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Bipolar
Does anyone on here have bipolar? How did you find out you had it, or make you think you had it?
Does anyone on here have bipolar? How did you find out you had it, or make you think you had it?
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@Liz2464 What exactly is an episode like? if you don’t mind me asking
@Liz2464 I’ve never been diagnosed with it. But I have had my bouts with depression since being diagnosed with OCD..but after I come out of my depression I feel really happy and hopeful? Is that the same feeling…kind of like I’m ready to do the things I enjoy again. I do feel irritable at times bc I work alot: Is that something similar to bipolar or is that just depression? I also want to thank you for sharing and opening up❤️
@Liz2464 Not really..I’m kind of just in the middle if that makes sense..I have bad days & good days. It only happens when OCD flares up. Does that make sense? Don’t apologize you explained it well!
🙋 bipolar diagnosed 2006 after severe 6 month manic episode. Earliest memory of having both depressive and manic episodes are from the mid 90s. Manic episodes are extreme, no sleep, weight loss, I exercise 10 hours a day, mood is irritable and either I'm happy and energetic or angry. Usually crashes into depression with loss of appetite/binge eating, sh, si, no sleep/too much sleep. I've not had the so called hypomania (period of euphoric happiness) in years. I miss it a lot. All the creativity and being happy and seeing beauty everywhere. My last manic episode lasted 10 months 😵💫. I was told bipolar tends to get worse with age and I'd agree, however it's different for everyone, just like the episodes can be very different. Depending of the symptoms medical treatment isn't always needed either.
For me there's severe memory loss during worse episodes but I'm getting older too 😒
@Raymaru I appreciate you sharing! I don’t think I’m going through that. I feel like I’d know right? I have been diagnosed with OCD and depression..never even thought of bipolar depression until I saw a video and OCD ran with it lol
@Matthew007 I did things that made it worse, like substance abuse and unhealthy habits. With bipolar its even more important to sleep and eat properly. And it is one of those things that ocd can make seem overwhelming. For getting clarity it's useful to keep a mood chart, write down how the mood is every day and show it to your doctor. My therapy included keeping a mood chart and going through it with my therapist every two weeks. It helped predict the more severe episodes. If the mood swings worry you definitely talk to a professional.
Sorry if I sound like offering reassurance, trying my best to stop doing that 😑 also not want to scare anyone, I realized my symptoms sounded pretty scary.
@Raymaru Lol nah your good! I appreciate you sharing your story. Thank you so much
Hello all, I don’t have insurance at the moment (lost eligibility due to me making more money, but not enough to afford medication and visits) and have been struggling a LOT. When I was going to therapy, I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2 Disorder. I never got to expand on other mental health concerns I had and it bothers me that I can’t receive the proper advice that I need. If this is not allowed, I completely understand (and you may delete) but I figured I’d give this app a shot to get some clarification and knowledge on the topic. I experience MANY intrusive thoughts that destabilize my relationships and daily mood. I always pitched it to be my B2D symptoms, but the more I read into OCD or rather, Relationship OCD, I feel connected to others’ experiences. My boyfriend has been cheated on in the past—to such a bad degree, that it can be hard for him to trust me. I have never been cheated on nor have I ever thought cheating was okay, but I experience nearly daily intrusive thoughts that I am a horrible partner. Even worse yet, the intrusive thoughts often include overanalyzing my body language and making myself believe that I am somehow presenting myself in a way that would make men “like” me and therefore convincing my boyfriend that I am or will cheat on him if given the chance. It gets so bad that when my boyfriend questions an interaction I have with a dude, I freeze and become so panicked that I feel as though I am “giving away” that I did something wrong—even though I didn’t do anything at all. I am fiercely loyal to people in my life and could never imagine hurting anyone, so the very thought that I could “potentially” do this gnaws away at my social comfortability and self-confidence. I always feel as though I’m a horrible person and I am constantly trying to “make up” for something I didn’t even do. I’ll cry myself to sleep ruminating on every detail of the moment I had these thoughts or when I spoke to my boyfriend about it. It just haunts my thoughts honestly and makes socializing impossible nearly all the time. Eye contact has been a huge problem for me lately even—as if eye contact seals the deal on me being an “unfaithful” partner. Or laughing! Because if I show any sort of interest in the conversation—no matter how respectful and short it is—I believe it’ll spiral into my boyfriend leaving me (which is completely ridiculous and not true!) It’s almost like imposter syndrome in a way—because I feel as though no amount of reassurance or truth that I am a kind, loyal girlfriend, I will eventually ruin it anyway so I don’t deserve respect or affirmations. And it’s not even just with my boyfriend. Friends I have lost in the past clutter my mind as well. I have constant guilt and regret over potentially being a horrible friend despite how hard I fought/fight to keep that person in my life. Honestly, it gets to a point now where I’m convinced I will mess up any form of relationship I have eventually so I suppress my feelings or thoughts that could potentially upset people or make them question if I am really valuable in their life (often I can feel detached from people while being physically present with them because I get so lost in my head about what-ifs or where to look or if I’m causing someone to feel uncomfortable or that what they are or I’m saying isn’t satisfying the “ideal” friendship) . I let people walk all over me, deal with uncomfortable settings to avoid conflict and struggle to assert myself or have any sense of who I truly am with other people. It has put such a strain on me and my relationships, especially my best friend and my boyfriend and I’s relationships—which hold highest priority in my life at the moment. It can be hard to “let go” of people because it’s just another person who I have failed—including my own family members whom have definitely given reason for me to be not close with them. I also struggle with perfectionism and order during “stressful” situations, to the point where I will put myself into an anxiety episode over the simplest changes, unexpected accidents or things not going to plan. Again, this could very well be a symptom of Bipolar, but it truly causes me to blow situations WAY out of proportion and convince myself that I will never resolve it or make things better unless I can set it exactly how it was supposed to be in my head. The executive dysfunction is real on that one…To some, it could be procrastination. Or even just my cycles rapidly changing. But it affects my outlook on most things—financial matters, relationships, responsibilities, hygiene, cleaning. I can go from having complete confidence in doing something, to being doubtful that I could even get myself to get out of bed because I know I won’t do what I need/want to do. Sometimes I’ll even elaborately plan a course of action the day before and then when the time comes to do it, I lose control of my will to do it due to my intrusive thoughts. I do NOT expect anyone to “diagnose” me and I’m not sway the audience into agreeing with me in any way. I truly only want to hear your experiences, and if you also struggle to differentiate if you’ve been properly diagnosed or have overlapping symptoms that you can relate in some way. I want to better understand OCD and possibly connect with people who have had the same experiences. I appreciate any feedback—as long as it’s beneficial to this discussion and helping anyone else who struggle with the same thoughts—or even struggling to identify yourself or afford treatment! I just am curious, and honestly needed to have a platform to express some deep stuff I haven’t really discussed with anyone else besides my boyfriend. Thank yall for reading/listening regardless!
Can someone with bpd tell me how it feel like I think I might have that and I m trying to to get the right treatment if I do
My current obsession is around mental health, specifically that I have undiagnosed Bipolar 2. Any changes in my mood are triggering and in my compulsive googling to make myself feel better (never works lol) I discovered that ocd and bipolar are linked in like 10-20% of cases?! So now I feel worse. Anyone else experience mental health fears?
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