I'm literally just exhausted, I just to cry and rip my brain apart. I either get sexual images or gay ones or weird ones. I'm literally worn out, I don't see the point in keep doing this if I have to stay like this. I would rather die or lock myself alone for the rest of my life than being with someone of the same sex. I truly feel like I'm gonna do or say something screwed up. I just want this to stop please

This is was so helpful for me. You literally brought me tears of joy lol :) can't wait to start therapy and get better. Glad you're doing better now :)

Hey ??

Same I used to have hocd it manifested into tocd

I’ve had and recovered from HOCD. As difficult as it is to have the images, it’s the act of trying to avoid or push them away that’s giving them power. Let them happen, don’t suppress or analyze them, sit with the anxiety. Do that over and over and over. Eventually, your anxiety will dissipate. You’ll get bored. You’ll heal. It may take weeks or months, but commit to the process and it does work. Good luck!

@pureolife I don't even have that much anxiety anymore, but they seem so real and give me such a horrible feeling. Did you experience fake attractions? What was recovery like? (sorry if it's too much)

Yes I did! I thought I was attracted to literally every female on the planet. I would stare at the ground when walking to avoid seeing women and think I was getting aroused at the mere site of female legs walking past me. I was a prisoner of my mind. And now, I’m not. Recovery was enlightening. The more open to having the thoughts I was, the more I realized how powerless they had been all along. When my attraction to men finally came back, I swear it was more powerful than it was before the Ocd lol.