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- notfortalk
- Date posted
- 5y ago
- Username
- notfortalknotfortalk
- Date posted
- 5y ago
This is was so helpful for me. You literally brought me tears of joy lol :) can't wait to start therapy and get better. Glad you're doing better now :)
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- FrankinFrankin
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Hey ??
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Same I used to have hocd it manifested into tocd
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- pureolifepureolife
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I’ve had and recovered from HOCD. As difficult as it is to have the images, it’s the act of trying to avoid or push them away that’s giving them power. Let them happen, don’t suppress or analyze them, sit with the anxiety. Do that over and over and over. Eventually, your anxiety will dissipate. You’ll get bored. You’ll heal. It may take weeks or months, but commit to the process and it does work. Good luck!
- Username
- notfortalknotfortalk
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@pureolife I don't even have that much anxiety anymore, but they seem so real and give me such a horrible feeling. Did you experience fake attractions? What was recovery like? (sorry if it's too much)
- Username
- pureolifepureolife
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Yes I did! I thought I was attracted to literally every female on the planet. I would stare at the ground when walking to avoid seeing women and think I was getting aroused at the mere site of female legs walking past me. I was a prisoner of my mind. And now, I’m not. Recovery was enlightening. The more open to having the thoughts I was, the more I realized how powerless they had been all along. When my attraction to men finally came back, I swear it was more powerful than it was before the Ocd lol.
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- Username
- deputydean
- Date posted
- 5y ago
The thoughts are incredibly real at the moment. Thoughts that come into my mind include a vivid "You are gay, just accept it." The pressure is too much. It feels like my brain is being mushed and flattened I've reached yet another low and I'm here praying that these thoughts will stop bullying me and controlling my life.
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- idont241
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I can’t anymore. I really can’t. The what if I am attracted to them. The “why does it have to be a man with a woman” (which by the way- I only now get when women are talking in love songs. And whenever I look at any couple). I am just tired. Tired of feelings like crap. I just want to go to what I was before, but was I like this before? Have I always been like this? I am tired. My anxiety levels are ALWAYS the worse at the morning. I am starting to obsess whether I like this friend now! And it doesn’t matter how much I try to accept it, it doesn’t go away. Like there is still something wrong. I hate this. I hate this so fucking much. At this point. How can I still be straight? I literally get triggered by everything. And how can I just not be gay? I have no reason to think that but it feels so real. It’s like I have no sexuality at all. And this is all that I can think about every single hour of my day. I am even thinking about this in dreams! I even wonder that the fact I am so upset right now is because I am scared of telling people and that they won’t accept me. When I don’t even know who I am myself. I am so done. What even is this? Have I always been like this? I am getting flashbacks and it’s telling me I have.
- Username
- val ʚĭɞ
- Date posted
- 4y ago
at this point i thought of ending it all. i can’t go to therapy, i’m trying so hard. i think i’m starting to develop self-harm ocd, since i’m having constant thoughts of hurting myself. my brain hurts. i don’t want to be with a woman. i want to get married to a guy but my mind keeps telling me that i don’t. i don’t even know what my gut is telling me anymore. it’s like my mind is hushing it out. i can’t deal with this anymore.
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