and say "I'm afraid I'm going crazy or may have schizophrenia and don't know it!" OCD is so predictable in the way it makes us believe that what it is saying is truth. It does many of the same things to so many people.

@kaymart I’ve had this exact thing !! I thought I was going through schizophrenia when it happened it was a hell 😢

@NOCD Therapist - Ursula W. I’m so scared to start my new job because my anxiety is off the chain and I’m not medicated because I’m trying to do this therapy first. My ocd tells me I’m gonna fail at it and lose my job and be a failure as a provider and mom.

@kaymart That’s exactly how I feel ! Especially the mom part and being a provider

@Anonymous How do you handle it? What career do you do?

@kaymart Honestly Im still trying to figure out how to handle it I just signed for therapy so hopefully that helps. And auto insurance very stressful as well

@Anonymous I wish you the best. Do you take any medicine?

@kaymart Thank you ! When my son was first born, I was on Zoloft. And then I stopped and got off medicine for a while and then had a little rough patch and I get these every few years of intrusive thoughts I’m honestly scared of taking meds but if I need it then I guess I will

@Anonymous I have a hard time finding the right medicine . My doc wants me to try Buspirone but I’m scared to.

@kaymart Yes me too. I signed up for gene sight it basically tests your DNA for the medication that cause side effects

@Anonymous Well get this , I did that test and my PSYCH doc put me on 3 of the ones I’m supposedly allergic to and it’s been a nightmare coming off all the ones he tried back to back on me. So now that I pointed that out he wants me to try buspar . Which is why I’m so scared to try it because everything else he wanted me on damn near killed me

@geralt It is just so weird I’m so afraid I’ve lost control and it’s like this for almost 2 months now..

@emnav I am struggling with harm OCD and other themes since two months too. Is part of the OCD, part of its illusions.

@MushroomStew It’s so hard.. I have the same

@Liz2464 It was horrible I’ve had the feeling that I liked it or something I felt so terrible