notfortalk
- Date posted
- 6y
notfortalknotfortalk
- Date posted
- 6y
This is was so helpful for me. You literally brought me tears of joy lol :) can't wait to start therapy and get better. Glad you're doing better now :)
FrankinFrankin
- Date posted
- 6y
Hey ??
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 6y
Same I used to have hocd it manifested into tocd
pureolifepureolife
- Date posted
- 6y
I’ve had and recovered from HOCD. As difficult as it is to have the images, it’s the act of trying to avoid or push them away that’s giving them power. Let them happen, don’t suppress or analyze them, sit with the anxiety. Do that over and over and over. Eventually, your anxiety will dissipate. You’ll get bored. You’ll heal. It may take weeks or months, but commit to the process and it does work. Good luck!
notfortalknotfortalk
- Date posted
- 6y
@pureolife I don't even have that much anxiety anymore, but they seem so real and give me such a horrible feeling. Did you experience fake attractions? What was recovery like? (sorry if it's too much)
pureolifepureolife
- Date posted
- 6y
Yes I did! I thought I was attracted to literally every female on the planet. I would stare at the ground when walking to avoid seeing women and think I was getting aroused at the mere site of female legs walking past me. I was a prisoner of my mind. And now, I’m not. Recovery was enlightening. The more open to having the thoughts I was, the more I realized how powerless they had been all along. When my attraction to men finally came back, I swear it was more powerful than it was before the Ocd lol.
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- Date posted
- 25w
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Animallover065
- Date posted
- 21w
Can anyone talk?
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geodrimilis
- Date posted
- 16w
I’m sick and tired of this .
I just can’t do this shit anymore.im tired of these “arousal” sensations that feel real but when I go check my arousal to the same gender I just get anxiety. I’m tired of feeling like I can’t like girls anymore. I’m tired of my arousal getting blocked every now and then because I’m anxious. I’m tired of not knowing who I am anymore. I’m tired of having my mind putting me into an identity I never asked for. I’m tired of this life
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